miserable life~

since ever the term break has begun,i knew that im so gonna recharge myself for beginning another new life rite after this period..i tot i would have struggled for nobody business for that week,despite i was a little by the boredom,perhaps it seems like i've found my path that im clear with wut shud i be doing for this coming semester..im jus trying hard to put myself on the right path..i hope that i'l be real determined in my edu..i dun wanna put much hope and high expectation onto him anymore..im getting really tiring from day to day...of seeing him every classes...everytime we play badminton...everytime we go for lunch...i dun hope to pay complete attention onto him,which is kinda out of my control whereby i'l notice wutever is happening around...tat feeling is jus dam shit..i really hope to get rid with all these in a peaceful way..where he would nv notice bout it yet we remain as frens~

somehow, i think i've improved much since i have no intention for him anymore,i'l somehow have the feeling of avoiding him whenever hez there or he might be there...i'l jus avoid any eye contact with him....the conclusion here is I DUN WANNA SEE HIM~~


wel,another thing tat brought up my anger is one of my frens..where we have been running closely as classmates and frens..however,sometimes i jus feel that he has been brought over to a certain limit where i dun really like it~how could he jus read my msg without my permisson..and i really hate it when i were in the conversation with someone and he came to interrupt by teasing me...i hate it seriously~i really hate it that he alwis have his piece of mind without thinking on wut others are thinking,i hate it when he feels that hez alwis right in everything..i hate it when he feels that hez knowledgeable than others...i hate it when hez too overconfidence with himself...i hate it when he takes things for granted...i hate it when he feels that he deserves the best of everything since he has paid for it...how would aries be compatible with leo?itz totally out of sound..they are best frens..but nothing more than that...i really hate it~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
who is he to me?how could he has such authority to control me?how would he say such thing to me?he has his piece of mind..so do i...i have mine tooo~im so gonna throw it to him one day...

another issue is,me and my fren went on a confrontation for our best fren...where this guy has been making use of her for his assignments..and fooling her feelings all this time..although i felt that i've being busybody since we are jus 3rd parties in here,somehow he'z been going over the boundary where i think we shud pay him a fuck and give a kick at his ass~hez so sucks..how could a guy be acting in such a way..being defensive on such thing even he has not make it clear ever...and he claimed that he did declared it to her...come on,we are not fools~frenship may includes sharing love and caring each other, but not using her money, her time and knowledge for the purpose of completing his courseworks~~furthermore a gentleman shudnt have take things for granted~and tatz why hez gone speechless when we asked him bout his motive of being good to her~hez jus extremely sucks among the guys and being such an embarrassment in the guys world~the point is he din even realised his wrong doings and keep thinking hez been doing the rite thing..this really brought up my anger again whereby i din expect him to say all this..i tot hez been placed in dilemmas and consequently he din give a dam to begin the relationship..but now he jus said he has no good feelings towards her...then wut were those memories and things that they've done?obviously itz more than being frens..wel,no matter how, i really hope that she'l get rid with all these real soon..i hope she'l cheer alwis~~