hehe..
went for a hair cut wit babe today ^^ i was really excited ytd since been few days not seeing babe..really happie to see him.
i'd reached McD bout 10++ to revise for my exam subs. i was alone at McD til babe came around 1++..i was happie though din get to study much , but at least i've und a topic for an answer to one of the question ^^..babe reached, i was really happie that finally my sweetie pie came,somehow i felt guilty when he din intend to have his lunch jus becos he promised me to cut his hair..wel, i jus have a feeling that he did not have the intention for it, yet jus becos i mentioned bout it previous day bout his hair...i knew that i've been forcing him to do many things for me, sometimes i really lost the mood although i noe hez been trying to hard to fulfil wut i wan ...but isnt it meaningless if i were the one to force him for it?sighh...although he wans me to happie but wil he be happie too in tat way?? tatz why i've been telling him that his hair is so short and shudnt been for a hair cut..perhaps i jus hope that he'l have a new hairstyle which makes him looks trendy ^^....i knew that his mom would have said that why couldnt be his aunt to cut his hair, but going to saloon for it... i knew that he'l be in the middle of nowhere..therefore i ended up having a '1 2 JUS' wit him for the final decision ^^kaka.. after the hair cut, i jus felt that i din manage to utilize his RM15 for nice hairstyle.haha~~~he jus trimmed instead of cut...im so worry that his mom would said how come u look similar even after ya hair cut?hahaha...hope his mom nv comment a lot on his hair ^^
Monday, November 30, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
uncertainty and worries =.= >.<
emo for today again >.<
bout 2 more weeks to go for my final exams..this is really the final exams and perhaps ending my student life..partially im feeling happie, awaiting and anticipating for years bout this days, has finally come. on the other hand, im freaking out, this would probably another turning point of my life!not to forget the first day of my coll life, i din manage to attend the orientation or wut, freaking out,but was glad to hav team building activities ^^ finally i met this gal,sharon, which is my darling gf now ^^ i believe in fate, im relief that no matter where we are, we stil keep in touch wit each other..and i feel close even miles apart~~frankly i nv expect to get a true fren for jus a one year foundation course..even we've studied diff course in diff coll, and now we are in diff places with a significant difference in time zone, yet we manage to update wutz happening, or even be the one to alwis turn to when we get stuck.
wel,diploma was really great,fun and happie, relaxing and enjoying even until the moment of examination and submission of cw..badmintons, outings, K-ing, GOSH~~plenty of spare time for activities and life was so happening, at least i have time for sadness and happiness..haha~
however, final year degree has entirely changed the lifestyle, or even ME...i hav a feelin that my maturity level has been enhanced even better, and i really would think for myself and even for the situations~~i've learned so much other than merely academy, even my relationship could have taught me so much and even shaped up my personalities indeed. i've become realistic nowadays, knowing wut the necessity of the society and trying to adopt wit the norm of it, consequently reshaping up my mindset at the same time.sadly,the intention of accomplishing isnt been stimulated, or perhaps it has been slowing down...hmm..i believe degree is not as easy as others assume to be..intensive, subjective, precriptive...so wut bout professional studies??!!!OMG!!!im freaking out~anyway, no matter wut i'l pay no mercy for it ~~jus give it a damn~YEAH~
the turning point, i really hav no idea how would i gonna make it to succeed or when would it achieve my desires...i've been obsessed with freedom since 15 or 16, i think ..hehe~~i alwis assume that graduation day would be the starting day of rebellious life..ngek ngek~i have the knowledge, i have the ability, i have the money, i have the authority for negotiations now..hehe~~but when comes to this moment,it posted some inquiries to me again when resistance came up to me @@..the major gigantic prob to me is, my family is being resistance when come to acceptance and adoption of changes, in fact itz the reality. itz is understandable whereby elderly need longer time for acceptance and adoption with change, or perhaps they intend for evolutionary approach,however, my impatience are more eager towards a radical change, and even i realized that evolutionary approach isnt working.somehow,im feeling uncertain wit wutz gonna happen next after my graduation..i wan my life, but is it jus as easy as sayin it out??sometimes,i feel weird of why shud i struggling so much jus to stand tough to fight for living in my own way?isnt this my right to live my life as i wan to? why shud i do something to please them in order to gain the opportunity and authority to live my life??isnt this ridiculous?why shud i ask for a permission for it?i have my right to be responsible towards my own life isnt it?im really pissed off when my dad and sis dun intend to listen to wut im saying, my perspectives of thinking,and jus jumped to the conclusion that im naive and im stil acting like young kid~GOSH~~~perhaps they dun even noe something that i knew it!!they are subjective and prejudicial, whereby forever living in their own lifestyle and expecting others to adopt it~come on, i hav my own perspectives and there are things it nv come to the compliance wit my views and yet i MUST accept it without the right to voice out my opinions..come on, father or older doesnt mean alwis right and good foo me...i've fulfiled wut u've been hoping for bout 22 years since young..im not interested wit study, but i noe the oni way to get rid of the situation of being looking down of others is through education in order to upgrade the standard of living. fortunately i do have something i really love and appreciate so much for giving me to having close connection wit music!!itz the greatest of my life that i could hav the chance to learn and play it,which is alwis the greatest moment in my life ^^..i've studied a course that in agreed with ya recommendation, the numerical and theoretical study life really brought me into struggle at the beginning,happily that i have a gang of great buddies wit me for the entire learning process until reaching to the finish line ^^ and now the working life,would i have my authority to choose wut kinda company that i favour for, the places...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!i really hate it to worry so much when things havent even happen, but i hav no idea for how long to go for me to stand tough and fight for my wants...perhaps a normal happie life with a highly stable job at a MNC, having sweet time wit family and bf during spare time and live in this way for the rest of my life..or to experience something fantastic, at least for once of my lifetime to have no regrets..something contingent...sigh~~~
im so freaking out that if they dun accept my request and wut wil happen to me next?or wut wil i do with the intensity???
bout 2 more weeks to go for my final exams..this is really the final exams and perhaps ending my student life..partially im feeling happie, awaiting and anticipating for years bout this days, has finally come. on the other hand, im freaking out, this would probably another turning point of my life!not to forget the first day of my coll life, i din manage to attend the orientation or wut, freaking out,but was glad to hav team building activities ^^ finally i met this gal,sharon, which is my darling gf now ^^ i believe in fate, im relief that no matter where we are, we stil keep in touch wit each other..and i feel close even miles apart~~frankly i nv expect to get a true fren for jus a one year foundation course..even we've studied diff course in diff coll, and now we are in diff places with a significant difference in time zone, yet we manage to update wutz happening, or even be the one to alwis turn to when we get stuck.
wel,diploma was really great,fun and happie, relaxing and enjoying even until the moment of examination and submission of cw..badmintons, outings, K-ing, GOSH~~plenty of spare time for activities and life was so happening, at least i have time for sadness and happiness..haha~
however, final year degree has entirely changed the lifestyle, or even ME...i hav a feelin that my maturity level has been enhanced even better, and i really would think for myself and even for the situations~~i've learned so much other than merely academy, even my relationship could have taught me so much and even shaped up my personalities indeed. i've become realistic nowadays, knowing wut the necessity of the society and trying to adopt wit the norm of it, consequently reshaping up my mindset at the same time.sadly,the intention of accomplishing isnt been stimulated, or perhaps it has been slowing down...hmm..i believe degree is not as easy as others assume to be..intensive, subjective, precriptive...so wut bout professional studies??!!!OMG!!!im freaking out~anyway, no matter wut i'l pay no mercy for it ~~jus give it a damn~YEAH~
the turning point, i really hav no idea how would i gonna make it to succeed or when would it achieve my desires...i've been obsessed with freedom since 15 or 16, i think ..hehe~~i alwis assume that graduation day would be the starting day of rebellious life..ngek ngek~i have the knowledge, i have the ability, i have the money, i have the authority for negotiations now..hehe~~but when comes to this moment,it posted some inquiries to me again when resistance came up to me @@..the major gigantic prob to me is, my family is being resistance when come to acceptance and adoption of changes, in fact itz the reality. itz is understandable whereby elderly need longer time for acceptance and adoption with change, or perhaps they intend for evolutionary approach,however, my impatience are more eager towards a radical change, and even i realized that evolutionary approach isnt working.somehow,im feeling uncertain wit wutz gonna happen next after my graduation..i wan my life, but is it jus as easy as sayin it out??sometimes,i feel weird of why shud i struggling so much jus to stand tough to fight for living in my own way?isnt this my right to live my life as i wan to? why shud i do something to please them in order to gain the opportunity and authority to live my life??isnt this ridiculous?why shud i ask for a permission for it?i have my right to be responsible towards my own life isnt it?im really pissed off when my dad and sis dun intend to listen to wut im saying, my perspectives of thinking,and jus jumped to the conclusion that im naive and im stil acting like young kid~GOSH~~~perhaps they dun even noe something that i knew it!!they are subjective and prejudicial, whereby forever living in their own lifestyle and expecting others to adopt it~come on, i hav my own perspectives and there are things it nv come to the compliance wit my views and yet i MUST accept it without the right to voice out my opinions..come on, father or older doesnt mean alwis right and good foo me...i've fulfiled wut u've been hoping for bout 22 years since young..im not interested wit study, but i noe the oni way to get rid of the situation of being looking down of others is through education in order to upgrade the standard of living. fortunately i do have something i really love and appreciate so much for giving me to having close connection wit music!!itz the greatest of my life that i could hav the chance to learn and play it,which is alwis the greatest moment in my life ^^..i've studied a course that in agreed with ya recommendation, the numerical and theoretical study life really brought me into struggle at the beginning,happily that i have a gang of great buddies wit me for the entire learning process until reaching to the finish line ^^ and now the working life,would i have my authority to choose wut kinda company that i favour for, the places...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!i really hate it to worry so much when things havent even happen, but i hav no idea for how long to go for me to stand tough and fight for my wants...perhaps a normal happie life with a highly stable job at a MNC, having sweet time wit family and bf during spare time and live in this way for the rest of my life..or to experience something fantastic, at least for once of my lifetime to have no regrets..something contingent...sigh~~~
im so freaking out that if they dun accept my request and wut wil happen to me next?or wut wil i do with the intensity???
Monday, November 23, 2009
cool me~~
sigh....
life is so miserable and happenings..keke~~jus have some intention to blog out bout my life ^^
first of fall, bout my study..sigh, everything has made me in anxiety, they jus came the previous week and informed us regarding the new exam formats..>.< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_WAvykqCZYM0/Swp3El66RII/AAAAAAAAAE8/EoPynVQb5_M/s1600/DSC02226.JPG">
wut u looking at o??hehe.. im in front of u neh~~>.< 
watz that???cappuccino eh... how come like not thick one..hahahahah~
nice ar???tel me tel me...later i wana taste osoo...=P
how jek????hahaa...see ya face oso ...kakaka~~i better dun drink..=D
nice or not???bitter??
conclusion : he no comment =.=.....SWT ~~~~act i jus snap all the pics at diff time and i realised it could be made in sequence o.O...hahah~~COOL ME~~muackz ~
life is so miserable and happenings..keke~~jus have some intention to blog out bout my life ^^
first of fall, bout my study..sigh, everything has made me in anxiety, they jus came the previous week and informed us regarding the new exam formats..>.< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_WAvykqCZYM0/Swp3El66RII/AAAAAAAAAE8/EoPynVQb5_M/s1600/DSC02226.JPG">
wut u looking at o??hehe.. im in front of u neh~~>.< 
watz that???cappuccino eh... how come like not thick one..hahahahah~
nice ar???tel me tel me...later i wana taste osoo...=P
how jek????hahaa...see ya face oso ...kakaka~~i better dun drink..=D
nice or not???bitter??
conclusion : he no comment =.=.....SWT ~~~~act i jus snap all the pics at diff time and i realised it could be made in sequence o.O...hahah~~COOL ME~~muackz ~
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