with u gone....

i've been crying all night long...

i was chatting with andrew,i intended to tell him my feelings,bout how i felt at that moment...something that i put much effort on it!!i felt tremendously gloomy...hez leave in this month..n therez nothing i can do rite?wel,if im not goin to mirado today,then last wednesday might be the last time i saw him in my life!perhaps we would never meet up again in future!im in fear...that someone is here with u in the morning and found to have gone at night...i cant stand the feelings of seeing someone leaving....i felt really down n cried!i really hope that someone was here with me...somehow,andrew said something right bout my life where my situation is much more better than other ppl n i shouldnt have take it so seriously..but i wish to control my feelings too,jus that i cant!after today..i wont be seeing tt in my life anymore...hahahhaa!therez no remedy for me at this moment...nothing could really cure me!most of frens were telling me to look for another guy...well,i tried but...hahahahahha!things are not happening in my way....i found myself escaping from the prob!!i dun wanna hear though i got the idea of it...or lynden might be telling me "tt has gone!"...seriously i cant stand though i knew it from the beginning of the year!i guess he'l be staying there for the rest of his life!haizzzzzzzz....wut shud i say bout it?anyhow,i hope time would decide everything n get me out of this!