MY PIECE OF MIND..

omg....once again i feel myself a LOSER...

why do this idea alwis be in my soul?perhaps of my low self esteem?hehe..why couldnt i have a simple and peaceful month ever for a whole year period..why couldnt i just live a happie bday month ever???WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY....F***....

things seems to be happening unpleasantly around me....firstforemost, i'd received news of my frens' relatives passing away ...4 cases...itz pretty sad u noee...some of them were quite calm facing the truth...but 2 of them were pretty upset over it since they really CARE much onto them...im sorry to hear that..it somehow makes me feel that family is irreplaceable cos we are interelated to one and another...cherish the moment togather with them cos u'l nv noe wut wil be happening in future time.

and my frens around me...many things are happening to them that makes me sort of worry bout them...i hope everything wil be goin back to the right path very soon...

myself...im kinda exhausted...kaka~yeah..the word exhausted...my all time fav to describe my feeling...kaka~i believe in karma seriously ...good incidents will follow up by unpleasant incidents, i alwis believe that there are cause and effect..kaka~too much of business study~anyway,i really feel like not falling love into guys anymore.....why are all good guys been occupied???hehe...im wondering he must be saying that this statement isnt a fact, that im merely on my personal perspective ..i shudnt have conclude it with my personal judgement..etc..kaka~act i was pretty impressed...perhaps may say startling with him!i never expect that his reactions would be something like ytd...hehe~~frannkly, he really caught me in fear since i nv came across wit such em...tremendously SENSITIVE AND SERIOUS guy ...aw~~~in fact, he makes me to talk cautiously in the conversation so that i wouldnt get into trouble by showing his piece of mind to me..kaka~wel, i was kinda inquiring myself why wouldnt i give him my piece of mind too huh?!hmm...i doubt that shud be a real nice verbal war...unfortunately , im not that kind~i'l rather keep it than spilling it out...isnt it hurtful to the frenship? i'l choose to stay calm than revealing my DEVIL side...NO WAY~~~but im wondering how far could i and shoud i to control this emotion of anger from exploiting out ?hmmm...im sort of proud with my EQ ...hehe...although i easily get piss off with ppl...but i could control it successfully ...AWWW~~~im such a COOL dude...YEAHH~~
OMGGG...im stil sooooooooooooo....argh~~~why could he treat me like that??how could he said those to me???i felt myself sooo innocent in that incident...F***......and one thing ...I DISLIKE OR SOMEWHAT HATE PPL SAYING "WUTEVER" TO MEEE~~~~hmm,why wouldnt i give him my piece of mind on this????KAKAKAKAK...YEAH~~~''im sensitive on ppl saying 'wutever' to me..i feel offended or being not respected..."...kakakakak~

anyway,my big day is jus round the corner, but i dun think i'l be in the mood for it due to all this stupid happenings...ARGHH~~S**** i tot of having a fascinating bday night with intangible bday pressies..kaka~~how i wish my dream would come true...how i wish they would actually sing me songs....how i wish they rmb and give me sms of greetings...this actually meant sooooooo deep to me~kaka...i think things would not happen in its way once i've expected it to be...i noe it well~it'l definitely nv come true once i've tot of or mentioned or expected..kaka~~perhaps no expectation brings surprises...*smile*