darn it~

how shud i do now?i really feel so frustrated on them..how could it happen?i nv expected him to be like this...i really feel pist even i shudnt have had any this kinda feeling though.how he be like this?or im jus being too subjectives towards wut he has been doing?wel ,i really have no idea shud i help him to complete his courseworks or jus stay calm by doing nothing at all?wut shud i do?

i have a feeling that hez been thinking i'l be the one that steps out to assist him every last minute of submission but this is not the way it shud be happening.why am i doing this to actually kill him?but i jus think that hez been kinda reliable onto us,where he thinks someone is gonna helpp him at last. he seems not to put much effort at this moment and this is not the way man~and why are all these keep bothering me?i really felt pist when i was so worried with his courseworks and exams yet hez asking me for songs~i feel stupid on myself..why am i being overworried with him since he even dun bother bout it?im doing the additional work, am i?furthermore is non of my business so why shud i care so much with his matters?i shud have left these for his gf, and as a fren, spending time for tutoring and guiding is more than enough.sigh~im not sure whehther or not im thinking it correctly ,somehow i jus feel pist with them~im really pist..not one...but few...why are they doing this kinda things to us?we have feelings too...u guys are nothing much but just frens..thatz why i've been trying hard to forget bout wut has been happening recently...

i might not see it wit my eyes,but i could feel it with my senses...i can~wel, sometimes i've keep asking myself why am i being so suffer to remain the friendship and other ppl wil nv care bout it at all?why shud i bother bout it?jus bcos i wanna have frens since loneliness will actually kills me?perhaps im afraid to be left out from the gang and this makes me to have tortured myself much in order to adapt the culture of others and been alienated my personalities?i really dunno wut to do ..or isnt it the way to survive in the society?adoptable with wutz happening around and get use to it?somewhat, i got tired with all these..i wanna stop~how am i gonna do it?be firm by myself?pay no fuck to them?my DD told me to be selfish cos it's becoming one of the main principles in surviving yaself..wel, i realized that lately. ppl wil jus come to u if u noe something that they do not noe, u have the knowledge where they dont...sharing is caring..but i dun find trustworthy here, all i get is being fooled, being used~~why cant they jus do it themselves?i believe they can cos i did it too!come on...jus try to get rid from all those stupid reasons of I CAN'T and im sure u guys can do it.


other than this, i started to dislike someone..hez making me to feel that im annoying even i might not~somehow, he makes my intention to delete his contact at MSN,his number from my cell phone,not to talk to him at class, not to bother bout wut's happening to him...hez jus so suck til it hit my boiling point~