happie birthday to Ms Vicky!

lotz to blog...gotta take my time..

my parents brought to have breakfast,and i told my dad that my class starts at 10 before that.who noes when i was jus finished my breakfast n jus to get into the car,my msg tone beeped...fengyun asked me didnt i noe there is a class now!OH NO!seriously i dinnolo!i was kinda nervous but wutz the point rite..cos i was at sri petaling,it takes me bout 30 mins to get back to coll!anyway,i was stil considered early since i reached coll at 9.45,if my class starts at 10la..kakka!anyway,costing...i thought i could cope up with it easily...and the fact is true!kakak..sounds arrogant!?i discovered that yuen likes to play a fool with me or joke with me now!hmmm..he alwis saying n doing the opposite of me!itz soooo obvious!sometimes, i dun even noe that im being angry with him...but stil laughing like hell..kakka!hez funnyla...but he got sick..poor dude!my mind wasnt in the classroom cos i found myself dreaming..kakk!not with tt...but a korean actor..kakka!i've got crazy bout him!
anyway,after that we had lunch togather..and revised later!lok n that gang was praticing a scatch for a wedding night specially dedicated to their lect-Mr Eddie!the story is bout the couple!!n i think this is so sweet cos the groom is preparing this surprise for the bride!OH NO!such a sweet guy!i dreamed for a moment when seeing them practised!i wonder how would i wan my ideal wedding night to be huh!?playing a song written by him n singing it with a guitar!?i hope he'l be a romantic personlol!!wait,i dun even have a bf now...kakak!evert was dancing so smoothly where he was demostrating the female part to a gal...so gentle!kkakak!n lok sounds funny when they were trying to be the aid to sem!after fengyun went off,we went for dinner.hmmm...had a short conversation with them before goin home to have a bath!

i was late to the church...everyone was sitting on the floor,n this is the first time for me to join their REAL events!eugene jus got me a place...n this part was act to share ya thoughts,feelings,activities that are happening recently in life.well,im stil not willing to share..then i jus told them im stressful from my preparation for the exams.after then they prayed for us,for the preparations of X'mas,the exams,health...n we received blessings from them!then there was a scatch prepared by some members as an opening and oso for us to laugh after a whole day of tiring and stressful work!then began to sing some workship songs!i was truely shocked here!cos wan theng,fengyun ,chunlee, and me are not christians, but we til enjoyed the songs since there was a live band there..so we jus sang!but wut i saw was different.....i looked around..lok,nadicson and some of them were so 'near' to GOD!they seemed to have closely connected to GOD!i was speechless when i turned my head to look at simon!!he seemed to have give himself to GOD!i was taken aback wit him!however,my concerntration was on bryan!hez the elect guitarist here,jus reminds me of tt!anyway,he plays well!bible time!perhaps i was new,so therez much thing which i dunno!but we jus sat togather,i din really listen to wut he said in front...so when he pray for us...or giving blessings to us..i felt kinda guilty!cos i din do anything for them...yet they stil pray for us!somehow,i jus asked GOD to forgive me for not being as a follower to HIM,i jus asked for forgiveness for everything that i've done...at the same while they were praying!u must have inquiring why did i go since i nv join REAL all the while...wel,the main point here was Ms Vicky!!i go there for the celebration of her birthday!and oso not forgotten to eat the cake!kakkak!everything seemed to be nice...n she likes our present too!itz act a photo frame where she can put 10 pics at the same time!i did insert all our photos taken togather with her!
chat n laugh....play!tatz all for the day!

perhaps im not used to attending events or activities like this...perhaps im not a socialable person...perhaps i not religious enough..perhaps im not respectful enough...perhaps im not open minded enough...i believe therez a GOD with us all the time...

another thing was...i discovered that bro fall into LT!i was kinda geram at first..not that jealousy has arose...itz jus that sem is putting much effort onto her...n now hez doin something...wel,u noe i have no rights in talking bout it..perhaps they'l jus compete..but i'l stand at semz side for this time!cos when i saw the way he talked to her,hmmm,sounds a little kinda fake!i dun mean hez fake or pretending..but jus not the ordinary one!whereas sem is jus being shy...

my ring!

yea!!!finally i got it back here...

tell u wut?tat day i was so frustrated wit the prob to log in here...i needed so much to blog out..but then i couldnt log in..so i intended to blog at friendster..however, blogger.com is more preferable...cos i hardly pour out everything there....especially secrets..kaka!so letz continue here...

recently im watching two korean series..im so crazy with them!'My Girl' and 'Wedding'..wel,i watched My girl before but since my sis bought it for me...then i jus watch in the car....while channel 18 is broadcasting 'wedding'...hmmm!!im so so so into both actors in both series!OH NO!there are awesome!!!my type!!kakkaka!though not super duper handsome..but i really love them!
yaya...i went to Ikeano power centre today...and something happened makes me feel sad!i lost a ring!!!!!!!!OH NO!my frens gave it to me when my birthday...itz act two rings and can be combine into one....i spilted into two n wore them on different fingers!who noes!!sad!they bought it since based on my starscope!im soooo sad!!!!how could it be!?i searched for a while..but really have no idea where did i lost it!!i realised when i was queing up at the cashier!OH NO!how could i be sooo slow!??haih!!can i have it back!!!????sad!itz not bout the price,....itz meaningful in the sense!shitla!i wonder where can i get the same thing!!!!!!but itz meanigless!!!!!!

wouldnt it be surprising to continue after a long time?supposingly i would be excited to share with u guys bout my experience bout the D&D..anyway, somethings and someone makes me dun feel like bloggin out, or even thought of collapsing this blog as well!anyhow,i wont cos this blog is meaningful to me!i really hope to remain this..
anyway,many things happening continuously,firstly i got my D&D,unexpectably that we stil get together and have fun though the performance had over...but the friendship is stil there...somehow, i jus dun feel like joining YA,perhaps im not their kind!as in im not as socialable as them..i do enjoy goin out or yum cha with them..but not those events!letz talk bout last week,someone called me up n intended to say nothing!who could it be?the first person i thought was him-kah hou!nonetheless, i jus couldnt give it a dare to make the second call!itz pointless if he jus answer me reluctantly!i dun wanna him to talk to me like how he used to be previously!itz pain!i cried almost half of the day..serious!i couldnt control myself!i was trying my best to stop crying,but the tears jus dripped off so naturally...my mind was filled with the memories we used to be together,we used to have fun...wel,everything has over!
this monday,i went to red box to celebrate semz birthday!i tot it would be dam dam dam boring at first cos we dinno each other well!i was so not in the mood in the morning cos cws not done yet...stil gotta have fun with them!but i was kinda shocked when feng yun had got into fire...she was soo angry since the guys were not punctual...but how could she angry the birthday boy?i jus think that itz not rite to spoilt everyonez mood...though she thinks that the guys are to be blamed!shouldnt celebration be happie!?anyway,thanks lokie cos he was trying to let me to sing with evart!kakak!my face gone red like a tomato k!anyway,he has a nice vocal!hez jus awesome..talented,brilliant,.....such a nice guy!wutz less than blowing off 19 candles and giving the gifts during celebration...i got sooo fed up with this...since the same thing happened last monday at red box but that was sunway pyramid...n this was the curve!i felt sooo dam sien!why cant the celebration be kinda outstanding!?perhaps this is the culture of celebrating birthday among the coll students!and some kinda birthday celebration is gonna take place the day after tomoro!wut can i do?how can i reject!?can i jus go there n sit...can i jus talk nothing cos i have nothing to say excluding happy birthday!i miss the harmony,i miss sitting down chatting with my dears,i miss jaming,i miss chattin in the blues,under the stars and moon,with a glass of wine in the hand...laying on the huge n soft pillow,talking heart to heart,with laughters and tears,i jus missing it!somehow, i jus dun like to have a big gang cos there would have no chance to share the inner feelings!or u may jus say..couple!but sometimes not necessary to be that stage,perhaps a fren is enough!suddenly i jus feel that those celebrations would jus blow my mind off!i cant be celebrating like them..isnt it important to see the numbers of ppl coming to celebrate with u!?isnt it the greater the better!?buying cake?having a birthday song?isnt it the normal thing that we usually do?can it be something extraordinary!?gift....the valuable one will alwis be the best!?i think a hug n greeting would jus simply melt off!something which is meaningful...a poem on a card?a song written by yourself?why do ppl alwis evaluate the price of the gift!?isnt it priceless?!

before.....

finally the night has spotted out our hard work...

the annual dinner and dance had jus over ytd night...finally got some time to have a good rest!we were really tired since rushing here and there through out the whole day long..morning class till break, fengyun and me went off the class n joined them to prepare our hairstyle..though itz not as nice as the loreal one..at least we dun have to crack our mind for the hairstyle!after that eugene fetched me back to coll and i did accompanied my gang to have lunch but i couldnt since i passed my wallet to fengyun!later, i went to the library to search for the law reference books...and went home to bring the keyboard to eastin hotel!by 2.30,we were there for the practice and everything till the night!i was feeling kinda bored in the morning where i act sms my dear!how could it be cos itz the day where we're gonna show our master piece...our smiles...and everything!i tried to relax my emotions n things seemed going fine!after getting the rooms, we went up n had a rest...played poker cards..nice!after that,we did went down and had a short practice section again...but this time i felt really really pissed n bored cos the Djs had jus reached the hotel n doing the settings...we couldnt do anything...but edwart was busy with the slides...kakka!sounds funny man!but we did find something to do..playing with the flowers,candles,singing,dancing,laughin around...but Ms vicky seemed nervous but we were jus fooling around!itz almost 5.30 and we act had an hour time for us to bath and set up everything for the D&D!!back to the room,everyone was rushing...bathing,make ups,dress...kakakka!anyway, it was real fun!putting on mascara,eyeliner,eyeshadows,lips,glitters,perfume,etc!but the gals were kinda late...n the guys din wait for us!we went down by 7.30..but the dinner began at 8.05..so it didnt matter to be late!the guys were normal,but necdecson was kinda 'cool'..i think he must had invested a large sum of money into that!btw,simon n edwart were jus simple and nice!

to be continued....i hope to upload some pics here!

wutz life!?

somehow,i feel nothing but strange to him...

wel,we seem to be closed to one and another..he tells me bout his family,feelings,relationship..i tot i would have met someone really nice n true at first..tatz why we are like bro n sis...but sooner or later, i realised something,therez a one-way-frenship where i will forever be the listener..i noe itz good n excellent to lend a ear to ya fren when they need me...but i jus feel relunctant to pour out my thoughts, my feelings,instead i jus keep inside n goes on with his prediction...sometimes,im not feeling as wut he has say,but i dun intend to explain or even tell him the truth cos i think this is my personal things where im given a choice to share with whoever i wan!i feel bad cos this is gonna be so lame n mean to treat a fren like this...cos this might hurts him as in i dun hope he'l noe my this blog!kakakk!anyway,i'l jus keep listening to him...whenever he tells me staff!cos i do think he treats me as fren so im not gonna take the bad way towards him!

basically i would crack my mind of getting wut kinda gift for m frenz birthday..or thinking wut kinda surprises for them...surprisingly i thought of getting my courseworks done instead of thinking where to celebrate with him...i dun feel like doing that cos itz not truely from my heart...i mean i dun intend to send him even a msg..but i did wished him last night!i thought of getting him a card n send it to his letterbox...but i dun feel like walking all the way from coll to his house!i thought that itz a wasted of time..i went to library n searched for some facts!i felt myself sooo weird as in im thinking that hez soo different from the ppl i met all the while!i mean my frens are sooo differnt from him..or u may say them!i dun really like to mix with such a gang...though i noe they are nice ppl ..but jus not style..i dun like ppl to cheat during exams!i dun like ppl to behave in this way!i shudnt be complaining cos no one is perfect..but they are jus sooo different from my gang!i really cant compare them with my gang cos they are soo ''root''!though barry comes from hk,but wutz da point even he doesnt noe how to respect others!?ivy is a nice gal..but we hardly have topics cos somehow i think we have age gap...perhaps im not at their stagelol!!he doesnt seem to be a student..wutz da point of buying all the certificates!?wutz da point of cheating in the exams!?wutz da point of studying in class?!wutz da point of doing all this in life!?why cant he jus rely on himself!?therez not point in paying other ppl to get the courseworks done!i dun like it!itz useless to get such a degree!

one more thing i would like to mention here...i dislike netherson!i really feel annoyed with himla!wutz da purpose of brining his tux here!?i mean why has he to bring it up!?i really dun und!to show off to his frens!?perhaps im not really familiar with him...but i do found him pretty weird some ways!i dun really like his behaviours in treating others...i dun care whether hez from a wealthy family or not...the oni thing i feel irritated is his attitude!i jus dun like it!hez sooooo perculiar!i really dun wanna talk to him sometimes..as in i dun even wanna have a look at his face!i dun wanna choi him!i dun wan!!!!!!!!!!!stupid fella!

wherez my shoe?wherez my phone?

i decided to go for the practice today...

reached there by 9.45am...well,really felt tiring cos i really couldn't slept yesterday night!!seriously this was the first time i'd been through these...i felt really sleepy but my brain was stil ''working''..i felt sooooo suffering...i tot of getting to bed early so that i would have stamina for the next day...who noes....i couldnt get into sleep...til in the middle of the night!i was so scare that i felt myslef mentally depressed...therefore,i decided to got up of the bed and grabbed the MP3 player...i tot i would do it this time...who noes it nv helped!and i jus tried my very best...

anyway,me n crystal decided to practice earlier for the song...but we were both late..hahaha!while waiting for the rest to come...we had jaming for a short while!now i finally realised why my dad refuses to buy a bag to put my keyboard...hahha!i wont be studying now if i have that...cos i'l go jaming all the time til i cant rmb my home!kakakak!anyway,itz nice to listen to a bossanova song but haih...practice n listen to bossanovala!practice began..edward din come...anyway,he came so at least something...kakaka!sounds funny but kinda boring lo...cos we couldnt practice in a syncronised way since not everyone was here!later,we decided to go a break!!CC time!kakakka....we went there to play Counter Strike..well,i used to play this with my gang..but i had forgotten the procedures...kakak!nice man!i really like it now..cos itz so dam nice to play it online with frens...kkaka!they are really pro in playing this gamelo!!chun man!kakak!then bro came to pick up crystal...n we went for a lunch!''shall we meet''....itz a name of the restaurant that we went...i like the atmosphere here...all white...looks comfortable n clean...anyway,i was kinda guilty when they said the food sold here is costly..i nv thought of that at first...i thought they were be no prob since bro told me they often chill out there after cg...haih!sorry guys...i wont give any suggestion next time!sorry dudes!this gang of ppl sounds funny as in they really can speak heart-to-heart...which i think!they seem like willing to share their probs with one and another..anyway,im not too closed with them...perhaps i alwis deal with my dear dear..so our thinkings are kinda similar!get wut i mean dear dear!?

he looks cute

he sounds funny when he sang tat song...

hmm..today was the first day of coll after 5 days of hols due to celebration of hari raya...i felt refreshed in the morning...but the class somehow was a little bit boring...i did enjoyed cos with my gang there..kakka..n oso my The Sims 2!!!i love that game much ...i wanna play it again tmr.i dun care!yuen must lent me his hp!kakakak!he sounds different today..hez so funny recently..as in his attitudes, his actions,his emotions...kakak!!funy la!anyway, after class we went for lunch...hmmm...i was so surprised that kai act has the same taste as me...i mean we have topics on searching the best n right food for our choice!kakakka..finally i realised!anyway,i went for my drum lesson...i was kinda pissed cos o couldnt play out tat particular variation...i was so dam frustrating tat he even demostrated to me..haih!when i walked out the studio..i heard his voice from outside the studio..where there was this boy which is his student...n his dad was waiting down there..i would surely feel pressure with such situation..he did raised up his voice..n i felt kinda scary!later i went to cc ith fengyun!surpringly we spent our time there..where she surfed the net..n as usual i would play my games..andrew called me in a sudden saying asking whether im coming to his house or not...sooner or later,he came to have a drink together!i soooo dam surprisd when he told me that he has a new gf!wow!amazing man!i m glad to hear that !after having a drink with him...we went for our practice..while waited for others to come...i jus tot of seeing simon cos he might be coming for wed n thurs practice..who noes...hez not coming...fortunately someone was here,edward!kakakka...he looks silent n shy...but when i played out that song...Lok n Sem seemed like singing it..n he was by the side trying to sing together...anyway,he forgotten the lyrics...he looks so cute!!!kakakka!

the reason.....chicken hunter vs taurus

i will alwis rmb ,n i noe,let it goes with me..i'l nv leave this part of u...with u gone it plays on itz so hard to move on i wan to but i wanted u now u stay in mny head..im not over u yet,.i tried to but i wanted u...

sounds familiar?i used to put this thing as my display name for some period of time..somehow,i jus miss him...or u may say that im trying to remind myself bout him!anyway,i had pratice in the noon...i was kinda worried cos when things started to be nicely n excited in the beginning,it will end up witha sad conclusion!i was really scare that i might not click with them anymore!i told myself not to think bout it cos as long as he nv then itz fine!this sounds bad to think of a guy who has a gf where i knew both of them!i cant be doing this to myself!im shouldnt have pumped into him!itz a mistake!im so gonna hate myself from moving the wrong step!how could it be!?cheong shiaw lee is not gonna like this guy k!no more!i dun hope things to go wrong n serious n ends up without frenship!''the reason'' by hoobastank..i love this song!itz meaningful!i stil rmb he asked me bout the score last time...i played this song today with the some one playing the drum accompaniment..well,im so glad to have found someone who act have chemistry in music!im pleased to get a person who can have jaming or maybe to compose song togather!tatz real great!yayya...we wore the same colour of t-shirt n jeans as well!!kakkaak!
though it means but gals would think of some creation about it!kakakakak!

i talked to a new fren today...he was act a fren of sharon...dear dear..this is gonna be so fun!!kakak...cos u are trying to get my opinion by introducing him to me..kakak!so dam funnyla...like im gonna make the deision...kakka!anyway,itz nice to talk to him...his name is chau..sounds a nice guy!later,i talked to yiko..wel,he remind me somehting where i ought to put 100 concertration on my edu!thanks bro...i noe it!i'l keep ya word in my mind alwis!i'l try not to get near him!i 'l try to get rid of getting involved into relationship!

taurus vs sagittarius

i did mentioned that i pumped into this guy in my previous post..

his name is simon..hez a nice...this is wut i can say bout him...i would make u feel happie n laugh though u are in a bad mood!i feel kinda regret why didnt i meet him up last year...dear dear!i shud have join youth ablaze last year!haih...everything should have started earlier!
anyway,itz pretty good to have known him too!i realised someone who is act not as ''teruk'' as i tot last time...his name is netherson...well,i found him kinda irritating at first..but when knowing him better...everything seemed to be differ from the fact...kakak!when the first time he took up the roach n threw it to the dustbin...the first time we talked bout music...the first time he listened to my playing..the first time i played his Art & Lutherie acoustic guitar costs RM 1300...the first time we act had the most topics to talked bout....anyway,is til find simon is the best of all...cos of the way he looks at other..the way he treats other...he so lovely...perhaps hez the one i like...so,wutever he does seems to be the best for me!we have topics...the feeling is unique...he would bring comfort to u...

the coll sounds silent for the first ever..

all the lecturers have gone for a seminar...therefore all the classes have cancelled!but we had practice in the morning...so i jus went to coll as usual...practice starts at 10 am but i reached there at 9..i did some work at the library...around 9.45 i called up fengyun n we tended to walk there togather...while i was waiting for her..i met up with ms vicky...then we had a short talk...she said i look enjoying with the dance!kakakka...memang cos hez there!alalalala!
at first i tot the practice shud be boring cos hez not here...since hez working whole day...but then everything seemed to be the opposite of wut i thought!i din expect things to be like this!there were a drum set,bass guitar.acoustic guitar n a keyboard!as usual...cheong shiaw lee would play all that...kakak...though im not prob in everything!but i jus wanna try out mer!is there any prob in trying out those?shud be no rite?but i think she might be feeling bad cos da guys were like so one kind with me cos we found to be kinda 'click' with each other...sorryla....jaming is my fav!so for sure guys would be my frens..act jus that we have the same topics!Lok ask me to teach him..n he was jus complaning cystal...hmmm..i felt bad when he did this to herlo...n even netherson came to me cos he'z learning guitar...kakka!oni had the first lesson...kakak!but hez passionate in music...gogogo!moreover sam was asking me to teach him this n that...lok was asking me to teach him piano n guitar...netherson was listening to my playing of my fav song''more than words''...i felt imrpessed in a sudden cos i dislike this guy all this time..even ytd i was so mean to him where i said hi to simon but showed him a bad face!n everything seemed to change after 24 hours...perhaps we have the same interest...anyway,sam is a nice guy...hez so cute!he looks like a shy guy..and Lok is a very funny guy!they are nice ppl....i really hope can chill out wit them or maybe have jaming section with them!

later,i met up with my dearie!but sadly there were some ppl here so made me not to pour out everything....cos there'l stil have something to be kept between us dearie!

u are so true...cos i dunno that i would pumped into simon this year!kakak...me myself feel surprised too!cos i'd been saying that this guy is sooo dam kem last year...but i got pumped into him this year!shitla!

i must not!

wut a nice day...

i went to coll in the morning..wel,as usual i'l be late to the class..n u saw the guys were sitting at the same roll...4 of them togather...but she seems to sit at the different side n roll..so where wut shud be my decision?i intended to marched towards my guys!!kakakk!cos i dun wanna be sitting there without 'aids'!we did enjoyed our law lesson...after class,we went for a lunch,hmmm...i had thought of goin somewhere to have lunch at first..i told kai that i dun feel like eating at medan selera!but she wanted to have some rice...but i wanted to have a air-conditioned place..but finally we decided to go to McD!somehow i felt kinda guilty cos she nv odered anything..i felt that im the one cosing her to have no lunch!i kept telling her that i'l be accompanying her to have rice but she refused..so i din bother bout that anymore!later we had FA2 lesson,we sat in a roll..i was feeling so dam boring during the class cos i din see my LCs for both classes!suddenly i took kaiz wallet n have a look of wutz inside..i saw a platinum credit card!he old me there might be around RM15k for the card...then i jus took it n placed in my wallet immediately!!kakak!am i mean enough?anak kampungmer..nv see credit card b4,kakakk!class finished,i saw simon at the doorway,i was kinda glad when he said hez gonna practice with us!wut did i feel like this!?then andrew had asked me to accompany him to eat his meal..so i jus went with him since i was free at that moment...but i wanted him to have a look at simon!!!aaaaaaa!yikoh said this guy is gorgeous though hez not those handsome n muscular type!!but his sis jus pump into this guy...kakka!but i noe i must not since i knew whoz the gal,i even knew her!so yiko asked me jus to keep an eye n not to do anything...hahah!this is something playing in my mind all the time whenever i like a guy!!kkka!sounds so loser rite?anyway,we practice at a classroom..with the gals n some guys there..simon,netherson,sam...sadly edward wasnt there!haih!when the guys were practising for their part,i saw a dead roach at the corner of the floor..i got entire scared off...netherson then took a small piece of paper n i tot he was trying to pick it up to scare me...which i alwiz got bullied from my frens!so i jus ran out of the classroom...when i got back to the classroom,i was keeping an eye outside the classroom through the side window,simon jus locked the door!to bad,Ms vicky jus needed me n he had to let me in...kakak!he said the roach was no longer thereliao...he even told me that they wont scare me wth thay!kakak..i suddenly i felt so sweet with this 2 guys!but sorry...cos before that i saw Mr Wilson...OMG!did he take his pills for the day?i has totally changed his style today!i wore a red buitton up shirt...with a black denim long pant!wut an awesome he is huh!he simply shines!im so adore to him!after the practice,i went to search for yiko but couldnt got him..then i saw taikoz car..n we went for a meal..but i was time to go so i din eat anything...we had a short chat...bout his work now..bout his studies now...bout his financial condition now..wel,i asked him to show me a guy ...but the guy name kit was later today...he came with a motorbike...not scooter...the huge one!seems cool huh!but taiko took dmy spect so i couldnt see him in a clearer view!there surely have another chace!

such a sweet guy~

i feeling so uncomfortable at after the practice...

well,back to last saturday,i had piano lessons with teacher suziez students since 9.30 in the morning...wel,it sounds fun but i nearly slept off when they played me their pieces!!akaka...i noe i sounds so bad cos i shud respect them rite?but wut to do..the air-con was dam cold...n i had no break time,furthermore i forgotten to bring my money as well!!kakak!but i did discovered something..while i was looking at the results slips...i saw sharpurz name!!he got merit for his P5 guitar exam...n i saw his IC no...kakka!am i bad enough?0813...kaka...hez a leo!well..the best suits aries!!!hahahaha!but then i wan another guy!mirado really reminds me of him so much...reminds me everything...i wonder how is he now?i miss him much...im wondering howz he doin now?i hope everything is fine in his life...then i'l be so blessed wit it!i wan him to live a happien n healthy life!no matter wut...i'l love him much!

something happened today...which is nothing happened during the whole long day..we had extra lesson today for FA2...n half of the classmates nv attend the lesson..well,i have to get the attendance signed!anyway,the main thing was we had practice after lunch...n i thought shud be fun cos..yaya...jus let me to mention here...this guy name simon..saw him since last year..but knew him this year...cos tat time he asked whether interested in CG or not..anyway,i found this guy so secure...as in gals would probably melt off with him!though it might not be melting to u..but i really like it when he touched my head with his hand...n sounded like a big bro...n asking u ''have u got ya lunch?''...wow...i think with his voice softly spoken out that sentence...seriously would melt u off man though hez not those musculine-well-looking-trendy-dude!he simply shinesla!jus put him aside..i would say i dislike this guy name netherson,who is a teamate with me in performing the play for the D&D!i hate this guy...for no reason ..perhaps u might say im pretty crictical..but i really dislike him!wut the hell!

after chilling out with my yiko...

this morning i felt kinda weird cos the excitement of attending class has decreasing...since ever i saw him walking with another gal ytd!well,this might not be an issue but then i was kinda pissed since that is a guy which i was kinda pumped into...anyway,this wouldnt be a prob to me since i wasnt that serious into this question!but the main point is i was kinda bored with my classmates..i thought we wouldnt have topics to talk bout..anyway,when i got into the class,i was kinda late n everyone was there...wel,fengyun was sitting behind the guys...but i stil intended to sit with my guys though it seemed like full!we all five persons sat at the same roll..when she asked me why wouldnt i sit with her...since she has received a place beside her for me...but my mind just ignored to sit there...cos i knew i would have no topics to talk with her!i dun wanna be sooo dam lonely sitting at the corner...n crapping n listening to those rubbish!u might say im kinda cruel..but then i really dun wanna have this kinda feelings anymore!i wanna talk to my guys!i wanna laugh with them!i wanna talk bout games!wut shud i talk to her!?i felt kinda enjoyable today cos i had my topics back!at least they have the same topics with me!!!

after class..i went to have my drum lesson..well,kinda fun but then stil the same thingla...cos i would nv melt off!but i do think that jim was kinda trying to give me a test!but i did treated it as a challenge!yiko came to pick me up after my lesson...n we took action our plan!we planned to spy for bob!!kakak!this man is truely gorgeous!i think i did mentioned him in my one of my previous blog...

anyway,nothing much to say...

generation gap!

i was suppose to stay at home today..

i got a moody morning when i got up from my bed...when i thought of going to coll for the extra lesson...the sense of reluctant aroused!however,i tended to attend the class since she might be teaching a new topic today rite?
i received a msg from fengyun when i was on my way to coll..but just too late...she informed me that the class starts at 10 till 12 noon...wel,my mind was blanked out at that moment cos i couldn't find anything to do for tat hour!so where am i supposed to go n wut am i suppose to do now?then,i saw my gang of frens just reached the doorway of the coll...they came before 9 to have breakfast...so we all had nothing to do beside of goin to the library!well,the atmosphere was real weird here..everyone seemed to treat each other like strangers...sounded like a first day of coll..or u may say an orientation day for the students to get to noe one n another!kai n ayuen were sitting next to each other..they were discussing bout some games, while pat was sitting beside me...well,i just took out my MP3player n played on the music....n played some games with kaiz hp!this situation remained for almost an hour,until someone has asked us to enter the class!i was seriously feeling boring with the class...fortunately jerry was there to talk with...this guy jus came back from his hometown last few days...so we did talked!!
after the class...i went to medan selera wit fengyun...to have our lucnh!i knew the guys would not wan it..but since she wanted there then i jus followedlo...finally the guys went somewhere else...after the lucnh..i went to find for andrew!we later went to songbird to relax...however,i nearly slept when he was singing his songs!i think we have generation gap n different channel!!!wut a nightmare!

sarangeul

i found myself some kinda trouble maker...haha!!!

wel,i met up with my gang today...i got a feelings in a sudden...wel,i've gotta say that i've considered u as in the gangla dearie!back to this,when things happen,i might tell my classmates or maybe even andrew,somehow,they'l have the story only,however,the very personal n inner feelings will be kept to my gang!itz kinda weird to say this...i found that true frens are precious in life...the one who really shares ya predicaments..ya ups n downs..and such!the one that really takes u as themselves no matter wut!they are willing to share wutever things with u!no matter wut,true frens will nv give up or let go u!im soooooo proud to say that i got the true fren in my life!n the greatest of all is i got them...not oni one!those are the dearies who can share my thoughts,my emotions,or even the bad side of me..being embarrasing in front of the public.and such!not even bf!

last but not least..i love u guys much!i appreacite u guys!thank GOD for letting me to meet u guys in my life!sarangeul!

many cases...let me mention it one by one here...

as usual,i have costing class with ms por in the morning....but i was kinda surprised cos the class was kinda packed,i thought we are starting the class by 9 and another group by 10...haha!anyway,when the moment i went into the classroom,i saw a guy in black shirt and sat at the corner side there..so i decided to sit with pat n tim cos they were jus behind him!i thought he was the one that i've been bumping for..but this was another guy..haha!anyway,hez kinda cute too!suddenly eric came to the class n sat beside me...haha!i was kinda surprised that he act attended the class...hahah!wel,we were talking bout downloading mp3...i've gotta thank u man!!i was writing down the MP3 which i wan..and he said he'l transfer to my mp3 the songs that he has...and see whether we like the same songs or not!!wah...such a luvly guy!!kakka!
after class..i had my drum lesson with jim..wel,he told me that therez an underground performance held this saturday at KL...for the local bands to perform their own composed songs...to show their talents n skills as well!!he'l be there...but the prob is im gonna celebrate my granpaz birthday this saturday...furthermore do u think my dad will let me go??u shud noe the answer rite??dearie!!jus forget bout it!but i feel like goin to watch thisla...cos i wanna see the local bands!!
later,andrew came n had lunch togather..as usual,,taiko has flied to Langkawi...i've wondering will he buy us some sourvenirs????but i dun think so lol...haih!!this taiko...haih!i really wanna have a look at tai soula!!!i think she might be pretty then oni be able to steal my taikoz heart!!!kakakak!
i cant wait to see taiko...cos bob is back!!!!u shud noe wut i mean so im not gonna tell u rite here!!!shhhhhhhhh!

taiko is awesome but kinda mature

friday again...

i was kinda moody this morning...my tears jus dripped off when i was showering...sometimes i do feel funny!then i went to coll for macroeconomics!im being kinda worry cos itz hard to me!wut shud i do?i gotta catch up by myself...no one is there to help me...i have to put much effort on it!yaya..before that,i saw taiko when i got down from the car...he was looking awesome...seriously exactly like tt from the back view...he had his presentation in the morning so he had gotta dress up formally...he was really awesome but kinda mature..kakak!later i sent him a msg to wish him all the best!later after class,me gang had planned to have lunch n later go to cc...since our break is from 12 to 4 before the next class began...yiko jus gave me a call..n my reaction was to go there n meet both of them!i felt bad but i felt really closed to them...though im happie with my gang...somehow,they are really bros to me!we had lucnh at another place...then jus went to taikoz car to put his stuff n paid for the parking again since he wanna play with us!later we walked there...n we played the same game again-battlefield 2!with more players today..where my gang joined us to play as well!kakakak!for sure me n yiko would be the same team!!we lost !!!!then another time we played...but not with them...it was really geram since taiko kept tricking on me!!!later he gotta go since he has a replacement class then he jus fetched us to go home!!wah..wut a nice taiko...of cos we wan since we dun have to walk back!we went back to yikoz house to play the sim2...haha!i created a guy...looks kinda handsome..eveyrthing was based on tt...kakaka!even his name...kakak!

UK again!

i met up with my ex gang...

after class i jus went for my drum lesson..well,jimmy is a skillful player n pro teacher...i admire his playing..somehow i wont melt off..kaka!after the class he asked me to whether im interested in teaching keyboard!wow..such a great offer..teaching a tthe roland rock school...sounds something that i desire much rite?i was really excited at first...but when i thought further on it..something fear me...im not patient..im not experienced,perhaps u might ask me to give it a try...but im the oni one...so wut ever i do will indirectly influence the music school where i dun hope soomething unpleasant will happen!i jus wanna get rid of it!furthermore my expression is not good enough to be a music teacher!perhaps i might play well or compose well...but i jus hardly express my knowledge to others...i'l rather choose to teach without paid so that pressure is not there!
then,i went to section 14 to meet up my gang!i was so worried that i'l have nothing to talk to them..well,at least not bad huh!kim is gonna fly to UK on 23rd sept 2006 at 1am!!well,i knew this gal since form2..we were so 'clicked' to each other..we can read each other mind well..though we din say out but we noe wutz playing in our mind!i hope she'l have a nice life there!all the best my dear...GOD blessed!

battlefield 2

im back guys...letz begin with the day before yesterday..

it was wed,as usual i'l have english law with mr stephen in the morning n later FA2 in the afternoon after the break..i was kinda pissed cos ms rupha jus cancelled her class in the morning,therefore i jus chilled out with yikoh after law lesson..around 1pm huren came to coll without knowning that the class had been cancelled..then we jus went for a lunch since i was kinda hungry..anyway,happy belated birthday to u!but i din buy him a cake since i jus brought 10 bucks to coll cos i wanna make up some savings!i feel kinda bad..but he nv treated me badly cos that this!he even treated me a strawberry sundae which i was kinda surprised with it!he was asking me which flavour do i like when we were queing up at the cashier..n i dinno that he bought that for me!!kakak!such a luvly guy!taiko came but he went to another place to have his lucnh before entering the exam hall!yiko went to meet taiko n me jus stayed there cos i think itz kinda rude to jus leave him up rite?after finised my lunch then we walked back to coll to meet up taiko!!huren had something to do...so he jus went off..but i did sing him a birthday song after this!yiko n me were being stand by for taiko with his notes out there so that he can have some 'emergency aids' whenever he needs it!after the exam,we went to cc since they're gonna have class at 6.30..where it was around 5...3 of us went for battlefield 2!me n yiko wanted to walk there at first,but taiko was so caring to drive us there...hahah!n we did chatted some issues in the car..the feelings were jus like real bros!then,yiko n i vesus taiko alone..kakak!of cos we'l win rite...but the main point here is getting 3 of us sitting togather at the same roll..playing the same game...screaming togather...enjoying though taiko alwiz trick on me!the moment was really sincere...really enjoyable where i cant get it with my classmates...though there are nice guys but jus the feelings of sharing everything is not there!later i jus went home n they went for class!

im gonna be alone!

congrats to andrew!!he had won the singing competition through out the contestants came from various countries...he did really well!!im pretty proud of him!!!

anyway,i feel kinda boring during the weekends though i did went for some shopping with my parents but im seemed to have done window shopping so far..kaka!

one of my best frens is leaving on this coming friday to further her studies in UK!why is everyone leaving this year?the one i love so much ,my frens,even the one i care so much has not come back for a hols or any visits!haih,the oni thing is to wait for them to come back here..but this would hardly happen to some of them especially the guys!i feel so empty inside my heart in a sudden...the feeling is just being so unsolid bout wut i have...somehow i just cant control anything..anyhow,i think that my feelings towards tt has been lacking,since the feeling is jus so unsolid!i mean therez nothing possible to happen between us..n i shouldnt have being so stubborn bout it!sometimes,i do feel gloomy whenever i feels lonely cos i would think of him at the first place...of cos i would miss seeing his face...his smile...listening to his laughters..his playing..his position would nv fall and to be maintained for long time..
since the one i loved so much has left n im trying to accept the reality so i think my disappearance of my frens would oso wont matter me rite?i dunno whether i can do it or not..but im being so worried that there might be none of my gang continue the degree course with me here!!im fear to be lonely...i dun hope to be left alone here...but my family jus cant afford me to study overseas!!this is such a sad thing to me!so many of them are leaving to UK!!perhaps some of them dun intend to do the degree n jus go to the pro course!

i dun wanna disappoint my parents!

seems like many things happened in a day..

my first class of macroeconomics..i have got the same lecturer teaching me since my first semester until now...we've got so familiar with her...shez a nice n friendly person...and i think shez so knowledgable...she used to teach me microeconomic, business communication and now macroeconomic!seriously i found it pretty tough...cos i dun really know wut happen during her class..anyway,i would try my best to crack my mind!!during the short break,i accompanied feng yun to buy some food from the wet market which is out of my interest,but i did buy some snacks!noe wut...i was kinda late to class this morning,but luckily my fren reserved a place for me!!thanks guys!i was kinda impressed cos we were all six ppl sitting at the same roll!!with oni two long tables...n this was really packed up!!but the feelings was really great...so closed to each other n we could chat!!not forgotten,therez this guy studying the same class with me this morning,his gang n him sat at the other side of the class!hez considered as my type of guy which i was kinda attracted to him!!kakaka!but badly pat told me that he smoked out there during break!!haih....after the class,part of my frens went off...so i jus met up with taiko n yikoh and oso choo!i act saw taiko in the morning where i asked him wherez yikoh..but he jus asked me to call him later n blahs!!after class,we went up to the pc lab,wilson was judging their presentation at another lab!he cut his hair,i heard that hez kinda strict in marking their cw!wel,i think hez cool n brilliant!!kaka!then,choo n taiko were negotiating bout the cw!somehow,i would not hope to put much personal view on it cos itz between them!suddenly allen came!!haha!!we've nv seen this guy for such a long time!then me,yikoh n taiko went for a lunch!it seems that evry friday is a family day for us..kaka!at first we went to coffee bean just to chase after wilson..kakak!but unfortunately hez not there,so we tended to choose the shop next door!the food was jus averagela!on the way,taikoz anger aroused since they had compromised the price ytd but choo changed her mind today!she wans RM100 extra...taiko was pretty angry with her attitude he'l pay for it as long as she could get things done on time.later,david came,taikoz teacher n had lunch with us..we gotta have some topics since we were discussing bout starscopes!!can u jus imagine that 3 guys act discussed bout their horoscopes???i thought this would oni be a topic among gals..haih..the world has changed!kakak!after taiko went to his class,i went to andrewz house to play some games!later i went to coll...n i saw wilson!!!!poor thing he has to teach until 9pm!!from 9am to 9pm!!!but hez stil look fresh anyway!we had a short talk n after that my dad came to pick me up!

my daily routine jus sounds boring n useless!!!i've gotta do something meaningful!!i cant be doing all this all the time!i really have to pick up my studies!!i never thought of being the perfect one,but at least to be equal to wut my parents have paid for me!i feel sorry if i cant do weel for them!u might be saying that im doing these for myslef not them...but as long as they wan me to study,no matter how i would bring something back for them!

take a look around

the linkage of a situation to another has been happening...

after viewing the dvd,some inspirations aroused in my soul to take up the challenge to complete the song ''take a look around'' by limp bizkit,where we used to perform in a rock version,with our own improvisasions!!wut an amaze!i hope this would nv over but the reality has told me to stop drowning in my dream!later,when i got home,the very first thing was to switch on my keyboard n tried to complete the solo parts for sharpur,bassist and tt!of cos i would not be able to maintain the entire song..but at least i would tried my best to make it sounds something previously played!i put much of effort on it..but i couldnt finish it on the day...wel,thatz fine cos i would spend time n effort on it!i even dun intend to replace the new file with the old file cos i think the old one would be somehow a memory to me!kakkaka!wut a stupid gal rite?anyway,i do admit that!

after i got kinda tiring,then i jus went to bed..i thought of getting my MP3 player with me so that i would have a nice dream at that night!i went to bed pretty early but i couldnt sleep!i shared at the ceiling above..my brain was functioning which tonnes of ideas and feelings ruined into my nerves...i felt pretty depressed in a sudden..i felt lonely and sorrowful!'i would never have a chance to meet him again in life'...'no one would be as good as him'...
the tears just dripped off where i felt something stroke into my heart at that moment!i felt really harsh!!despite,i did felt worried bout this burden...i felt scary if i were to take a long time to recover!????i've compare the guys around me with tt n my heart would tells me that tt is the best!somehow i think this has becoming a burden to me where im limiting myself to live in a cage!wut shud i do?though nothing has happen between us,im the oni one who loves him like hell..i thought it would be so contented to love someone at first,but this fact has turned to be a mistake to me!

no chance of approaching bob!

i got kinda pissed off with taiko!!

early in the morning,i had blogged out a pice of my mind cos i felt bad mood...i knew this gal from thai n we had a long conversation..after that me,Dao(that thai gal) and taiko went to have a breakfast..after that,he went to the lab to begin his cw n i tended to bring Dao to her frens house,which is the houseing area nearby there.she asked me to walk back half way n thanked me for accompanied her!wel,shez nice n able to speak fluent english language!then i jus went to the pc to meet up taiko..he asked me to use the pc to online then i jus followed as wut he said since my class was cancelled due to the sports carnival which we were supposed to attend it at a field nearby our coll..but i dun really like it since i din even attend it previous year!we just stayed in coll...he was surfing the net n figuring out the java error!i found him kinda irritating cos he was listening to the MP3 from his laptop,which was kinda loud and other classmates were doing their cws!u din bother cos i was listening to mine!then i heard some song that sounds nice...'the corrs','shania twain','same same' which i wanted to get their new MP3 but couldnt,so he just asked me to pass him my MP3!wel,i was kinda impressed with my taiko cos hez not like this all the while to me...good taiko man!hahah!after andrew had came to meet us up..he thought of seeking wilson at coffee bean,so me n andrew were so excited of getting a cup of ice-blended drinks!unfortunately wilson wasnt there,and we saw a cool guy,dressed casually,carrying a back-pack with a laptop inside,was dressed in singlet n shorts,listening to his MP3,i saw a real cool tatto on his right arm!cool!yiko knew me well,n we intended to choose a table beside his...wow!i got a strategy place which was just beside him...but wutz wrong with taiko to sit at my place though i was jus disappeared a while to purchase my food!?i was dam geram where yikoh was trying to calm me down!we did enjoyed our lunch cos it was really nice!friday seems to be a 'family' day for us!then taiko saw his teacher there-david,who teaches keyboard n drum at mahogany,who is a colleague of bob!!!taiko seemed helping me to get some info bout bob..he was asking david whether bob is here or not...but the answer was not favourable.he got so sick til hez now in a hospital!!wut happen?i was taken aback!they looked at me but i was speechless at that moment..how could it be?i felt thankful to taiko cos he got me some facts...but this feelings have disappeared not until he had gave me a big prob!he asked me n yikoh to reload the parking fees for him as we did walked n paid up n got back to mahogany jus to return his key!we walked all the way from coffee bean to our coll n back to mahogany cos hez our taiko!we went up to the music store..i was kinda uncontrolable cos varies types of music tools n instruments are there...i hardly ignore n just played the digital piano there!wel,though casio privia is not my favour but i stil felt like playing it cos itz irresistable!i did asked david bout the fee,deposit n regustration fees,n this approximately costs me rm330 which i think was kinda expensive than other music school!then taiko asked me to play some songs so i jus played..i played ''the reason'' since he has the score with him...i couldnt believe that he said i even played better than his teacher!i ought to be proud with it but his teacher was just next door!how could he not hear that?i felt so shameful!n david asked me wut grade am i..i just told him that i finished my grade 7!then taiko told me that he has nothing...and he just passed by me!then taiko kept asking me to teach part time here...he even asked the boss there...shit!i was kinda blur when she asked my qualification!i was dam shameful cos david was there...i dun wan this to happen cos i dun belongs to there!there are teachers ready there so i dun wanna fight with them!itz not a good case!furthermore my purpose to there is being as a student to learn drum n oso to grab a chance to see bob!i think itz a mistake for me to went up there...things happened out of my expectation n i think my first impression to david was kinda bad...but i did nothing wrong,just played the piano!why has it to be so complicated!?i nv meant to show off,just the sense of playing aroused!i just followed my heart!i jus played when i felt like playing!

escape

i wanna get rid of it...

the very first thing that comes to my mind every morning is someone appearing in my mind!someonez picture just flashes in a moment!i thought time could decides everything...i thought time could cureme up!but this seems to be useless at this moment!i got bad mood every night when i got to my bed...ready to walk on my dream path..but i got fail everytime to get to the doorway!the same thing happen to me every morning,which would destroy my mood for the day!the same thing happen in everydayz routine...where i feel like crying at night and early in the morning when i jus got up from my bed!i hate this feelings....im trying to improve by listening to MP3..but it never helps anyway!things got worsen when i have no class for the day!i un hope to meet my frens with a bad face..i dun wanna spoilt their mood as well...so i'l keep telling myself that i have no prob with it!but sometimes i really wanna espress it out!

my first day of semester 3

first day of semester 3....

im not feeling excited in the morning,perhaps i was kinda down cos i had a bad rest last night!i couldnt sleep well cos something was interrupting my mind from seeking the peacufulness!i turned off the pc very early and tended to get to bed earlier than usual cos i wanna have a fresh mind for my first day!who know i couldn't get myself relaxed since i kept thinking of him!how could it be!?i thought everything has over...somehow,the powerful tune of the electric guitar reminds me of him,the sentimental tune of the classical guitar has reminds me of him,the song titled ''the reason'' and ''take a look around'' have remind me of him!there are many more which would bring his picture out to my mind!though itz just a memory,somehow the feelings are there n the picture is clear enough to make me fall deeply into it!
back to my rountine,i went to college to meet up my frens!well,andrew called me early in the morning where i had just took my bathe..the first sentence i told him was ''i felt like crying'' he felt the same thing as me too!it pretty usual to hear this from his mouth!we know him very well!then,we went to clucth since we havent been there for a long time!i wanna scream and this seemed to be a good place to release my stress!!sooner or later,tim just msg me but i din bother bout it cos i was at the peak time!but i gotta say sorry cos i saw him coming up here!!i felt bad..later,pat called me whether to have lunch or not..but taiko was coming over to meet us up...so of cos i would hope that 3 of us would have lunch rite!?but we ended up not having lunch cos i gotta go for my class!ENGLISH LAW!sounds boring but i think this shud be kinda interesting!somehow, the class was kinda boring cos itz jus the begining!when break time,i went to have some food with andrew,well,this time i met his classmate,who is a guy named kevin that came back from US!hmmm,he seems to be kinda friendly n outgoin but the feeling was kinda differ until the time we shook our hands!hmmm,i m pretty concern bout how a person shakes their hand as in this might give me a judgement at the first impression!he can be considered kinda well looking person n speaks in a gentle way..but this is oni the first time i met him...sometimes,itz jus hardly to judge a person without knowing him in a longer period!after that,i got another class until 6pm which i dinno at all cos i dun have the time table with me anyway,i was kinda bored with the lecturing!we planned to write a letter to request for another lect cos she seems to just focus on the exam questions!!!shez not teaching us for knowledge but jus to prepare to sit for the exams!i think this shudnt be the proper way whereby we have no idea of wutz she teaching in front with the aid of projector n power point presentation!how could she be like this?we wan knowledge as well to sit for the exams!

felt annoyed by someone.....

i got really disappointed with him!

andrew is my best fren,and oso as a second bro of mine as well.we love him much,but sometimes i really dun wanna bother bout him cos he has been repeating the same thing all this while!why has he to behave in this way?excuse me!hez a guy k..i dun mind he has a bf..but please not to behave like gals,or sometimes even worse than a gal does!i mean why has he to become like this?he alwis been telling us that leo has changed his entire life!well,why have u to be like this?being so suspicious,curious,jealous bout him and oso the ppl around him!though hez my bro,im not at his side i doing all these!i could feel that leo is being kept by an eye on his personal life!even me do feel that hez being captured every moment...every movements!i knew u cant control ya emotions but cant u just stop doing all these!?have u ever try of thinking why has he to avoid u?why has he to do things secretly?if i were leo,i would jus chuck u off like a pan cake!or jus torture u until u decide to break up from me..but for sure i'l just change my handphone number!sometimes i do tell him that u've being kinda over to his life..i mean u guys are oni couple...is he supposed to tell u every single things that he does?there is a boundary n he has the right to choose keep as P&C!im kinda pity leo though andrew is my bro!i knew u love him very much ...or u might wanna die without him in ya life..but i think thatz not the way to maintain a healthy relationship!ya caring n sincere have turned to be restraint and dread!i do feel kinda annoyed cos he'l telling me all this things all the time!cant u jus have ya own life instead of looking into his?he'l wanna have his life though hez in relationship with u!cant u jus have some time on ya education instead of purchasing all the courseworks which i feel kinda stupid in doing that!stop playing with fire if u cant!love is not everything...

taiko+yiko+saimui

i was dam pissed off last fri...

i din go to mirado cos my teacher suggested me to stop my piano lesson for a period of time..furthermore tt is no longer there,so wutz the motivation of being there?kkakakak!anyway,iw as supposed to hand out my MYOB coursework on last fri,and apparently i'd done 90% of it,who noes i forgotten to back up some sheets...so i gotta use up some of timz work!thanks buddy!i act could leave earlier but who noes this person was kept following me wherever i go!im so annoyed by him k!i knew his objectives but how am i gonna reject him?i really have no idea bout it!i got really fade up with him!why cant he jus attend classes!?i hate this kinda ppl!!but i have no choice,so to ayuen!i just gotta stay back n get his piece of shit done!wel,i could tell u that he might just pass his exam with flying colours...but without any knowledge n skills!i dun intend to spend my time teaching n explainig to him every single steps n purposes if oni hez the one i love!i dun hope my love one would blindly pass up the work that i've done for him!somehow,if hez just the normal one,i will just get the entire done!perhaps i got the advance in doing the extras!

the happie thing came now,wel,before my class started,i went to coll in the morning so that i could met up my yiko,andrew!wel,taiko,barry was there as well,just finished his class!then me n yiko just went to his classroom,waiting for him to go for lunch!wilson was there,the lecturer,he was helping him in breaking some kinda codes,we were then discussing some issues!!haha!taiko asked me to teach him ''the reason''!hey bro,tatz my song,dun ever steal it!how could he said that im clever???this word would nv come out from his mouth ever!i was dam proud when he said that!kakakaka!after that,we went to the bank for him to withdraw some cash...but this wouldnt belong to him in a long time,not an hour i think cos we went to coffee bean for lunch jus becos the lect dare him!hahah!wilson is such a funnny n friendly person!the feelings were pretty nice cos three of us seldom sit down n had lunch gather!futhermore the atmosphere was dam comfortable!we had a long chat...almost 2++ hours..got to now him better...all of us better!i'd discovered that wilson act plays very well classical guitar!ahuh!i was so impressed with it!cool man!after the lunch,wilson has to attend class,taiko has to attend his keyboard lesson,yiko has to discuss his proposal wit his frens,i have class..then i walked to coll with wilson!wow!i felt so protective walking beside him!hez so dam tall...despite im too short!hez so kinda n friendly,the way he speaks shows that hez educated,gently english spoken!chun!i hope he'l be lecturing me for INS!

fearless v.s. final countdown

continued.......

during the practice section,we bought something for jean during the break time!we act planned to buy it but we dinno her taste!therefore,we kept asking her when we went to shop for a while!i even asked her whether she has buy her fav album or not n she tended to figure it out!!kakaka!stupid me!fortunately we din buy that for her!each of us bought her a necklace n oso wrote her a card!i hope she likes them!

on the day,act shud be 3 days!friday,sunday and the national day!well,it was really crownded cos term hols was on that time!i saw many lcs as well...kakaka!the first n second times were nicely performed!but the last concert was the greatest!seriously!im not being to show off or wut...but i was dam proud with our team!aparrently the DJz teams are performing on friday n sunday while the 1U teams perform on sat n the national day!who knows we were the invited guest performers!!!kakakaka!n on thurs,we felt so being alienated cos we were the only team from DJ!luckily alan joined our gang!he boosted up our song with the mixer..he did his best to make our song sounded powerful so to attract more audiences!frankly we did enjoy the applause n cheers!i waited for the last team to perform their 'final countdown'!well,i was told that this guy named bernard was asked for autograph!oooooo!i really wanna have a view of their show!i waited till i got gastric cos i din eat my lunch!i asked lunlun for sweet n he asked why..i just told him that i got gastric!wow!!!how great if u are olderle!!i have to say thanks n u're such a sweet guy!he turned to get me some sweets!yaya,back to this bernard,i saw him when i reached the music center n he looks fine at first!but,the impression turned to go bad as his attitudes n characteristics have found to be exactly like eddy!yucks!when itz his show time,he walked to the side of the stage..n just turned to us n gave us a share!sucks man!however,the performance was jus so-so since alan had done something...kaakkakakakaa!why couldn't i hear the electric guitar part?kakakaka!!!why was the keyboard being played so loudly?kakakakakak!sorry my dear..u have to accept the reality that my electric guitar part sounds stronger n more powerful than yours though i played it out using keyboard!where are all ya effects?pull?bend up?bend down?hammer?the ascending n descending running notes?even my power chords were more pwoerful than yours since u used ya electric guitar with eddyz strip!kakakakakaka!

fearless

she just left this morning at 3am!

3 weeks had just passed,after the exam,i was kinda sad cos my hols were gonna begin,how am i to see my frens everyday!?how bout my taiko n yiko!?sad case!at that time,some one was gonna leave to UK!this issue was a big torture to me!i thought i would be crying during this 3 weeks!fortunately,this concert has bring me the solution but not entirely did!at least i have got something to as my pass time!at first,i was supposed to have a group performance,n i thought of inviting tt n sharpur,who knows they are leaving so i was really disappointed n lost my motivation in any performance!but itz a compulsory to me..so i teacher has found a teamate which is a gal for me!the first day we met each other,hahah...shez act my senior where we were from the same primary school!itz nice to talk...cos we do have the chemisrty!n another teamate is my fren!by the way,my senior is jean n my fren is shireen!this has begin the frenship among us!alan is a reall chun guy!he did the song for us..which i was jus helping him to add more parts n teaching them for their parts!u might say nothing special,however,the process of teaching n learning,the practices,the shopping hours have brought laughters n joys to us!and not forgotten our hard work has brought the best resukt of all!!where we got all the recognisitions and appreciation from them!!furthermore,being at the spotlight n receiving applause from the audiences would bring u satisfaction!

to be continued.....

with u gone....

i've been crying all night long...

i was chatting with andrew,i intended to tell him my feelings,bout how i felt at that moment...something that i put much effort on it!!i felt tremendously gloomy...hez leave in this month..n therez nothing i can do rite?wel,if im not goin to mirado today,then last wednesday might be the last time i saw him in my life!perhaps we would never meet up again in future!im in fear...that someone is here with u in the morning and found to have gone at night...i cant stand the feelings of seeing someone leaving....i felt really down n cried!i really hope that someone was here with me...somehow,andrew said something right bout my life where my situation is much more better than other ppl n i shouldnt have take it so seriously..but i wish to control my feelings too,jus that i cant!after today..i wont be seeing tt in my life anymore...hahahhaa!therez no remedy for me at this moment...nothing could really cure me!most of frens were telling me to look for another guy...well,i tried but...hahahahahha!things are not happening in my way....i found myself escaping from the prob!!i dun wanna hear though i got the idea of it...or lynden might be telling me "tt has gone!"...seriously i cant stand though i knew it from the beginning of the year!i guess he'l be staying there for the rest of his life!haizzzzzzzz....wut shud i say bout it?anyhow,i hope time would decide everything n get me out of this!

R&B

this blog is act regarding to ytdz routine...

i din intended to on the pc n blog out my feelings cos i was pretty confused with my feelings...i was pretty fine in the morning n we practiced(shireen n me) in the noon at mirado...everything was going smoothly n i was really fine before i saw someone!well,shireen was asking eddy to play with us for our song 'breaking free'..he did played for us..i mean during the practice section..n it was pretty cool!!he'z got the skill man!after shireen has gone home,i was there to help up my teacher n oso to listen to their probs!well,she seems to be over stress up n oso being frustrated with her current working condition,n we even discussed bout having drum lesson togather...kaka!i was kinda happie cos that shud be really fun to have lesson with my teacher!i was having a guitar on my hand,the feelings were just to play some classical pieces at that moment..suddenly came back after 'recharged'..well,i was strumming a song n he dinno tat i was the one sitting in the room n playing all this stuffs...kakaka!suddenly,he suggested me to ask tt to play the guitar part for our song!well,i was kinda annoyed when he said that,but then he jus walked off n said 'i go ask tt...' wel,i dinno he was there,i din intend to go out n have a look...n teacher did said..'tt is there..' wut came to mind was stop playing a foollol!n i tended to walk out from the studio n i did see him in a white shirt!i got killed!i became really down then n had no concerntration for my teacher..i got confused with my feelings!i mean i dun intend to see him when hez here cos i might feel destress;but i would be even desperate n miserable if hez gone!this issue has been appearing in my mind all night long n i couldnt get rid of it!andrew called me up when i was playing my keyboard.....well,i told him everything n he suggested to sleep early...well,therez nothing i can control lol!i couldnt stop thinking of this!n intended to take some wine instead of looking at the ceiling...but this couldnt have help me off!suddenly i received a msg from a fren of andrew-ivy!well,i talked to her on the phone before,shez friendly n kinda mature for me..anyway,i really appreciate when she send me a caring msg,but this wouldnt help me perhaps!the tears jus dripped off naturally when i was playing the pieces,i jus felt like composing something at that moment..but everything sounds groomy n sorrowful!

i've changed,im changing...

hey guys....im back!!!

finally,i got the chance to pour out some of my feelings and thoughts here,recently i've been buzy with my sem2 exams n oso some stuffs..hmmm...act many things happened during this period of time...n i was kinda ignorance to write them out here..but i'd thought of sometimes n intended to tell u guys...why did i have such an idea?hmmm...act i was afraid that u guys might have some bad ideas bout me since me myself have realised that u've changed a lot...perhaps physically but for sure my attitudes and mentally has changed a lot!frankly i was kinda worried that i might change to a person that u guys would nv accept me as ya fren,or as ya sis bro!!after reading wut had happened to me,,,n u would surely say that i've changed!

where shud i begin then..hmmm....but i noe im feeling pretty desperate n lost a this moment...the feelings are kinda perculiar...as in i dunno whether wut im doing now is correct or a mistake in life..perhaps everyone has to fall once in their life...but i do think that itz kinda over since i found myself has got many things hidden behind my family...i dun wanna be like this...feel kinda guilty...

have u heard of em-pay.com?yea...i've invested a small sum of money into it...but wut im feeling really frustrated is when can i get the profits?i know i shudnt have complaint so much but then im an impatient person....i wan something fast recovery though it might be high risky!but at least i could see the rebates in a short term!i think i might prefer that!for me,i really dun have the passion in investing in such thing...itz so dam boring!i dun wan d...30% tat im kinda worry bout the money,60% tat im kinda boring with it cos itz slow recovering,10% tat im not interested anymore!wel,dear,dun get misunderstood if u read this...cos i dun meant to hurt u or blame u,,,jus that i really need a medium for me to express my desperation!the main thing that makes me really frustrated is how could barry earn so much i cant!??????BARRY!!!!!!he told me that u r not gonna search for ppl and wait for them to arrange for u...cheh!!!purposedly wanna show off to me!!!!geram betul!

next,i would like to say that tt is leaving to further his studies...well,at first this would be dam killing for me...but the most killing part is the result of avoiding it..i mean im trying to aviod myself for not seeing him...so that i wont be feeling so sad or even better,why has he to appear in front of me!?i know itz all my fault of loving such a person that who even not treating me as a fren...or etc...YES!i stil admire him much cos there is no reason for me to hate him!though he seems to be really annoying..but....haih!but then i really have no other alternative to make myself clear!wut shud i do?andrew,u'l nv help me out man cos we have da same prob...noe wut?i tried to concern all my feelings towards u...sometimes i do admire ya styled in doing some stuffs...but then the prob is the feelings...i mean i have no heart beating whenever with u,itz like really comfortable to be with a true fren..or really good bro,for sure i'l care bout u much ...jus that we are too closed with one and another....anyway,i really love u much !!tatz for sure!and one more bad thing is ...BARRY!!!!he reminds me of tt whenever i see him...they look alike!sobs sobs!

"tt is leaving mext month...."

supposingly would be nice match.....but...my mood...

we went for some sport in the morning..we had fun though we played in a group of 3 v.s. 2!not basketball,itz badminton!!kakaka!well,my soul had gone somewhere else cos my mind was functioning on some other stuffs!!i couldn;t concerntrate...but my fren keep asking me to run,jump,move...and u'l feel better!perhaps he could picture my mood at that moment!then we played single match!!i got burst out everything...i mean i even wanna cry out when i smashed the shuttlecock...i even sang when i was playing the game..kakak!after than,i went to tale a bath at my frenz house..wel,we seemed to have not much topics to talk bout...and sadly we gotta do nothing for almost 4 hours!!wut can we do is nothing at all!!!can u imagine being togather with someone who has no topics with u for a few hours?tatz kinda killing man!

then i went to mirado to meet my teacher up since im helping her for the concert stuffs!!seriously i did think that he would be here,but at that moment i really hope not to see him...i dun wanna got into trouble!i didnt mean to see him frankly!well,i was in my studio alone since my teacher had gone out..someone openned the door without knocking it..i was kinda shocked with it..itz lynden!"hi my dear..."haha...please stop copying me!then he asked me to play out 'sway' in a version of bossanova!im a keyboardist k,of cos i'l try out..."tt is leaving next month!"lynden told me.."so..."i replied...i could tell u that my mood got totally changed..but therez nothing i can do rite?so i jus act normal....but the bad thing was tt jus passed by when we talked bout all this..he might have think that imt he one who asked lynden bout all this!i dun wanna be misunderstood,especially him!perhaps i've been thinking too much...things might be as fine as they look rite?

all sucks!

i always rmb the first time i saw him, the very first time i knew bout this guy,the very first time i'd got the chance to 'approach' him,to have a better n clearer picture of him,all kept in my mind, the moment where he was in a rush for his lesson, where he was sweating like a 'soup chick'!he was wearing a black-coloured-button-up shirt and a long pant.his back was totally wet up, his shirt got entirely soaked up!however,hez really cute!"how old is this guy?"...i'd been inquiring myself.he seemed to look kinda mature, with his dressings and his face,not forgotten his body shape as well!all this features made hi look older than his age!for me,this guy is really gorgeous and seemed to be the one and only well-looking guy here!there,i started to fall in love with him,partly i was attracted to his appealing appearance!so happedn, i gotta see him everytime my lesson finished, thatz really great kz!usually, he would waited for his mom to pick him up home.well,many things could happened during this time!!kakakak!i mean he coul practised his pieces rite?gotcha!hez a skillful and talented young player.i really adored to him!hez my ideal guy!!since then,i really fallen in love with him deeply!!hez such a perfect guy!BUT,he sounds to come from a wealthy family...i din think bout this at that moment cos i really love this guy!what i can do is jus have a view of him!sometimes, i really wanna approach him,but wutz the purpose at the first place?i have no topics to talk with him!what can i do with this?sometimes,i'd been too desperate but therez nothing i can do!at that time,i'd changed my time table ,where my lessons were arranged to wednesday.wellm this was the time i saw teacher eddy!hez skillful and great in playing his guitar,somehow, tt would remained at his position!no oe could actually take over his plcae!not even sharpur!kakakaka!it'd been a year for me not seeing him,i thought the feelings might have jus gone in this way...anyhow,it still existing in my soul!i became more desperate n crazy bout him!things got worsen...although i knew itz impossible but i couldn't control my feelings!!my mind would never stop flashing hin pictures!it should have considered as some kinda torture!i tried to shift to someother guys,but it never worked out!finally,i'd got the opportunity to get closer to him,this was a chance for me to know him,to build up a frenship with him,but things seemed to happen in another way!i was asked to back up for their song for the concert.i knew we are impossible,since the song performed d told me...BINGO!OST of 'mission impossible II'.at first,i was really tempting and excited since i'd got the chnace to perform with him and also the sweetest guy of all-sharpur!but the first ipression was kinda annoying!i mean i never expected thing ouwld happened in that way...during the practice sections,everything ghot worsen due to lack of communications,discussion,chemistry,corporation...etc.frankly,i got faded up woth the team and felt like not playing anymore!as time passed on, we started to know each other,the chemistry had been generating,joy time seemed happening!seriously i did have fun time with them!the result was we'd got the applause and cheers for our performance!this cae to have worries for me!would there have any conversations among us anymore?would this be the one and only chance for me?i din put a dare to figure it out!the answer would surely be harsh!i kept telling myself to be whoever i am..and things are just happening as in wut i expected!soehow,God had given me at least a chance to perform with him throughout my entire life,perhaps i shouldn't have demanded so much!sometimes,i feel annoyed with myself,why do i like him so much ?i feel thatz a sin for me to fall in love with this guy!i feel fooled and stupid to like him where he might not even considered me as a fren!i must have stop this,stop myself,my feelings!

i wan no one but him!!!

i got lotz to post up here...

when shud i begin?friday?yea...i was kinda lazy to post on that day but since it has really made my soul gone somewhere,i would really wanna share with u guys here...hmmm...my music school is gonna have a concert again in august..wel,of cos i would hope to perform with them..as in the ppl that i wish to...perhaps he'l at the first place!well,i thought of it many times but didnt have the guts to ask him out..i mean im really serious in thinking bout it if i've got rejected..wut shud i do then?how would i feel then?itz a small case but i got really disappointed with though!!frankly i dun intend to perform without him!!i mean i really hope that we can make it since it might be the last and only time!!!how could he not be here??why has he to do with china?why is he leaving to there?why has it be china?i was really impressed when i heard him playing 'smoke in the water'...itz pretty cool for a guy to play this song on the elect guitar!!!!and he did it so so so well!!which will truely drive u crazy man!!hez awesome!!!no one ever has it!wut can i do rite?lynden kept asking me to ask sharpur...but there is a difference!!sharpur is a nice and sweet guy..somehow....haih!!!one more thing...why is he borned to be in a extemely wealthy family??im really pissed off!!!!'sierramas'....sucks!why cant he jus be a normal guy?perhaps i had made a mistake in my life...where i shouldnt have fall in love with him!itz all my fault!im being stupid and silly to love this kinda guy!haih......

saturday 22nd july 2006!!!!
happie birthday to my dear and luvly karmun!!!i really enjoyed the day!!i felt really closed to u guys!at first i thought we might not have topics to talk bout...wel,everything happened to be the opposite way!i love u guys very much!although frenship do not depends on how long do we know each other..somehow,we really have the chemistry!!it cant be replaced by any gang cos we are really closed to one and another!!the feelings are existing all the time!i love the moment we chill out!i love to have u guys there...to talk bout..i mean the feelings are really unique!u guys are the top-listed!!!as i would name it as 'sei thong'!!nothing would break the frenship..no matter wut happen...we are always togather!!we'l care for one and another!!and i would like to say here,qw,im really sorry that u were not feeling well and yet itz ya celebration too!!i hope u'l get well soon!i was kinda worried when she seemed to cry out cos there was some prob with her cousin...i felt really sorry for that cos i hope she'l enjoy it but things seemed to be kinda pressure on her!i dun hope to have a bad memory for her birthday celebration!!itz important for them since itz the breaking point!!!yea..km,we must have a long chat one day k!and i hope u guys would like the prez,the place,the atmosphere,and oso the cake!!!kaka!

monday morning....
sorry sharon for not helping u to reload...but taiwan noodles house really got sold out all the RM10 prepaid card liao....hahhaa!!!u r soooo unlucky for the day!!kakakakaka!anyway,i hope u've got everything settled!!

orlandoz blooming!

i read my frens' blogs and something inspired me to blog out..

i act jus read few of them,my sis,my bro,andrew....and everyone seems to have their probs to solve in life!family probs,love probs,frenship probs...etc keeps occuring in life...and everyone does face it in life,even once in a life time rite?perhaps some ppl might not wan this to happen...for my point of view,i think itz some kinda experience in life...wel,we shud have get the chance to feel the sense of failure by ouself before achieving success,where i think it would porbably be really meaningful in this way!

back to my life again,i got this fren where he got fallen in love with a guy so deeply,where hez willing to do wutever jus to maintain the relationship!!somehow,i would think itz pretty silly to leave a person by yaself which dun love u!!i wan him,i wan everything but not his property!!it turns to be meaningless to have him without his heart rite?i rather choose to get rid from it and begin a new life!wel,i know itz easy to say out but pretty tough to do it in life!i knew it!but u wont know if u've never give it a try rite?

yayay...i watched pirates of the caribbean:the dead man's chest!!!orlando bloom is blooming!!!!im dead in seeing him cos hez truely awesome!!!!aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!and another thing is i would like to thank him for searching the lyrics and mp3 for me...i appreciate it!!thank you bro!!!!i love that song...heheh!

u make me wanna fall in love....

i got those feelings again...

letz begin with my daily rountine....as usual would go to coll in the morning since i feel realy boring to stay at home...at least i could meet up with my gang..tim n pat were there walking towards me...we planned to go cyber cafe before our class starts cos we really have to relax after a week of rushing for cws!BUT,i promised eric that i would help him out with his last cw-MYOB!we had planned to meet up at 9.30am...wel,i was so impatient to wait for him and the time had past...i tend to go cyber cafe with andrew....and met up my gang there!!i was angry when eric called me up...i even rejected his phone calls...u might say that im so cruel but i'd gave him a few phone calls at first where he din pick up the phone!!despite,i did something funny,i past on my hp to andrew when eric called me!!but then i was busy playing my game at tat moment!hey guys,u shud be wondering why i've gone to all this places rite??but itz fun to play online game with ya gang!!wel,andrew said eric was kinda curious bout why was he holding and answering my phone...andrew even told him to call him instead of calling me cos i seemed to be too angry bout him!!hahahah...thatz really fun!!i noe itz tooo bad but who cares rite?wel,we went to meet up someone..i mean me and andrew then eric msg me that he was in library..wel,i did wen to see him but that time i saw him laying on the table...seemed to be tiring and sick....he was listening to his mp3 player,i was jus putting my finger behind his back n he was pretty sensitive to it!!wel,we went to the pc lab...n i got really happie cos i got everything done!!!i thought of teaching him at first...but it seemed that i dun have the patient in my heart...therefore,i jus got the whole cw done for him!!hahah....thatz my style!frankly,i was kinda impressed by myself cos i got it done!!!and itz correct!!!after that we both and andrew went to have a lunch!!!i started to feel guilty at that moment....hmmm...perhaps i've done something bad to him...but i told myself not to think bout that anymore...later pat came n joined us!!after all,we got our classes on...before we went to our classrooms,eric promised to treat me ice-cream...me and andrew were walking behind...as usual,we got lotz to chat...we are really closed to each other...but not that kind k!but i din get on my ice -cream cos my stomach have no space for it!in the class,everything seemed to be normal...of cos i would love to seek for handsome guys!!i've searched for lee hom's pics...and other korean guys!!!they are really awesome!!!!beautiful!!!!i really melted off in the lab!!!!!!!!!class finished early then i went off with my gang...he really treated me the ice-cream and oso a coke for my feng yun!!!act i din mean to have it...i dun meant to teach him in such a way as the rewards!!!i helped him cos i really treat him as my fren!!!!i dun hope that he'l think in this way!!!!however,i cant control wut he thinks rite???

i went to mirado for pratise section...wel,i was so dam bored cos keep pratising the same thing...i never thought of seeing this guy anymore cos i thought he has stopped for his guitar lesson....moreover hez gonna further his studies in UK!!!so wut for shud i think of this guy rite???i thought i would have get him rid of my life!!!i thought i really got faded up since he has treated me like this...i mean not even a 'hi'!!!!!!who knows i saw him!!i really saw him!!!!!he said hi to me before i could recognise him!!i mean i din have the preparation of seeing him!!!i was in a mess!!!!!i got really taken aback with it!!i nearly turned to be speechless at that moment!!he was asking me where is the fat man,where he was refering to lyden...haha!!!i jus told him that he wasnt here...wel...i really have no idea bout it!!!and my teacher jus shouted out that "thomas!!shiaw lee wans u!!!"omg!!!how am i suppoed to face him?i mean i dun wan this to be spread k!!!he might have avoided me of like this rite???but one thing i could tell u here....hez truly awesome!!!all my feelings are back !!!my mind got blank out until now!!!i couldnt play out my exam pieces at all!!!!i couldnt concerntrate!!hez the only person which would drive me crazy!!!no one has act influence me so much til i couldnt concerntrate on my music!!!!!he's got tougher and tanned now!!!nothing could act describe him out!!!i thought barry is really nice cos i saw him in the morning...where he's got his chest build up...but no one has come to my mind when i saw tt!!no more eddie!no more leo!no more eric!no more barry!!!!!no one except tt!!and i teared off when i was in my own studio...when playing my pieces...i kept asking my self not to think of him anymore!!i kept blaming myself!!!we are really impossible...in fact,i dun wanna things to get serious!!i cant like this guy....itz a sin to like him...i mean i shudnt have let myself to get crzy bout him!!!

u make me wanna lala.......

rushing for courseworks!!!!!

im feeling kinda lazy to continue my work,since i got it kinda difficult to get the info...perhaps this is the time for me to recharge!!wowow!!FIFA Finale is gonna happen....which team do u support?i do support Italy...somehow,terry is jus too scary and unpredictable!!!anyhow,i'l be happie if any of the teams win since i do love them very much !

im listening to lee hom's latest album...wel,hez jus simply shines...i love his style!!!i love this song...sounds simple yet meaningful!his vocal could bring out the best of the songs..haha!!though hez not alto or soprano...but itz perfect in my point of view!

yaya..not to be forgotten,i act have something to say here..hmmm...i dunno whether the feeling is true or not...i got my heart beating when i see them!!i mean itz jus a feeling...it doesnt mean that i love them rite?perhaps jus some kinda good feelings..i did mentioned in my previous post,i thought i would have forgotten him,who knows i got the feeling whenever meeting him up..i feel really sorry for andrew...and im trying to control myself not to think bout him anymore...but sometimes the pic jus flash in my mind!i'l try my best....while another one is someone in my gang!!!!i must stop it!!!!!how could i like my bros!!???the answer shud be NO...ABSOLUTELY NO!!!i cant do this...i dun wanna loss a fren!!wel,i felt so weird when da day we got our results out n hugged each other...though for me itz jus a hug..but for my information,hez not my kind,as in open-minded...i was really impressed with him!furthermore,i was kinda worried when he said hez gonna leave here n study somewhere..but he was saying to improve his english by taking courses out there!!stupid me...and i was really sad before he told me that!!how come i got such feeling?nonono!!!not true!!
bout eddie??hahahaha....yea!!!i've alwiz got myself pump into this guy whenever i see him!!hahah....nono!!i dun love him...jus impressed by his playing...fabulous guitarist!

fooled again!

im feeling really happie today!!

i knew itz the day for us to get our result...i thought i was supposed to be feeling really nervous bout it,instead,i was kinda calm in the morning...not until the morning where all the students went to claim their result slips!i was kinda panic at that moment since most of my frens got their transcripts!!how bout me then?i forgotten to bring my IC and also student card...haha!!i was kinda lazy to go all the way to the 3rd floor...therefore,i jus took it after my class finished!i was really touched that all my frens act waited for me to get my result slip!!thanks to my gang...i was really happie with them!itz my turn now!!!!!i gave him my IC and searched for my name as well!!OMG!!!i really extrememly nervous k!!"awak ni dahsyat betul!"...why is he saying this?what the hell does he mean!?i couldn't wait to take my slip anymore!!!thank GOD!!!im kinda satisfied with my result...wel,itz jus sem1 but im kinda happie...hahaha!!i waited two of my frens to get their reults too!!gogo kai!!!u got really good result!!im really happie for u!!and also my ayuen!!!u guys rockz!!!!

after all my classes had finished at 4pm,i went for a drink with my frens,eric,andrew and also one of ericz fren,allison....wel,my first impression towards this guy was really bad!!im kinda dislikes him!!he seems to be kinda rude and i do think that he complaint bout andrew and me though we were jus in front of him!!how could he do this?anyway,i felt so uncomfortable to be there...i shouldnt have gone for the drink!!!my day seems to have spoilt in such a way!!i really wanted to leave or jus walk to coll!!i din intend to stay any longer...not a moment!somehow,i jus cant behave rude though he treatz us like this!i kept telling myself that im not like him..i wont do something rude to others!however,i got myself mad when we went to buy a pack of cigarette and jus smoked in front of us!!!it was really sucks!!!we din talk much to each other since he seems to be so protective towards himself!!hez sooooo unfriendly!!can u imagine he din intend to introduce himself or shake hands not until i asked him!!!by the way,is he a guy!?he dun even know the simple manner in socializing with other ppl!
andrew and i got released when both of them had left!!we talked and laughed...and things seem to have recovered!anyhow,i got a really weird and bad feeling bout eric!!hez too tricky to put on a trust to him!!i dislike him!he always makes me feel bad!!sometimes, i really dun wanna bother bout him...i mean as a fren or bro!!!but he seems to be so alienated by the classmates...perhaps,this is only wut i think rite?i wanna help him!!i mean i really wanna help my fren!!frankly,i really treat him as my fren...but how has he treat me now?i jus feel like being fooled by him!!i hate this feeling!!!im feeling so stupid!!

i saw alan!

i saw him!!!i mean i saw this really gorgeous guy in the city!!can u believe it!!!

anyway,if u dun believe me and now u have to cos i really saw this guy in the city!!i had my break time with my gang at McD...wel,on the way back to my coll...i was really happie cos i did enjoyed my day though i have many courseworks on,and im kinda rushing for the courseworks since i have to pass all up by 13 of july!however,this thing seemed to have charged my battery up!!!i thought i was jus dreaming since none of my frens said itz him....somehow,i could recognised him well since i've like him when he first shot at the 'rejoice shampoo' advertisement where he acted as a postman and got attracted to a gal who uses the shampoo...wel,i think that was something 6 to 7 years ago...and yet i stil i like him so much!!lately,he had released a movie named Gubra...
back to my story,i saw him in a black shirt and wore a jeans which made him looks really manly!!!he was on the phone at that moment...and what i wanted to do was to ask him to have a snapshot!!!but it seems kinda weird for me to do that...furthermore im in a rush for my class!!!now,i feel kinda regretful to have lost the chance to have at least a photo with him!!!hez awesome!!!!!!i never thought of seeing him in the street!!!and hez really tall!!!!and tough as well!!!which makes u wanna hug him!!!!!!!!how can a guy be so perfect!!hez financial controller which i gotta to know it through an article and of not mistaken hez 27 years old this year!!!can u imagine??wel,im trying my best to get his pic post here so that u guys would have a better and clearer pic bout this gorgeous guy!!!by the way,hez name is alan yuan!

temptation!

something really nice happened ytd!!!wel,u might think thatz something usual in ya life...but then it seems to be happie for me....

i was kinda bad for the day at first since i really no idea bout how to face my gang...recently i found out that there are act some kinda probs existing among us...hmmm....shud be nothing much...but jus feel kinda tough to click with them!!anyway,i hope everything will be fine soon!

back to my day!!!my day was kinda bored at first...then i jus met up with my frens!!!it comes naturally to me that we have unfinish topics in life..i love talking with him....itz so comfortable!!!hey,if u are reading here...please dun feel proud of yaself k!!!hahahah!!!then as usual i went to mirado for lesson....hmmmm...i guess i would have a chance to see eddie...but i din really bother bout it at first cos my mind din thought of that....but i was really impressed when i turned back!!!!i din noe that he was standing behind me when i was talking to my teacher!!!!i was dam shocked at that moment!!!!!how could he be so secure?!?!?!?!?!?!the gap was really small...the feeling was really tempting!!my heartbeat increased!!!!!!

am i abnormal?or i've recovered!?

sometimes,i think that im rechargable!

i read the posts which i'd posted it during the end of last year,and the beginning of this year..i felt funny with it!why did i take things so seriously?'i couldn't see tt'...n i even felt like crying...hahaha!!how silly!for this moment,i think i've let go...somehow,tt would stil be kept in my mind as a person which tends to be the ideal n perfect that i ever met in life so far!while the rest jus keep in 'frens item'....

somehow,im not sure to tell u that i've actually recovered from the previous case,which i bumped into a guy who is homosexual.wel,im act helping his partner,D to overcome their prob,where we planned to 'attack' him!!when our plan tends to reach our goal,im feeling really happie with it!!!i kept asking myself why do i feel this way?wouldn't it be funny or perculiar?how could it be?i am now really closed with D!not to get info from him...but we both enjoy being closed frens,bro n sis....or u may even say SOS!hahahaha!!we have the similar interests,opinions,tastes.....etc...thatz why ended up loving the same person in life!hahahahhaa.....recently i realised that we both have undefinite topics...we chat online...and meet up at coll to have lunch,breaks...and chat all the way to coll or to the restaurants...even on the phone!!!we can chat non-stop whenever meet up!!!we are even closer than couples....and yet we are not!!!!thatz the best thing of all!!perhaps he talks much to me than to his partner......and most probably i'l be proud if he jealous bout both of us.....kakakakaka!