confused!!
sometimes,i'l inquire myself whether or not i have good feelings towards this guy?or whether or not i have pumped into this guy?somehow,i jus think that situation wil be lessly complicated if the person is a gal!i mean i wouldnt have thought that i got fall in love the person when im missing a gal fren..in fact, i would ask myself do i act fall in love with this person if hez a guy!therefore,i do think itz the gender problem that cause me think sophisicatedly....perhaps i do have the same feeling towards gals..but jus that i'l think in detail if the same thing happen on guys!however, there may be situation where im sure that i really love this guy!the feeling is jus unique whereby nothing will come before him!ya mind appears nothing except him!but there may be no return though u have sacrifice much!but isnt it love to where i sacrifice for nothing but to love him!?wel, i do consider it as my perception...somehow,it may sounds foolish!
anyway,i found myslef kinda dumb or numb to feel wut happening around!perhaps im trying to not to feel?or im not good in getting the sense or signals!even someone may consists to have confessed to me..but i couldnt get anything!i personally think itz a big prob!i really dunno how to sense it!but hopefully itz not the bad thing!!
btw,i think i have seen him almost everyday...though itz not too long..perhaps jus a hi or bye...but the intention to seek for him..to just have a view of his face is alwis there!it happens to be funny that i miss him when hez not around..but i tend not to appreciate him when hez in front of me!i try not to display wutz in my mind on the facial expression..i wouldnt wan him to noe that i got good feelings towards him either...somehow,i jus feel that he noes something...n trying to prevent it from happenin..which i think itz a good thing!cos i dun wan all this to happen...sometimes,these makes me feel scare or afraid to approach him!perhaps i jus wan to remain as good fren or even bro n sis with him so tat i stil have him!!
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Monday, March 26, 2007
wutz happening into me????
i had been crazy over this weekends..kept thinking on wutz he to me.why shud i concern bout wut he has done to me...how he has treated me??why shud i bother bout all this????the more i concern, the more often i think bout him...n this is sooo gonna drive me crazy!
the feeling is somewhat,in fear to see him or even meet him up..before i got out of the door heading to my college in the noon,i kept praying for not to see him...cos i'l feel somehow stress up whenever seeing him or dealing somethings that related to him!but i was soooo shocked that the first person i saw when i pulled the glass door was him!i tried to head down n jus passed by by walking straight to the cw department...when i found no one was there, i turned back n intended to walk to the pc lab...and i saw him again,he asked me to attend the guitar lesson tmr n saying that nadicson will be there too...shit wei!i was kinda pissed when i got the news!!after a long,i jus went out of the class when during break time,saw him..the same feeling arouse..i jus walked over there since kwung was there..then jus chitchatted for a while...it started off nicely..but ended up quarrelling...though itz nothing much serious..but why we tend to quarrel everytime over some small matters?the feeling is soooooo not nice!somehow itz kinda hurtful...even feel like sayin sorry to him..but i wont!
i had been crazy over this weekends..kept thinking on wutz he to me.why shud i concern bout wut he has done to me...how he has treated me??why shud i bother bout all this????the more i concern, the more often i think bout him...n this is sooo gonna drive me crazy!
the feeling is somewhat,in fear to see him or even meet him up..before i got out of the door heading to my college in the noon,i kept praying for not to see him...cos i'l feel somehow stress up whenever seeing him or dealing somethings that related to him!but i was soooo shocked that the first person i saw when i pulled the glass door was him!i tried to head down n jus passed by by walking straight to the cw department...when i found no one was there, i turned back n intended to walk to the pc lab...and i saw him again,he asked me to attend the guitar lesson tmr n saying that nadicson will be there too...shit wei!i was kinda pissed when i got the news!!after a long,i jus went out of the class when during break time,saw him..the same feeling arouse..i jus walked over there since kwung was there..then jus chitchatted for a while...it started off nicely..but ended up quarrelling...though itz nothing much serious..but why we tend to quarrel everytime over some small matters?the feeling is soooooo not nice!somehow itz kinda hurtful...even feel like sayin sorry to him..but i wont!
Saturday, March 24, 2007
why is he to be so influencial in my life?
i love my frens...they are appreciable to me!they'd done something tat really surprised me,made me laughed,happie,excited,even wanna cry out!i really wanna hug each of u guys!!i'l rmb u guys in my life....promise!
anyway,i gotta noe something bout this guy..i jus felt frustrated towards him..i mean wut can a fren do for ya birthday...jus a wishing will make it jus nice to me!i think he knew bout it..perhaps he was jus too exhausted with his assignments..perhaps he was jus too tired for the day..or negatively maybe he might have jus dislike me...but i was pretty upset..he saw me..i appeared to be standing in front of him..i even walked there n talked to him..but why had he to treat me like that?he seemed to have treated me as no one was there...cant u jus picture the situation how harshly it was?i told myself not to feel tat anymore..not anymore..i even cried during the class.i jus felt how stupid i was to have cried for such a person..who nv cares...itz pain!
anyway,i gotta noe something bout this guy..i jus felt frustrated towards him..i mean wut can a fren do for ya birthday...jus a wishing will make it jus nice to me!i think he knew bout it..perhaps he was jus too exhausted with his assignments..perhaps he was jus too tired for the day..or negatively maybe he might have jus dislike me...but i was pretty upset..he saw me..i appeared to be standing in front of him..i even walked there n talked to him..but why had he to treat me like that?he seemed to have treated me as no one was there...cant u jus picture the situation how harshly it was?i told myself not to feel tat anymore..not anymore..i even cried during the class.i jus felt how stupid i was to have cried for such a person..who nv cares...itz pain!
Thursday, March 22, 2007
im 20 today!!!!wut i hope huh?
world peace..
happie family...
happie edu..life...
of cos not to be forgotten....my prince charming!!kaka
anyway,i saw him ytd..he looks exhausted...seems like he has been stress up with his assignments...and he said the submit date for the cw has changed to be earlier...i was pretty 'sum thong' when seeing him like that...but kinda geram cos he rather went to GENTING than finish up his cw...so kinda padan muka!but i see him like that...really feel soo pityful to him..really hope to be at his side...give him support!hope everythinh will be fine in ya life...dude!
world peace..
happie family...
happie edu..life...
of cos not to be forgotten....my prince charming!!kaka
anyway,i saw him ytd..he looks exhausted...seems like he has been stress up with his assignments...and he said the submit date for the cw has changed to be earlier...i was pretty 'sum thong' when seeing him like that...but kinda geram cos he rather went to GENTING than finish up his cw...so kinda padan muka!but i see him like that...really feel soo pityful to him..really hope to be at his side...give him support!hope everythinh will be fine in ya life...dude!
Sunday, March 18, 2007
hmmmm....
hihi!!itz been ages for me not blog here...
apparently i've been blogging at friendster, furthermore jus felt lazy to log in here..somehow i tot of deleting this,but this blog has kept all the memories with tt..so im not gonna do tat!many things had happened in this few months...itz year 2007 now...wow!!
met many ppl...get to noe them better..the better one wil be closer now..perhaps the closer ones may becoming further now...
kai-i knew him since 2005, we studied LCCI togather,but i nv get to noe him better tat time cos i had my gang!but we are really best frens now..noe wut?i found myself to have pumped into him..hmmm,jus for some moment..perhaps the feeling has gone..kaka!hez a nice guy,responsible,i admire the way he treats others,he'l nv promise u if he noes that he cant do it!i appreciate him as my fen...but sometimes i jus find myself to be jealous when hez treating other better than me!isnt it weird?i dun consider it as pumping into someone...jus sometime confuse bout it..somehow i may also feel the same thing if hez a gal...rite?
simon-this guy is awesome,in the sense hez charming in his way!he has his personality clear..im adore to his style!i love his personality!noe wut?i saw him in 2005,where i was studying LCCI n hez doing multimedia.my first impression towards him was-such a gurlish boy!but i gotta noe him last year,or even better this year!we act came from the same primary schoool...OH NO!itz all fated!kakak!i was kind adored to him at first cos he tends to be soo tempting!but sooner or later,when i get closer to him,i jus wan everything to remain at the current position,perhaps itz pleased to have such a fren!u'l melt off with his eye contact..hez absolutely a killer to girls!with his nice deep vocal and his eyes...wow!gorgeous!
gavin-hahah..i was kinda crazy bout him when the time he sang at the dinner n dance..perhaps thing tat happen seldomly will seems to be appreciable n precious..but when u get to approach to it frequently,then it'l be something ordinary!i was kinda excited when there were any opportunity for me to approach him..but it'l be different story when it happened to be true!im currently attending his guitar classes...sometimes feel kinda enjoying,but sometimes are jus so-so!why?i dunno....sometimes may really melt on his singing n playing..but mostly end up with an 'out-of-tune' bang!somehow,this makes me to be awake!!kakak!
evert-knew him last year...everyone thinks that i got pumped into him cos of his physical appearance...kakka!somehow i gotta communicate with him cos we were in a group for the performance..furthermore itz nice to have someone who is on the side of u!same interest perhaps!we like playing guitar..the classical?or electric?the jaming?wow!!!tatz y i have topic with him!itz nice to talk to him cos u'l see him with a smile everytime!wow...u'l feel happie n please to see such a person!it warms ya heart even u have tonnes of stressful workloads with u!i stil feel tat moment was sweet...when u were alone sitting with nothing to do,and decided to sms him...but wit no reply..somehow he just appeared in front of u surprisingly!though itz someting simply..isnt it simple the best?i like this..
..thomas tan??nothing to talk on him cos he'l alwis have a position in my heart!but just full of inquiries...love
apparently i've been blogging at friendster, furthermore jus felt lazy to log in here..somehow i tot of deleting this,but this blog has kept all the memories with tt..so im not gonna do tat!many things had happened in this few months...itz year 2007 now...wow!!
met many ppl...get to noe them better..the better one wil be closer now..perhaps the closer ones may becoming further now...
kai-i knew him since 2005, we studied LCCI togather,but i nv get to noe him better tat time cos i had my gang!but we are really best frens now..noe wut?i found myself to have pumped into him..hmmm,jus for some moment..perhaps the feeling has gone..kaka!hez a nice guy,responsible,i admire the way he treats others,he'l nv promise u if he noes that he cant do it!i appreciate him as my fen...but sometimes i jus find myself to be jealous when hez treating other better than me!isnt it weird?i dun consider it as pumping into someone...jus sometime confuse bout it..somehow i may also feel the same thing if hez a gal...rite?
simon-this guy is awesome,in the sense hez charming in his way!he has his personality clear..im adore to his style!i love his personality!noe wut?i saw him in 2005,where i was studying LCCI n hez doing multimedia.my first impression towards him was-such a gurlish boy!but i gotta noe him last year,or even better this year!we act came from the same primary schoool...OH NO!itz all fated!kakak!i was kind adored to him at first cos he tends to be soo tempting!but sooner or later,when i get closer to him,i jus wan everything to remain at the current position,perhaps itz pleased to have such a fren!u'l melt off with his eye contact..hez absolutely a killer to girls!with his nice deep vocal and his eyes...wow!gorgeous!
gavin-hahah..i was kinda crazy bout him when the time he sang at the dinner n dance..perhaps thing tat happen seldomly will seems to be appreciable n precious..but when u get to approach to it frequently,then it'l be something ordinary!i was kinda excited when there were any opportunity for me to approach him..but it'l be different story when it happened to be true!im currently attending his guitar classes...sometimes feel kinda enjoying,but sometimes are jus so-so!why?i dunno....sometimes may really melt on his singing n playing..but mostly end up with an 'out-of-tune' bang!somehow,this makes me to be awake!!kakak!
evert-knew him last year...everyone thinks that i got pumped into him cos of his physical appearance...kakka!somehow i gotta communicate with him cos we were in a group for the performance..furthermore itz nice to have someone who is on the side of u!same interest perhaps!we like playing guitar..the classical?or electric?the jaming?wow!!!tatz y i have topic with him!itz nice to talk to him cos u'l see him with a smile everytime!wow...u'l feel happie n please to see such a person!it warms ya heart even u have tonnes of stressful workloads with u!i stil feel tat moment was sweet...when u were alone sitting with nothing to do,and decided to sms him...but wit no reply..somehow he just appeared in front of u surprisingly!though itz someting simply..isnt it simple the best?i like this..
..thomas tan??nothing to talk on him cos he'l alwis have a position in my heart!but just full of inquiries...love
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