wutz life!?

somehow,i feel nothing but strange to him...

wel,we seem to be closed to one and another..he tells me bout his family,feelings,relationship..i tot i would have met someone really nice n true at first..tatz why we are like bro n sis...but sooner or later, i realised something,therez a one-way-frenship where i will forever be the listener..i noe itz good n excellent to lend a ear to ya fren when they need me...but i jus feel relunctant to pour out my thoughts, my feelings,instead i jus keep inside n goes on with his prediction...sometimes,im not feeling as wut he has say,but i dun intend to explain or even tell him the truth cos i think this is my personal things where im given a choice to share with whoever i wan!i feel bad cos this is gonna be so lame n mean to treat a fren like this...cos this might hurts him as in i dun hope he'l noe my this blog!kakakk!anyway,i'l jus keep listening to him...whenever he tells me staff!cos i do think he treats me as fren so im not gonna take the bad way towards him!

basically i would crack my mind of getting wut kinda gift for m frenz birthday..or thinking wut kinda surprises for them...surprisingly i thought of getting my courseworks done instead of thinking where to celebrate with him...i dun feel like doing that cos itz not truely from my heart...i mean i dun intend to send him even a msg..but i did wished him last night!i thought of getting him a card n send it to his letterbox...but i dun feel like walking all the way from coll to his house!i thought that itz a wasted of time..i went to library n searched for some facts!i felt myself sooo weird as in im thinking that hez soo different from the ppl i met all the while!i mean my frens are sooo differnt from him..or u may say them!i dun really like to mix with such a gang...though i noe they are nice ppl ..but jus not style..i dun like ppl to cheat during exams!i dun like ppl to behave in this way!i shudnt be complaining cos no one is perfect..but they are jus sooo different from my gang!i really cant compare them with my gang cos they are soo ''root''!though barry comes from hk,but wutz da point even he doesnt noe how to respect others!?ivy is a nice gal..but we hardly have topics cos somehow i think we have age gap...perhaps im not at their stagelol!!he doesnt seem to be a student..wutz da point of buying all the certificates!?wutz da point of cheating in the exams!?wutz da point of studying in class?!wutz da point of doing all this in life!?why cant he jus rely on himself!?therez not point in paying other ppl to get the courseworks done!i dun like it!itz useless to get such a degree!

one more thing i would like to mention here...i dislike netherson!i really feel annoyed with himla!wutz da purpose of brining his tux here!?i mean why has he to bring it up!?i really dun und!to show off to his frens!?perhaps im not really familiar with him...but i do found him pretty weird some ways!i dun really like his behaviours in treating others...i dun care whether hez from a wealthy family or not...the oni thing i feel irritated is his attitude!i jus dun like it!hez sooooo perculiar!i really dun wanna talk to him sometimes..as in i dun even wanna have a look at his face!i dun wanna choi him!i dun wan!!!!!!!!!!!stupid fella!

wherez my shoe?wherez my phone?

i decided to go for the practice today...

reached there by 9.45am...well,really felt tiring cos i really couldn't slept yesterday night!!seriously this was the first time i'd been through these...i felt really sleepy but my brain was stil ''working''..i felt sooooo suffering...i tot of getting to bed early so that i would have stamina for the next day...who noes....i couldnt get into sleep...til in the middle of the night!i was so scare that i felt myslef mentally depressed...therefore,i decided to got up of the bed and grabbed the MP3 player...i tot i would do it this time...who noes it nv helped!and i jus tried my very best...

anyway,me n crystal decided to practice earlier for the song...but we were both late..hahaha!while waiting for the rest to come...we had jaming for a short while!now i finally realised why my dad refuses to buy a bag to put my keyboard...hahha!i wont be studying now if i have that...cos i'l go jaming all the time til i cant rmb my home!kakakak!anyway,itz nice to listen to a bossanova song but haih...practice n listen to bossanovala!practice began..edward din come...anyway,he came so at least something...kakaka!sounds funny but kinda boring lo...cos we couldnt practice in a syncronised way since not everyone was here!later,we decided to go a break!!CC time!kakakka....we went there to play Counter Strike..well,i used to play this with my gang..but i had forgotten the procedures...kakak!nice man!i really like it now..cos itz so dam nice to play it online with frens...kkaka!they are really pro in playing this gamelo!!chun man!kakak!then bro came to pick up crystal...n we went for a lunch!''shall we meet''....itz a name of the restaurant that we went...i like the atmosphere here...all white...looks comfortable n clean...anyway,i was kinda guilty when they said the food sold here is costly..i nv thought of that at first...i thought they were be no prob since bro told me they often chill out there after cg...haih!sorry guys...i wont give any suggestion next time!sorry dudes!this gang of ppl sounds funny as in they really can speak heart-to-heart...which i think!they seem like willing to share their probs with one and another..anyway,im not too closed with them...perhaps i alwis deal with my dear dear..so our thinkings are kinda similar!get wut i mean dear dear!?

he looks cute

he sounds funny when he sang tat song...

hmm..today was the first day of coll after 5 days of hols due to celebration of hari raya...i felt refreshed in the morning...but the class somehow was a little bit boring...i did enjoyed cos with my gang there..kakka..n oso my The Sims 2!!!i love that game much ...i wanna play it again tmr.i dun care!yuen must lent me his hp!kakakak!he sounds different today..hez so funny recently..as in his attitudes, his actions,his emotions...kakak!!funy la!anyway, after class we went for lunch...hmmm...i was so surprised that kai act has the same taste as me...i mean we have topics on searching the best n right food for our choice!kakakka..finally i realised!anyway,i went for my drum lesson...i was kinda pissed cos o couldnt play out tat particular variation...i was so dam frustrating tat he even demostrated to me..haih!when i walked out the studio..i heard his voice from outside the studio..where there was this boy which is his student...n his dad was waiting down there..i would surely feel pressure with such situation..he did raised up his voice..n i felt kinda scary!later i went to cc ith fengyun!surpringly we spent our time there..where she surfed the net..n as usual i would play my games..andrew called me in a sudden saying asking whether im coming to his house or not...sooner or later,he came to have a drink together!i soooo dam surprisd when he told me that he has a new gf!wow!amazing man!i m glad to hear that !after having a drink with him...we went for our practice..while waited for others to come...i jus tot of seeing simon cos he might be coming for wed n thurs practice..who noes...hez not coming...fortunately someone was here,edward!kakakka...he looks silent n shy...but when i played out that song...Lok n Sem seemed like singing it..n he was by the side trying to sing together...anyway,he forgotten the lyrics...he looks so cute!!!kakakka!

the reason.....chicken hunter vs taurus

i will alwis rmb ,n i noe,let it goes with me..i'l nv leave this part of u...with u gone it plays on itz so hard to move on i wan to but i wanted u now u stay in mny head..im not over u yet,.i tried to but i wanted u...

sounds familiar?i used to put this thing as my display name for some period of time..somehow,i jus miss him...or u may say that im trying to remind myself bout him!anyway,i had pratice in the noon...i was kinda worried cos when things started to be nicely n excited in the beginning,it will end up witha sad conclusion!i was really scare that i might not click with them anymore!i told myself not to think bout it cos as long as he nv then itz fine!this sounds bad to think of a guy who has a gf where i knew both of them!i cant be doing this to myself!im shouldnt have pumped into him!itz a mistake!im so gonna hate myself from moving the wrong step!how could it be!?cheong shiaw lee is not gonna like this guy k!no more!i dun hope things to go wrong n serious n ends up without frenship!''the reason'' by hoobastank..i love this song!itz meaningful!i stil rmb he asked me bout the score last time...i played this song today with the some one playing the drum accompaniment..well,im so glad to have found someone who act have chemistry in music!im pleased to get a person who can have jaming or maybe to compose song togather!tatz real great!yayya...we wore the same colour of t-shirt n jeans as well!!kakkaak!
though it means but gals would think of some creation about it!kakakakak!

i talked to a new fren today...he was act a fren of sharon...dear dear..this is gonna be so fun!!kakak...cos u are trying to get my opinion by introducing him to me..kakak!so dam funnyla...like im gonna make the deision...kakka!anyway,itz nice to talk to him...his name is chau..sounds a nice guy!later,i talked to yiko..wel,he remind me somehting where i ought to put 100 concertration on my edu!thanks bro...i noe it!i'l keep ya word in my mind alwis!i'l try not to get near him!i 'l try to get rid of getting involved into relationship!

taurus vs sagittarius

i did mentioned that i pumped into this guy in my previous post..

his name is simon..hez a nice...this is wut i can say bout him...i would make u feel happie n laugh though u are in a bad mood!i feel kinda regret why didnt i meet him up last year...dear dear!i shud have join youth ablaze last year!haih...everything should have started earlier!
anyway,itz pretty good to have known him too!i realised someone who is act not as ''teruk'' as i tot last time...his name is netherson...well,i found him kinda irritating at first..but when knowing him better...everything seemed to be differ from the fact...kakak!when the first time he took up the roach n threw it to the dustbin...the first time we talked bout music...the first time he listened to my playing..the first time i played his Art & Lutherie acoustic guitar costs RM 1300...the first time we act had the most topics to talked bout....anyway,is til find simon is the best of all...cos of the way he looks at other..the way he treats other...he so lovely...perhaps hez the one i like...so,wutever he does seems to be the best for me!we have topics...the feeling is unique...he would bring comfort to u...

the coll sounds silent for the first ever..

all the lecturers have gone for a seminar...therefore all the classes have cancelled!but we had practice in the morning...so i jus went to coll as usual...practice starts at 10 am but i reached there at 9..i did some work at the library...around 9.45 i called up fengyun n we tended to walk there togather...while i was waiting for her..i met up with ms vicky...then we had a short talk...she said i look enjoying with the dance!kakakka...memang cos hez there!alalalala!
at first i tot the practice shud be boring cos hez not here...since hez working whole day...but then everything seemed to be the opposite of wut i thought!i din expect things to be like this!there were a drum set,bass guitar.acoustic guitar n a keyboard!as usual...cheong shiaw lee would play all that...kakak...though im not prob in everything!but i jus wanna try out mer!is there any prob in trying out those?shud be no rite?but i think she might be feeling bad cos da guys were like so one kind with me cos we found to be kinda 'click' with each other...sorryla....jaming is my fav!so for sure guys would be my frens..act jus that we have the same topics!Lok ask me to teach him..n he was jus complaning cystal...hmmm..i felt bad when he did this to herlo...n even netherson came to me cos he'z learning guitar...kakka!oni had the first lesson...kakak!but hez passionate in music...gogogo!moreover sam was asking me to teach him this n that...lok was asking me to teach him piano n guitar...netherson was listening to my playing of my fav song''more than words''...i felt imrpessed in a sudden cos i dislike this guy all this time..even ytd i was so mean to him where i said hi to simon but showed him a bad face!n everything seemed to change after 24 hours...perhaps we have the same interest...anyway,sam is a nice guy...hez so cute!he looks like a shy guy..and Lok is a very funny guy!they are nice ppl....i really hope can chill out wit them or maybe have jaming section with them!

later,i met up with my dearie!but sadly there were some ppl here so made me not to pour out everything....cos there'l stil have something to be kept between us dearie!

u are so true...cos i dunno that i would pumped into simon this year!kakak...me myself feel surprised too!cos i'd been saying that this guy is sooo dam kem last year...but i got pumped into him this year!shitla!

i must not!

wut a nice day...

i went to coll in the morning..wel,as usual i'l be late to the class..n u saw the guys were sitting at the same roll...4 of them togather...but she seems to sit at the different side n roll..so where wut shud be my decision?i intended to marched towards my guys!!kakakk!cos i dun wanna be sitting there without 'aids'!we did enjoyed our law lesson...after class,we went for a lunch,hmmm...i had thought of goin somewhere to have lunch at first..i told kai that i dun feel like eating at medan selera!but she wanted to have some rice...but i wanted to have a air-conditioned place..but finally we decided to go to McD!somehow i felt kinda guilty cos she nv odered anything..i felt that im the one cosing her to have no lunch!i kept telling her that i'l be accompanying her to have rice but she refused..so i din bother bout that anymore!later we had FA2 lesson,we sat in a roll..i was feeling so dam boring during the class cos i din see my LCs for both classes!suddenly i took kaiz wallet n have a look of wutz inside..i saw a platinum credit card!he old me there might be around RM15k for the card...then i jus took it n placed in my wallet immediately!!kakak!am i mean enough?anak kampungmer..nv see credit card b4,kakakk!class finished,i saw simon at the doorway,i was kinda glad when he said hez gonna practice with us!wut did i feel like this!?then andrew had asked me to accompany him to eat his meal..so i jus went with him since i was free at that moment...but i wanted him to have a look at simon!!!aaaaaaa!yikoh said this guy is gorgeous though hez not those handsome n muscular type!!but his sis jus pump into this guy...kakka!but i noe i must not since i knew whoz the gal,i even knew her!so yiko asked me jus to keep an eye n not to do anything...hahah!this is something playing in my mind all the time whenever i like a guy!!kkka!sounds so loser rite?anyway,we practice at a classroom..with the gals n some guys there..simon,netherson,sam...sadly edward wasnt there!haih!when the guys were practising for their part,i saw a dead roach at the corner of the floor..i got entire scared off...netherson then took a small piece of paper n i tot he was trying to pick it up to scare me...which i alwiz got bullied from my frens!so i jus ran out of the classroom...when i got back to the classroom,i was keeping an eye outside the classroom through the side window,simon jus locked the door!to bad,Ms vicky jus needed me n he had to let me in...kakak!he said the roach was no longer thereliao...he even told me that they wont scare me wth thay!kakak..i suddenly i felt so sweet with this 2 guys!but sorry...cos before that i saw Mr Wilson...OMG!did he take his pills for the day?i has totally changed his style today!i wore a red buitton up shirt...with a black denim long pant!wut an awesome he is huh!he simply shines!im so adore to him!after the practice,i went to search for yiko but couldnt got him..then i saw taikoz car..n we went for a meal..but i was time to go so i din eat anything...we had a short chat...bout his work now..bout his studies now...bout his financial condition now..wel,i asked him to show me a guy ...but the guy name kit was later today...he came with a motorbike...not scooter...the huge one!seems cool huh!but taiko took dmy spect so i couldnt see him in a clearer view!there surely have another chace!

such a sweet guy~

i feeling so uncomfortable at after the practice...

well,back to last saturday,i had piano lessons with teacher suziez students since 9.30 in the morning...wel,it sounds fun but i nearly slept off when they played me their pieces!!akaka...i noe i sounds so bad cos i shud respect them rite?but wut to do..the air-con was dam cold...n i had no break time,furthermore i forgotten to bring my money as well!!kakak!but i did discovered something..while i was looking at the results slips...i saw sharpurz name!!he got merit for his P5 guitar exam...n i saw his IC no...kakka!am i bad enough?0813...kaka...hez a leo!well..the best suits aries!!!hahahaha!but then i wan another guy!mirado really reminds me of him so much...reminds me everything...i wonder how is he now?i miss him much...im wondering howz he doin now?i hope everything is fine in his life...then i'l be so blessed wit it!i wan him to live a happien n healthy life!no matter wut...i'l love him much!

something happened today...which is nothing happened during the whole long day..we had extra lesson today for FA2...n half of the classmates nv attend the lesson..well,i have to get the attendance signed!anyway,the main thing was we had practice after lunch...n i thought shud be fun cos..yaya...jus let me to mention here...this guy name simon..saw him since last year..but knew him this year...cos tat time he asked whether interested in CG or not..anyway,i found this guy so secure...as in gals would probably melt off with him!though it might not be melting to u..but i really like it when he touched my head with his hand...n sounded like a big bro...n asking u ''have u got ya lunch?''...wow...i think with his voice softly spoken out that sentence...seriously would melt u off man though hez not those musculine-well-looking-trendy-dude!he simply shinesla!jus put him aside..i would say i dislike this guy name netherson,who is a teamate with me in performing the play for the D&D!i hate this guy...for no reason ..perhaps u might say im pretty crictical..but i really dislike him!wut the hell!

after chilling out with my yiko...

this morning i felt kinda weird cos the excitement of attending class has decreasing...since ever i saw him walking with another gal ytd!well,this might not be an issue but then i was kinda pissed since that is a guy which i was kinda pumped into...anyway,this wouldnt be a prob to me since i wasnt that serious into this question!but the main point is i was kinda bored with my classmates..i thought we wouldnt have topics to talk bout..anyway,when i got into the class,i was kinda late n everyone was there...wel,fengyun was sitting behind the guys...but i stil intended to sit with my guys though it seemed like full!we all five persons sat at the same roll..when she asked me why wouldnt i sit with her...since she has received a place beside her for me...but my mind just ignored to sit there...cos i knew i would have no topics to talk with her!i dun wanna be sooo dam lonely sitting at the corner...n crapping n listening to those rubbish!u might say im kinda cruel..but then i really dun wanna have this kinda feelings anymore!i wanna talk to my guys!i wanna laugh with them!i wanna talk bout games!wut shud i talk to her!?i felt kinda enjoyable today cos i had my topics back!at least they have the same topics with me!!!

after class..i went to have my drum lesson..well,kinda fun but then stil the same thingla...cos i would nv melt off!but i do think that jim was kinda trying to give me a test!but i did treated it as a challenge!yiko came to pick me up after my lesson...n we took action our plan!we planned to spy for bob!!kakak!this man is truely gorgeous!i think i did mentioned him in my one of my previous blog...

anyway,nothing much to say...

generation gap!

i was suppose to stay at home today..

i got a moody morning when i got up from my bed...when i thought of going to coll for the extra lesson...the sense of reluctant aroused!however,i tended to attend the class since she might be teaching a new topic today rite?
i received a msg from fengyun when i was on my way to coll..but just too late...she informed me that the class starts at 10 till 12 noon...wel,my mind was blanked out at that moment cos i couldn't find anything to do for tat hour!so where am i supposed to go n wut am i suppose to do now?then,i saw my gang of frens just reached the doorway of the coll...they came before 9 to have breakfast...so we all had nothing to do beside of goin to the library!well,the atmosphere was real weird here..everyone seemed to treat each other like strangers...sounded like a first day of coll..or u may say an orientation day for the students to get to noe one n another!kai n ayuen were sitting next to each other..they were discussing bout some games, while pat was sitting beside me...well,i just took out my MP3player n played on the music....n played some games with kaiz hp!this situation remained for almost an hour,until someone has asked us to enter the class!i was seriously feeling boring with the class...fortunately jerry was there to talk with...this guy jus came back from his hometown last few days...so we did talked!!
after the class...i went to medan selera wit fengyun...to have our lucnh!i knew the guys would not wan it..but since she wanted there then i jus followedlo...finally the guys went somewhere else...after the lucnh..i went to find for andrew!we later went to songbird to relax...however,i nearly slept when he was singing his songs!i think we have generation gap n different channel!!!wut a nightmare!