1st trip at 1st world hotel

i do enjoyed so much with my trip~

it was jus a simple trip specially meant for relaxation since ever started working and been dogs for some months ^^ we planned for a simple trip to genting. I wasnt getting excited at first since i found it ntg special traveling all the way high up to the hill.However, the sense of excitement and anticipation were getting stronger as the time was approaching for the departure.


we met at one u early in the morning. i jus went to office to settle something before heading to the departure spot. we went SUBWAY for breakfast and bought the tickets for both bus fare and skyway. While waiting for the departure time, we went for a short walk shopping for daily prod to avoid inconvenience.we even bought some fragrance for a bubble bath ^^we jus got into the bus and here began the journey to the hill.



anticipating for the departure



i was pretty anxious as the driver seemed driving improperly.Finally reaching to the foothill was another thing to worry me cos i doubt to have fear with the skyway. In fact, i found it pretty fun and love taking pics and seeing everywhere with so many trees around and beneath. the freeze coming towards me jus clear my mind off from all the docs and figures from work !!babe seemed pretty nervous when the skyway was on the way up along the hill. i was pretty panic at first since it was my first time takin it. sooner or later i felt the fun of it, having to see the trees and greening environment around, Im lovin' it!









About 30 mins and we arrived to the genting hotel and heading towards to 1st world hotel, which would be our accommodation for the night.we checked in and jus had a nice bath. the room wasnt that bad as i expected. at least it was really great to feel the nature breeze coming outside from the window instead of the cooling air con. after a while of resting, we went down to 1st world plaza for a while and lunch. it wasnt tat crownded, we jus wandered around and having a little fun wit it.

i got stunned wit some scattered coming towards my face when i wasnt really noticing his existence. i was looking around with the shops and this scary face was jus right in front of me... someone from the haunted house crew i guessed. i got startled and would nv loose babe's hand wherever i go since then.

after a while, we went to the arcade place where we rarely approach it here, with the ticket machines.. hohohoho!!we able to play in exchange for the ticket to cumulate points for gift exchange!!woot wooot woootss!!it sounds childish yet it made us a lot of fun from there. we got exchange for a heart, 2 key chains and one postcard..hahahahahhah!!!we after than went bak to our room and had some rest and bath before goin for supper instead of dinner.. hohoho!!we even bought junks back to the hotel for late night meals...hohoho!!it was a relaxing trip for me as i wouldnt have to switch on my thinkpad and log into my lotus note to check my mails ^^ YIPPY!!






























it was so fast to move into the second day of sat, where we woke up early in the morning to claim for our breakfast. we ate a lot and jus walked around for better digestion.. ohoh!!babe discourage for outdoor games, so we jus went around and took some pics.. =.=!!hahahha.. and went back to hotel for a rest and bath before checking out. however, our bus departure was supposed to be 3pm and checked out at 12 noon, so wutz the next plan then?

again, we both are the fans of games and arcade. back to the same arcade and we got another little cutie panda!!!!heheheh.. it was fun though i wasnt able to go for the flying coaster. back from the hill to the foothill by skyway, this time was jus 2 of us in the gondola. babe was confirmed to be nervous when the it was in a misty condition, which u couldnt see anything in front of u. i could felt his anxiety..hoho..but i was pretty enjoying there, laughing at him and taking pics....seeing the nice environment, inhaling the fresh air from the greening creatures.it was pretty early to reach the foothill and we waited quite some time over there. we even bought and chewed some junk while waitin for the bus departure.

Finally back to one u, the next thing was heading to tuned hotel!another night in another hotel. babe wasnt feeling of goin back home so quick, we then jus go for a night at a hotel nearby in KD. it was somewhat a strategic place, where i tot could have a blaze night outing at Giza. i tot to drink for the night!!!however, it surprised me off when babe requested for a grocery shop for raw material in order to prepare dinner!!! no knife, no stove, no hot water, no equipment at all for me to prepare. it was a real challenge to me!!!hohoho.. however, we managed to overcome it and the result for it was a healthy dinner menu:

Salmon cheese sandwich in wheat bread of cheese and mayoneise dressing
soya bean and white wine for beverages

i was really happie that he felt happie with this simple kinda thing and celebration. it was so warming deep to the heart ^^we jus had our nice nice dinner for the night with movies!!!

btw, tuned hotel was way better than 1st world deluxe room. the design was simple and easy ^^

2 sick 2 healthy

aww.. struggling from so many things...

exams are jus around the corner..i have no ideas wut could i do to pass it =( somehow i jus knew that i have to study hard before entering into the exam hall to make no regret for this attempt ^^ listening from all the lecturers whereby the questions are alwis easy for the first attempt after the alteration of syllabus,believing it could motivate me into dreaming in scoring the papers. somehow, it wasnt the fact to kill the subs so easily..haha!btw, i've learned much things after attending the CIMA course even it cost me hundreds of pounds away from my saving account..haha!itz my honour to make frens from different places, ages and levels, which broaden my thinking and perception in dealing the situations. i admire their broad mind in taking things in life..they are great ppl ^^

back to my own life then..i have been feeling pretty much better lately,had few outings wit my great frens after a whole day of studying the past year questions, study text and revision practices for few days continuously at home.

after long whole battle wit exams and cw, finally my darling called me up for outings..long awaiting 4 persons outing!!YEAH!!i alwis love it to have our couples outing..hoho!darling was anticipated for WL's changeover in singing..wowowo!she was so eager to hear it..hehehehe!however, babe was alwis another person in front of other ppl..not the person who fight for the mic wit me !!!!after all, we went arcade and pool!!wowo, for the very first time darling fall in love wit tat arcade shooting game and POOL!!COOOL!!im so happie that we have the common interest finally, 4 of us, loving K, arcade and Pool!!but i still not i love wit bowling...ermm, i jus couldnt forget my stupid and foolish experience...hahahaha!!furthermore, having to break the fingernails of mine after springing the heavy ball and feeling of hurting my elbow and arm..hahahahah

it had been a very great experience to join them for brunch, my bf and his bros~~it has been alwis my wish to make frens wit them, provided wit his permission..haha!finally babe insisted to ask me for basketball session wit them ..erm, unfortunately i wasnt a sporty person to participate into any of it after an unforgettable experience during my younger time, so i decided to join them for brunch ^^ it was alwis the happiest time when u have the chance to spill out some of ya embarrassing experiences during school time. it was so funny listening to their conversation, talking bout their school time histories and records..hahah..they are not bad, jus a little bit naughty..heheh!isnt it nice to be naughty sometimes so that u have something to talk bout after leaving school?i've regretted why did i behave nicely during school time, why didnt i not being caught to the principal office and ask for my parents to come, why didnt i not fighting wit other ppl...hahah..crazy me!

after all, another planning for a movie outing even drove up my excitement!!i couldnt wait for the day to come and watch 2 movies of i wanted so much, iron man 2 and ip man2!finally we made it both on the same day jus for RM14 @@!!!!cool isnt it?2 movies for RM14...awww!!wasnt this awesome and cheap???thx for their frens who work at GSC..hohohoo!!it was out of my expectation and we could save up for Carl's junior.. yoyo, here we come!!the movies were out of my expectation cos i nv watch the first part for both.i tot iron man would be something like terminator or transformer..but it seem really funny and i was laughing in the theater..hez CUTE!!!wel, ip man was oso something without my expectation, hez awesome!i love ip man for his nice smile =D and least talkings with more actions around.. GOOD!!i like it!!finally , i realised that ip man is a cover of a real story!!O.O my discovery of the day! overall, the happiest thing was his frens treated me as a fren too, i wasnt alienated from the conversation or what either,i was taken together for the jokes too ^^ thx babe and dudes!!

the next outing was so so so happie to meet my darling again, i was surprise that she showed her eagerness for outing wit us even before me asking her out....hhahahahahha!!!again we alwis love K and arcade ^^ this has alwis be the reason for us to get together ^^ of cos im hoping to have vacation wit u guys...im hoping so hard to visit the hometown of all of u guys...sigh!!!!!!!!!!!im looking forward for the day to arrive...YEAH!!!wait for me, kluang~pahang~miri~kuantan~johor~s'pore~i so hope to visit a restaurant of a fren of darling... i really hope to go there and eat their dishes...aikssss!!!

btw, im having period pain and stomach while my babe is having a fluuuuuu...aikssss.. why we fall sick at the same time????how are we suppose to take care of each other...aiksss~~hope he'l get well soon and i'l get healthier for exam..hohohohoho!

little wilson & little sharlee

dilemmas..

life has been so happening recently,it could be considered as bored too as things are moving slower than i've expected. nice plan for further study of CIMA..i've met a bunch of great ppl,the lecturers foremost, they are knowledgeable and wise ppl, a bunch of great coursemates..the full time students as well as the part time students. they both gave me aspiration of how CIMA life and working life shud be..they taught me many things within and beyond wut the syllabus offered..of cos not to be missed out, the security uncle that alwis been complaining bout my dressings of having shorts..=.=
after all, the courses had ended so, for the preparation of may exams..first attempt for CIMA and the strategic lvl, wut would u think i would be feeling at this moment..without good and well preparation, yet blogging here with a sluggish manner.perhaps i have learned to think outside the box, yet it means not that i've give up myself ^^

however, i felt happie that babe had accompanied me for quite a period of time..to everywhere that i have to go. im so touchy when he acc me for my very first interview in my life, i'l nv forget bout it!it could be jus a simple thing or he'l alwis say 'np..hehe', it meant a lot to me!!i stil rmb we went to KLCC for brunch at sakae sushi...our all time fav-sushi!!i even bought some clothes before going for my interview and changed it, from a semi formal to a casual one..hahaha!

after all, we took LRT back to masjid jamek and changed to rapid. i was totally lost cos i nv took that public transport before, fortunately babe was the one to bring me.we were kinda rushing since we were searching for the printing shop at KLCC..i was almost sprinting..haha!!surprisingly i was very happie even we 'crawled' to the staircase, even the RM2 printing per page @@...im alwis happie that babe was the one to do all these wit me..heee^^ after reaching the CIMB HQ building, he had to wait for me at oldtown coffee shop, i had to go alone ^^ i dunno why i felt not nervous at all even it was my first proper interview..perhaps i wasnt taking seriously into tat job..and i noe someone was there waiting for me and going through wit me no matter wut happen ^^ i went down to find babe after the interview..my sis called me for to knowing the details ^^ i felt so great tat moment, my family and my love one were all caring me so much ^^ rain poured suddenly, raining cats and dogs, fortunately im alwis the auntie who brings umbrella in my bag =P..we marched to the shopping mall opposite, which is SOGO, where babe used to work part time there ^^ after that, we went back to my college nearby for a drink..exhaustive after whole day walk..even i complained of feeling tired, hot, sweaty, smelly, wet shoes....but im stil extremely happie that babe stil there to acc me and cheer me up, trying to make me happie wit funny faces...i jus wanna hug him and nv let go tat moment ^^ he left until the class hour started..yet he had to take bus all the way back to his house through a 1 and 1/2 jam!!!wutz more i can say..not even a thank you could describe my relief for him...

wel, we went out tat day for K ^^ babe has alwis melt my heart off wit his singing of some songs.. frankly, i love it so much when he sings it...it touches my heart deeply ^^ i like seeing him acting cute and playful, he jus makes me smile and so happie with his funny jokes and faces..hee^^ we even discussed bout some future issues,which im gonna work soon and hez studying...im so doubtful wit the changes, perhaps he might ^^ i really feel that hez the one that i hope to stay on wit throughout my life..i think it shud have be irrelevant with my first love or wut, i jus feel very comfortable of having him in my life and i hope he could be the one for now and then...those issues wil be a critical breaking point in our relationship and i hope we could overcome every probs..im sure that i would not change my mind cos i have been through similar prob wit myself and i've overcame it ^^ i hope hez the same as me too ...>.<
btw, im really happie when he was trying to speak softly at my ear tat day..his reasons of not changing his mind too..hehehe!!those words were so sweet to come from him, which he seldom talk so sweetly..i wanna have little wilson and little sharlee wit u too ^^

little wilson ^^

little sharlee

my very first visit ^^

new discover from bus rides...

i have been pressuring and urging myself from finishing the syllabus of the study texts, hoping to read all the chapters and every single questions with the solution approached in it, even hoping to go through the past year questions as well as the practice kits.i think everything could be done if it was to be oni one sub taken, however it wasnt!the combination of all of the above conditions applied to 3 subs which could be an overloaded for me, but i have no options but to try my best for it^^
somewhat i feel embarrassing wit myself having to claim that im actually a full time student for it!the part timers amaze me wit their determination and stamina of attending the classes after a whole day of heavy workloads, they are great ppl, which i would say^^ praying hard and wishing myself to do my very best for the exam as well as the preparation for it!


i hav been listening to stories bout couples breaking up lately, which are my frens, even my good fren, my babe's good bro..etc.the very first question that flash to my mind would be "would this happen to me?when would it be.."
no matter how persuasive were the words spoken out from his mouth, i would barely put my 100% for it even i love him as much as i could, and i think i really love him very deeply^^i nv denied that i have been suspecting him, not putting much confidence on him, auditing his love for me...i felt pain and guilty whenever treating him this way cos im hurting the love who loves me and i love so much, somewhat i jus couldnt get myself calm and think rationally..perhaps these happen majority to gals ^^ hahaha..

sooner or later, i get really happie that he'l willing to intro me and giving me a chance to make frens wit his best bro..im really happie that i could share at least some parts of his life wit me, which i alwis hope that he is willing to share most of my things in my life, my family,my frens...etc.another part of it tat makes me feels so great is we slowly generating a similar interest, K!hahaha..i found that babe has improve his confidence as compared to the very first time i knew him.he could sing songs in front of others, even he would grab the mic from me, even he would ask for a solo by himself, even he would proposed for a K session, even he would agree to apply a membership card wit me...etc.im so proud of him wit this, even i felt so melting when he sang the song 'when u say nothing at all-ronan keating' finally he got wut i've meant by him having a deeper pitch range that he could sing it in a steady and manly way!he finally got the point!!MUACKZ..jus wanna hug him when he was singing tat song...aaaa!!

wel,something contingency happened today..my first visit to his home sweet home!!!i felt surprised and happie that he mentioned that he was wit his GF when on the phone wit his dad..the recognition is a sense of security..hee ^^ it was kinda embarrassing that bathing at his place for the first visit.i felt comfortable and peaceful when stepping into his room, which is so much diff than mine, hahah..mine is jus stuffy, packed, messy...etc..hahahha!we then played Wii..WEEE~
i was shocked when his mom came home out of the sudden, it wasnt a shake off, but meeting both parents in the same day was out of my expectation and preparation...hehehe!!it was stil fine to me, im happie seriously!i felt so lovely when babe acc me to my college and had dinner wit me...tat moment i jus hope to have dinner together wit yuan..my feeling was weird for i hope to show to him that my babe does care bout me and love me much,i really do not hope of others putting down on babe, though he couldnt be a perfect bf in other's perception, i jus love him ^^

i love you cutie pie ^^

i love khalil~~

laziness and sickness made me to have abandoned the continuous post of blog here.it would be considered as happening, somewhat i still felt bored sometimes.grandpa had passed away for bout 3 weeks ago, everything has been back to norm after the incident happened with our expectation.however, we were relief that thing happened after the chinese new year.although it was said to be saddening, we believed it was a relief for him to release himself from the torture of severe pain derived from his sicknesses. may all our blessings be wit you, grandpa,we believed grandpa you would rest in peace.

wel, i had been fall sick too since the incident happened until lately to have recovered from my throat ulcers and infection.3 weeks of struggle from the pain experiences were enough to alwis remind not to have hot and spicy food and to take good care of my health~further, i learned to appreciate the importance to have good health ^^ i even wished to have a healthy life as one of my bday wish list for the year. however, i was not allowed to celeb my bday due to some reason. it was somewhat meaningless to keep myself at home in front of the pc. it wasnt wut i hope to, but my bday was really a 'blast' to me..haha!it was real bore.. i jus expected to have greetings from frens, which enough to make my day ^^
i just hope to count down before tat night wit my babe, even it was via sms.i hope high that he would be the first person to have wished me..the one that bear wit me all the time..but i was sad that he fall aslept...>.< should i be angry or sad wit him ???wt...haha~i kept sms and calling him but without any replies from him..wuuuu~~sad oo.. i even cried under my pillow..hahahahh~stupid me >.< my tear dripped off when i received a greeting msg from bear bear hoong and darren..the tear couldnt stop dripping out from my eyes..i couldnt picture that darren would rmb my bday and even sent me at 00:00++...WOW!

after all, i went for a japanese buffet wit my parents( shogun). it was quite awesome cos i received a surprise gift from Qing. it was my first ever gift of the day..i really appreciate wut she had done though i was jus a simple sashimi dish.i appreciate My cloud and Qing.. u gals are awesome..I LOVE U GALS~~~it was a nice lunch cos i really happie to see my dad fall aslept after getting too full wit the food and my mom releasing some in the toilet after intaking too much of ice cream..hahahahah~~they are really cute match^^

i done nothing much for the day..but i felt happie that babe went out on sunday night to get a pressie for me even it was raining so heavily, with additionally screwed by his parents to use the car. i din noe wut was his initiative of going out during heavy rain,i jus blamed him for not considering of his monday morning class and the heavy rain but decided to gone for a drink wit his fren.i got so pissed off wit wut he had told,i was suspicious that why must he gone for drink so frequently wit his bro??!!i realised that i've mistaken something after he told me the truth and i felt guilty yet touchy, even teared off..hahaha~~silly me again!

besides, i was happie too that one of my frens rmb and intended to celeb wit me on the day itself. well, my rejection of celebrating on tues had postponed our outing to wed morning for a breakfast, which he intended to treat me. somewhat, it was my nexxt day after my bday, so i decided to save it for my bf, for sure ^^ babe came to my place, gave me the bday pressie and the card.. be frank, the card has really melted me off and i'l throw a smile at my face whenever i look at it^^ it was really sweet to me.. THANK YOU BABE!!!muackz~

however, things were jus happened like roller coaster.i nv expected we had an arguement on wed night and we'd fighted.. i confronted to him and i cried like nobody business. my heart as if was stabbed by a sword deeply inside that made me hardly breath for words.i jus pushed him away when he was trying to hug me..i dunno how shud i face him at tat moment..i jus dun wanna look at him and cry at the corner..however, i hope someone was there to bring me up when i was feeling extremely down...i really hope that he could made some little promises to me as to show that he tries to bear the responsibility of a bf of mine.after all, i was surprised to see some tears at his eyes when i had calmed myself down and settled everything..O.O..i jus wanna give him a warm hug of mine ^^

everything seems to be fine until ytd. me and my fren had postponed the outing until saturday. he intended to treat me some food. so we decided to go MV in the morning for an outing before attending my afternoon class. he offered to fetch me but i rejected to go by myself, which i think would be less troublesome for him to come all the way to my house. we reached there quite early, around 10.30..then decided to redeem my RM300 worth vouchers from redbox. we were so early til some shops seemed not prepare for busines. so we jus wandered around tat area.rock corner was alwis my comfy place to shop. i marched in with my intention of searching for my fav artist, khalil!i knew that he has released new EP single, but i jus found another live concert in HK, which was not found in my collection..hehe!i jus grabbed the album and headed to the cashier. i knew it would cost me RM48.50 for an album but once in a blue moon to get myself a bday present perhaps. i was totally shocked when he took out a RM50 note from his wallet to pay for me and claim that as my bday present.OMG~~i was shocked and fighting for the payment to the shop keeper. i just dun wanna give a chance for him to buy me. i would be happie enough that he has the intention to buy me a gift..haha~however, the shop keeper even told me that khalil wil be organising a live music concert in genting arena star in somewhere may!!!!!how i wish i could gooooooooooooooo and watch it~~i hope for the VVIP one...wuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~~my TOP FAV ARTIST!!!!WUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU..

after all, we felt that it was time to redeem my voucher cos it would easily be crowded especially during weekend. surprisingly the crowd did not happen on tat day and we jus changed our plan to K instead of eating. it was ok ok..but i wasnt in a good condition to sing right after i've recovered from my throat infection. but i was really guilty and sorry tat i laughed when singing wit him even i claimed that the lyrics were too geli to make me laugh, initially i couldnt stand when he was pitchy!!OMG~~~im real devil.. i noe im bad but i jus laughed out few times... cos it was a bit overly pithcy...IM SO SORRY~~~after all he fetched me to my college since it was almost time to 2 ^^ we were lost on the way cos he drove to the wrong fly over and called up his mom for help in the end..i felt embarrassing to talk on the phone wit his mom to seek for direction..somewhat his mom was very friendly and gave us guide where to go.. cool..lively GPS ^^ ..im sorry!

the peak has came... babe was angry!!!i was really laughing like hell when i called babe asking him how are u babe wit my sweet lovely tone.. he answered me that "dying at home ar!"..hahahahahahah!!!i tried to be serious but i could pictured his face at tat moment..i wasnt mean to make him angry but babe was being so cute laa that made me to laugh out!!!his overly caring and protection have reflected another side of him, which is CUTE!!muackzzz~~although i felt scared and worried that babe would get really mess up and angry wit me,somewhat his cutie pie reaction gave me the patient to get thing over with open heart^^muaackz!!

thank you for loving me

i love K wit babe!

i was so anticipated and excited bout the arrival of today, finally it has came!!we had initially planned for an outing of K session,that i would alwis loving it, i even found for new songs last few days so that would have something refreshing! woke up in the morning, having nicely planned of which clothes to be picked from the wardrobe for the day,we had discussed few days ago, and even had little argument for some stupid matters...haha!!however, i stil felt itz great not bcos of the clothes, but the fun and happiness!

however, i was so anticipating to let my new heels for a floor show after buying it and kept inside the shoe box since before CNY!!ITZ TIME!!!YEAH!!!i tried to walked before showing him to the real world..hehe!!however, i really salute to the chics that shopping wit high heels bout 5 inches!!!it was GOD DAMN painful and suffering, it was such a huge challenge to me for walking wit that 5 inches high heel walking from the taman jaya LRT station to the bus stand for bus (bout 500m), walking all the way from the MV bus stand to staircase and staircase and reached MV, walking all the way to THE GARDEN REDBOX!!!OMGG!i jus wished somebody could carried me tat moment!!i kept bragging at babe,how nice if he has a car to fetch me...SIGH!!i felt so regretful saying this, i felt like crying when i had calmed myself down after buying a new sander..tat moment when i saw babe trying to tie up and buckle the stripe at the side for my new sander, i felt how good is this guy to me but i even saying such harsh words to him!!!i jus wanna hugged him and cry!!!

however, it happened after we went to K!!it was out of my expectation to be so crowded!!we waited so patiently for bout 20 mins then luckily to have room for us!!!the food were nice!!the atmosphere was nice!!the mood was nice!!everything was so great!!!so sweet when listening to babe singings!!!i realized that babe sings and i scream!!!hahahahahahhahaha!!hohohoho!!!i jus love to hug him when he sings...REAL SWEET!!!wel, there are songs that making me having butterflies in my stomach whenever im singing wit him...love story by taylor swift, you belong wit me by taylor swift...i even tear off when my first attempt singing love story wit him hugging me in the room!!!

after all,i saw his ex working at La Senza today ^^ i was pretty curious bout who would be his ex.. i have confusion feeling!!!im happie that he was determined searching for part time job, but on the other hand, i jus dun wan him to work at MV whereby he has any opportunity meeting wit his ex.. I JUS JEALOUS!!I ADMIT..HOHOHOHOHO!!!!doesnt he the same thing as mee...BLEK!!i dun wanna make myself feel suspicious and thinking too much things if he was to work here..and i'l be starting my stupid emo days wit him!!i wanna AVOID and MITIGATE arguments that would probably ruining our relationship!!!I DUN WAN!!!

later we were searching for a place for a drink.. we walked so some time, it was pretty tiring and his face told me that he suffering from thirst...haha!!but i jus hope that could get him something nice after shooting him...hahahahah!!!we ended up had our McTwist strawberry !!!itz alwis lovely to me of having that ice cream even itz simple!!I LOVE IT!!!

time to leave for my evening class..babe jus acc me to the stations and took KTM wit me to KL central and LRT to pasar seni!!!i was definitely feeling happy that he would do it to ensure my safety..AAAAAAAA!!!again i felt like crying when hugging him at the station..although the weather was HOT and the trains was 101% STUFFY!!we couldnt get a moment to stand nicely or balanced ourselves..but this were jus nice experiences!!seeing babe to leave after sending me to the destination was something touchy and lovely!!seeing him to figure out where to get buses back to his area,willingness to wait for buses even the traffic was congested...thank you for loving me as u had said to me!!

white and blue

CNY!!!

finally having some free time of posting a blog here.chinese new year is a celebration of chinese traditional culture every year that is equally to the new year. however, itz pretty special this year whereby the first day of CNY falls on the same day to valentine's day!me and fren were saying this would be an extremely memorable if someone was to break up wit their partner so that his or her partner would nv forget bout it whenever valentine's day or CNY come.

btw, me and babe went for an outing the day before he went back to his hometown at bentong (pahang). i initially to get myself a red dress for my CNY visit after realizing my clothes bought previously were all in slightly grayish.thereby we went to sunway pyramid, which seems more affordable for me ..hahaha!!

it was a real fun day cos we reached there pretty early and i had plenty of 'space' to shop. i'd experienced shopping in an extremely packed mall (MV) that i couldnt get to the clothes i wan,long queue for the fitting room and cashier, the main point was got my time wasted for all these.
it has alwis been my happiest activity to do, SHOPPING!!!after going through the shops that i usually favour in their clothes, i stil couldnt find the clothes that suit my want. finally i got into this shop, cache cache,which is heard to be a new brand originated from france entering into m'sia's market ,the first opening here in sp..i din noe anything bout it until i've bought the dress ^^ finally found the kinda thing i wan, but it seems a prob that size M would nicely fit my waist and hip but not the boobs, while size L jus slight loose for everything..somehow, this was my last choice for the day with nice and simple design and affordable price ^^

after all jus shopped for little things after getting the major mission done ^^ diva has alwis be a nice place for accessories. however, the prices are slightly over my budget..heheh!the little things there are no doubt nice and fancy, therefore, it'l be my reference shop..hahahah!!

babe told me that he has to shop for a bday pressie for his fren where hez gonna share it out wit his bro. HA!!how could u not telling me at first!!???i have tonnes of ideas come on, i could help u out with the best price that fitting to ya budget wit a presentable presie.. hohohoho!!!how smart i am CSL!!!AW AW .. kinda admiring myself ..haha!!back to the story, i felt weird that how could i tried so hard to shop for a presie that my bf and his fren gonna give it to a gal???@.@? OMGGG!!!CSL has gone insane ???i really felt no jealousy that moment but to try my very best to shop for a nice one for their fren!!i felt really happie and i found one designed cup that has a teddy bear in it wit the same designed pattern^^ so nice and presentable yet reasonable..HOHOHOHO!!tat moment really made me felt so proud of myself ...kakakaka!!!

after walking and talking, eating and laughing, choking and sneezing,snapping and posing, itz time to get the bus back lrt station. everything was so soothing throughout the day, it was sweet and happie til the moment of shit time came in the end of the day !!!hav u ever seen any couple pampering, hugging and cheeks kissing in public buses before?if not then im so gonna bring u out wit me next time..hahaha!however,this malay lady perhaps not encountered such scenery before and pointed me to be 'tak tau malu'!!hmmm...if i really tak tau malu as though she tau malu to care so much on wut other ppl does!who the hell on earth is she to judge me and humiliate me in front of others?!i nv ask her to see wut i've done and i knew itz acceptable to myself and others!if she couldnt take wut the norm is, then jus hide into her own room and nv come out to the public!however, i perceive that she was not in a good mood and we were the victims for her!but she jus seemed like a crazy dog that barking with no reasons!




waitin for food...>.<



my meal!!!ramen!!!!yummy



his bento!!!



starving!!!gonna hunt out food ..keke



kept sucking since got refill..hahahhha!



stil suckinggg!!



finally smile after finish suckingg



BURBB!!!opppss ^^



kaakakaka...sorry la, im snapping the lady over there ..hahahah



last SS before leaving the shop ^^

SS while waitin for the bus ^^






good good fren ~~



OMG!!!his hand so girlish!!



~WE ARE THE POSERS~~~



sweet and easy



someone is trying to have small lips and mouth ..KAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKA

he loves me in his heart

wut a day

my feeling was overwhelming starting from last night cos we were going to meet today.finally after few days of not seeing each other, the moment was so anticipating until i couldnt got myself to sleep for more hours.i woke up 8 in the morning by the alarm clock. i had a feeling that he would be coming before 10am, i believed it ..hehe!the feeling was great, waiting someone that u love so much, the anticipation brought butterflies in my stomach.

until i received a text from him, he was stuck at home unless his mom had left the house. i understood the situation and the mood was not influenced at all.i've done some household, enjoying the time of cleaning up the house..

until i received a text from him, he asked me whether or not he managed to get here by 10 am with the terrific traffic jams everywhere and rigid public transports of LRT and buses. somehow i kinda misunderstood that he would have hinted not to come over due to the time consuming.however, my thought had misjudged him,my bad!but i noe he would be in trouble of getting over to my place, i knew that it would be sort of bore, i knew i shudnt be blaming and screaming on him..

until i received a text from him, he insisted to take a cab ride to my house. obviously it is costly to him, the distance from his place to my plac wasnt a joke!!i felt really great on his intention and action.terrific traffic, inconvenience perhaps could be part of the reaons of choosing the cab, somehow those were not my interest, i jus hoped to see my babe as soon as possible ^^ and the person i love was on the way to see me ^^ i was really excited, choosing clothes which would made him felt great of seeing his bibi, i even decided to go for a vintage look of a jumpsuit of short skirt and with a bikini bra inside, thx to the push up bra that made my boobs looked fantastico!

until i received a text from him, his had been overspending for the week, he hinted somehow to post pone our valentine celebration due to his overload of outings wit frens that caused him to a financial breakdown..hahaha!!i nv replied his text.i am sure he knew he has posted a disappointment to me after the text was sent.he even mentioned it in the subsequent text msg. i remained of no reply, i trying hard to calm down, accept, absorb and adopt. i put myself to the best of doing other things, i tried not thinking bout it, having the best ever mood when he was about to arrive my place.

until he reached my house, i threw a smile at my face, i pretended as though i was real fine.somehow my facial expression betrayed and got a ruin of it.everything was fine even he had asked me some times,until he looked at me and hugged me.my heart as though was being stabbed by a sword, my heart was sort of not beating, keep bleeding, the pain wasnt normal to be jus bypass as though nothing had happened even it was jus little matter. i cried in his arms hugging me,he didnt noe wut was the reason behind to cause my tears dripping continuously.the very first time i pushed him away for times,his arms were strengthening, i ignored having direct eye contact wit him.looking at him would make me soft hearted to throw him my thoughts. it wasnt anger or disappointment either in my emotions, but i felt stupid and foolish wit myself, with wut have i done.having planning for a splendid Vday, saving money of getting a 'present for Him'...everything was alwis in my mind, the sceneries, the 'wut to do' list, the couple mix and match dressing, everything was inside my heart. u migh be thinking silly of me.NO WAY!this is our very first ever Vday...i demand something memorable.
after throwing my piece of mind to him, he could had a bad feeling that i might be asking for a break off.i went off to get my 'present to Him', which is a quiksilver wallet, that i had shopped for twice at one u and mid valley for 2 days separately for a nice one ^^ i personally considered it as a really nice designed wallet with suitable colour.my emo ruled me to march to my drawer and took out the wallet in the box, which is oso a nice pick of my choice after walking floors of units at mid valley, i love the design of the box wit a very masculine colour of gray with a black ribbon topping, it jus worth for my energy and money paying for the nice fancy box. however, i nv expected i would gifted him in such a situation..aiks!i wan a smile on his face when he opens the box, seeing the pressie beneath the cover.somehow, it was a bad feeling of him after seeing the pressie.i could see from his eyes, tears were dripping when he knew bout the 'present for Him'. that was the time i felt he was nv feeling better to see me crying so sadly in front of him.my heart was as if been stabbed wit a sword, he could have feeling to be stabbed by numbers of small knives. i could really saw his sadness of seeing his loved one having hard and sad time for himself,useless him of disappointing me always making him feeling guilty..somewhat he had many feelings running inside with a tough time of expressing it out to me. the oni way he done was to hug me tightly as to show how much he loves and cares me and wouldnt wan me to go..his breath and whisper of words too reflected he wasnt feeling great either. the situation was tensed,i struggled on the bed even he hugged me so tightly,i couldnt gave him my kiss when he kissed me.i even shy away when he insisted of kissing my lips.for some time he woke up while i was sleeping and crying with my pillow,no matter how, i couldnt stand a moment without his hug and attention when im in tear..i couldnt stand a moment without him when im in anger too.. it is undeniable that i need his attention and pamper all the time,perhaps it has been a habit since we started off the relationship.

until i began to calm myself,i started talking to him in norm.i couldnt sleep becos i knew that this was the time for me to see him and had him beside me, i would not wasted time to sleep, but i did for being emotional..sigh!my emotions for the day were as though running up and down like a rollercoaster. the fluctuation has remained normal after an hour of stormy rain..haha!i started punching his face, chest and arms, i even pinched him as a release..hehe!
after all, we even cooked our brunch together at the kitchen.it was funny time..hehe!!

at the end of the day, i realized that he loves me in his heart.

men and women

men and women

me and my good fren were talking bout last sunday's outing. we were very missing bout the feeling of hanging out together with frens that have been studying together over the past 5 years,having the most memorable experiences together, seeing each other for almost 5 days a week, the frenship would nv just fade out, the feeling was great even we hav our own lifestyle. however, when talking bout our bfs, it has alwis been an interesting topics of all.

i alwis been thinking that why couldnt i get a bf that is so great like those of my frens?why would they be so lucky to have such great bfs but not me???in fact, i realized that good bf is just the introduction of all. perhaps many things were havent being revealed or kept nicely, jus bcos i alwis been listening to the good side of their bfs..haha~~after all, my observation tells me that i am not the oni one whohas been through problems and hard time in relationship.they encounter similar problems too, perhaps even worse than wut im goin through. i could see a reflection of myself when i observed my fren talking to her bf, i realized that how worry i was on my bf when he treated me similarly..i totally und her feelings, having his bf to alwis keep in touch wit his Ex-es..the sense of insecure, lack of confidence over the relationship,sense of ambiguity of losing the man that she loves...sometimes i would question myself, why is he to give me such a hard time?or i am the one who is making trouble to myself?

besides, another of my frens has alwis been worrying of losing her bf.she even intended to have an 'accident' im order to keep hold on him..but the guy said he would hate her if she does it!somehow, her fear has driven to a low self esteem level which she has alwis been figuring out some excitement to spice up the relationship.once again i ask myself, why would we have to spice up things even when we are feeling bore sometimes? healthy love need good coordination, no matter how excellent the ideas , it would not work things rite without the compromise of both parties.

jus back from granny's house.having an old married couple of almost 50 over years, having 10 children and numbers of grandchildren and even grad grandchildren now..isit it the most wonderful lifetime of an old couple?somehow, it was few years ago, not until when my grandpa has getting weaker from days of his virus infection. everything has been changing so badly since tat day, he couldnt speak properly due to a minor effect of stroke, kidney infections, etc..however, taking care of him has become a burden to his long time partner, my grandma. the feeling is totally not great when seeing my grandma to be in worry, fear, sickening face when she tries to take care of him. would u und he intended to die with her if he was to live the world one day?i dunno.. somehow, being more than a half decade of husband and wife, it is hardly to be acceptable when living the closer one ...sigh~

i wan .. i wan

awww... first time ever i got pist off wit yuan nehh..hoho

wel, i was really happie after having the accompaniment from babe since morning til noon time. i was pretty worried that he'l get bore off since there was nothing much we could do in my room. however, the moment of having his hugs while i was sleeping was a treasure to me cos i alwis find it lovely to see the one i love in front of me every morning when i wake up from my bed and greet him 'good morning lo gong' wit a kiss on his lips. finally today we did it, though i kinda woke up in the morning to let him got into my house..^^ i brushed my tooth when he reached, he looked at me at one kind..but i hope i wasnt a shock to him ^^ i was still at my sleepy mode at tat time and got back to my bed after brushing my tooth and washed my face.the best ever pillow or bolster for me would be hugging babe or having him to hug me as a best ever comforter..hehe!i really love it when i slept in his arm and saw his face once i opened my eyes ," good morning ^^" i wan this to be happening everyday ..

after, i prepared brucnh for ourselves.at some point, it was really cute of him to get my soft toy on his hand, and kept talking to the toy while i was preparing the meal. i mean imagine a big young guy carrying a soft toy and walking around, having fun with tat cute little soft 'pao' ,was something surprising to me~~ at tat moment, i would jus picture that this guy is soft hearted, caring and perhaps a lonely childhood grown babe, which alwis treat his teddy bears as best frens when he was young..hehe!!HEZ SO CUTE!!!!after havin the masculine side of him, itz jus soo fantastic to see another soft side of him!however,another thinking came to my mind at the same time. how nice would it be if my bf ask jus ask me to sit and watch his show since he doesnt wanna make me feel tire of cooking food for him, or perhaps i alwis wish hard to have a bf that wil cook for me especially i need it so much, not a word of 'thank you', but 'i would help u darling'.

however, i cried when i realised that he seem no intention for the preparation of the celebration of valentine day. although i was quite fed up after times of times of failure in working things rite, somehow i really hope hard that our first valentine wil be really GREAT and MEMORABLE!!i mentioned directly to him,i pointed out my main purpose, but seems like he dun und it..AWW!!!wut he told me was he nv celebrated a proper valentine throughout his relationship with his previous partners, thereby he has no experience or intention for it. somehow, i tot that i would be someone special for him to have enough influence to stimulate the intention into him, however, im jus one of the ordinary oni..SOB SOB!!i really really really tot that he could have planned out something for our day, but it seems to be jus my personal illustration..haha!i wan my bf to plan a valentine celebration for me..>.< even it is a simple one, but im really glad and happie cos the intention of planning thing and i appreciate the HEART!!!the major issue is of having the HEART to give me a memorable day of valentine!!i wann...wuuuuu...

another thing, when he was blaming himself of not havin a single talent..hahaha..i asked myself for a while, wut do i like bout this guy since he himself claim to have no talents at all??i jus dun und why i jus love him so much ..hehe ^^itz unexplainable ^^

later went for class in the evening, i had dinner wit yuan.we talked bout sex and relationship during our dinner time. i got kinda pist wit wut he said on me, i mean perhaps he jus shudnt applied his concept and perspective onto me even i noe that he was jus merely caring me as his good fren. i noe that he wasnt happie and does not hope to see me of having the possibility of being a sex tool to my partner.however, i do think that there isnt any judgment to be done at this point, even he himself could have be the similar way..haha!somehow,i would try not to be influenced too much by him since i realised that most of questions were arise by him whhenever he stated some issues for me to think and ended up of me having so much probs between me and my babe..hahahah!!so i better stand tough on my personal judgment and perspective ^^

im not a blue chip stock

wutz love ? i've lost the definition dy..haha

after cases of cases that making me to feel fed up, im not sure how long would my uncertainty wil last and how long would the enthusiasm be..hmmm..this isnt the first time to feel like this, but everything has recovered so quickly previously. however, itz getting harder now, perhaps when u get hurt for times and times, itz not so easy to get things over becos the wounds have recovered externally oni.

as i alwis study in my degree, when i have my cw to do, the referencing alwis there to prove as an evidence that something had been said or done or stated by somebody. in other words,if something has happened, the outcome of it would have last for not oni some period, perhaps it affects the overall outcome at the end of the day becos the evidence as the past history is there and no doubt it could be altered provided there is enough BETTER evidence to correct the previous misstatement.otherwise,the initial evidence wil be carried on. therefore, i alwis believe there's no turning back point once u've done something really critical and we hav the responsibility upon it.thereby, sometimes i feel pretty funny when reading some quotations and history of some past politicians, their foolishness sometimes would entertainment instead and i doubt how could and would all these so called 'educated' being such fools in their decision and words?after all, we'l see the apology as the headlines of the day..HAA!forgiving is a good habit, emotions could lead to improper language and irrational thoughts..but i alwis think is 'SORRY' everything?hmm.. if it is, then why would there be courts,laws, judges and such for punishments and sentences?why would ppl caught in jail for their wrong doings?why wouldnt jus say 'im sorry' and tatz bout it?haha.. God has taught us to be forgivable on wrong doings of others, however, i personally feel that they are to responsible for they've done.

wel, tat day was chit chatting wit my good fren, he told me that guys have no rights and shudnt be selfish over their love one.as a guy, he unds that itz important to make things clear so that guys would never be a burden to their love one. they jus cant bear the cost and risk for it perhaps it could affect the future time of a gal. so nv be selfish to the person that u love no matter how deep is ya love to her. i got startled after listening to his words.. im so proud to have such a great guy fren..dude u're cool man!

next wil be how i feel now, i feel sien dy.. dun feel like planning dy ... tire...how come my plans alwis fail?i've tot of places, presents, food,time, day...but jus failed.. sien niaa!i was excited at the beginning of january, getting ideas for celebration, and even felt nice when discussing wit my frens bout ideas, slowly felt jealous when my frens shared their experiences wit me, somehow i believe i could do it too ^^ but after some failures and cases, in fact, the mood for it has lost dy, and i think it really makes me fed up to plan in the future. perhaps i'l jus leave things in their way so that i wont get disappointed in an emergent way..perhaps i've been caring too much, itz time for me to losing up and not to take things so seriously dy. wut happen to u CSL.. how could ya first love valentines be so trashing...

360 degrees

wowo...im happie wit my current life!!

although it seems pretty busy sometimes and free at some time,it gives myself an objective at least to be achievable instead of knowing nowhere to go. my sis went to sarawak for a vacation upon the company trip,i so would be alone for 2 nights. anyway, woke up early in the morning for preparation of the classes. reached there by 9.30++ and decided to get my breakfast. it is alwis not comparative for a canned soya bean with the soya bean that i alwis buy from morning market..the class was pretty boring, started with self introduction and it took us almost 30++ mins. finally we've realised that we are all been so shallowed and way more to go in reaching their level. they are knowledgeable,skilled,highly qualified and experienced. there are professional qualified and master degrees all around as my coursemates..hehe!!unbelievable of having such great coursemates..but me and yuan been thinking how to get to noe them ..hahah!!the class is quiet as we both were not use to it since we've been studyin with talkactive and 'aggressive' coursemates all the time..haha~~the class is just tooo quiet somehow.

we then went to KFC for lunch...sigh!!!we really gotta figure out wut could we get for lunch for other time. itz really unhealthy of having fast food so often..sigh!!itz nice to have frens when u study so that u'l not feel lonely. we intended to go for a walk after consuming a high calorie lunch. we went for a walk to the exhibition of hp sales..haha~~it was really sucks.. could u imagine 'iPhone' selling at RM199 with a buy one free one promotion???haha....i can tel u one thing is..jus get it at the apple store ba!!how could they not willing to sell off the display unit when the customer is even willing to pay for the price and request for the display unit??hahaa..the packaging of the product and the design of the hp are similar to the real iPhone,the difference was without the branding..haha!

it was hot and sunny so we've decided getting back to the air-con classroom..haha!the class was carried on with the same lecturer and we found it quite boring cos we felt that the lecture was slightly general at this moment. perhaps it would be improved sooner or later when the new syllabus has made clear.the class ended earlier and me and my 2 frens were taking LRT together ^^ so happie ^^ someone has got the touch n go card and left me and sam there for the long queue of tickets. the machines were down and all the queues were really long. we waited and finally got our tickets ^^ we got up to the escalator and hur ming rushed us for the train since it reached. we tried to and he got into the train. by the time we've rushed from up from the escalator, too bad we jus managed to wave our hands and said BYE to hurming since the doors were closing...hahahahah!!wut a dumb kia.. he shud have waited for us laaa..we both believed that it was fated for no one to accompany him along the way back home for today..heehehe!!pity him laa..
when we both were stil in the LRT, hur ming suddenly called me up and told me tat my parents were waiting at the station dy..i jus laughed at him that he've reached the station so early and fast dy hor..kekekekeke!!!funny la this guy..

but when the time i've reached the station and got up into the car, my parents told me that we've gotta go KL to visit grandpa since hez got into the hospital..== swt!!i jus got bak from KL oni !!

finally reached home and felt quite tiring...and babe was waiting for me..hehe!!muackz!!although it was quite short, but at least managed to webcam with babe for a while before hez got to bed ^^ it was nice when someone was trying to make u happie and smile when u are feeling exhaustive and tiring with ya day ^^ even itz jus a simple chat and joke would made my day ^^ thx !!itz really nice to see babe having cute actions and faces in front me and 360 degrees of changes in front of others ..hehe!!

nasi lemak biasa + mini chicken wings

why am i so happie ?simple and sweet ..^^

wut a nice and simple day~~so happie to meet up wit my good fren,FY, it was a short talk, but was really happie ..hehe!

met up wit my babe, we jus went to ask for my course and waited for the purchase of bank draft ^^ babe was really very cute..hehe!!i love to see his reaction when he was caught to be angry and speechless..hehe!!i like to see him when hez angry yet he stil have to take it cos he has no reason to angry me since im so cute smiling to him..hahahahahha!! "hand hand.." heheh..babe would alwis wanna hold my hand...not even give a chance for me to sms ..hehe!!MUACKZ..act i do hope to hold his hand and nv let go ..hoho

after all, we went for a lunch while waiting for the staff to be back to work from lunch, we were both starving for some time since we had no breakfast in the morning. thus, we decided to go for nasi lemak at kluang station..hehe!!happie cos i wasnt in the mood for fast food and finally babe made the decision..YAYYY!i need not to crack my head to think of wut to eat..HEHE!!we walked all the way from one world office tower to one u new wing kluang station, the calories burned was enough for us to consume a nice nasi lemak ^^ the place was crowded since it was the inception of lunch break..i ordered the food and it was such a mess... babe kept criticising that my BM is sucks and thereby causing mistakes from the waiter..>.< how could he not differentiate 'chicken wing' and 'chicken kuah'...@.@..heheh~~however,it wasnt the point of it, i was really happie and felt so sweet that babe did it !!i din expected him to treated me with such a caring and lovely heart..haha~~mayb it was the first time he did it, so i felt really sweet even it was jus a small case.it really made my day!thx for the chicken wings!!!!!!after that, we walked all the way back to the one world office tower. this time was a joke..hahahah!!
we've gone up to the CN floor and get back to the G and gone to another elevator and tried to get to lvl 1 but failed cos we nv gained permission from the security department as a visitor..hahaha!!it took us almost 15 mins jus to wait for the elevator and going up and down in it..hahah~~however, it was really fun cos both of us were doing such a funny silly things together..hehe~~i was relieved that babe was there for me otherwise i would have been panicking..^^

after getting my thing done, we went for shopping ..hehe!suddenly hez got a call frr his mom, i alwis feel bad and nervous when hez talking on the phone wit his mom cos i feel helpless to him and he have to bear everything even his mom shoot him or screw him. but i was surprised when he told his mom that he has saved up the money to go out.. he tried his best to save up money so that he could hang out wit me..babe is my consultant as well as my hanger and body guard to take care of my bag and properties..hahahah~~~but i realised that babe would say the similar word when i ask his opinion..haha~~ and he alwis says "not nice..the colour not nice..very sexy.."hahaha.. the point has finally spoken out.."very sexy"...hahahah!!SO CUTE~~somehow,he suggest me to wear the 'very sexy' clothes at home since he loves to see me wearing it jus in front of him..>.<

after all, we jus went out since my parents are fetching me..but i hope he could accompany me until they were here..hehe!!we went to buy herbal tea and babe bought me the herbal tea ^^~~~

i feel really happie that babe was so lovely to me..i feel relief that someone so sayang me ^^ i really hope that this would happen everyday between us ^^


picture of the day:



my very first time drinking sirap limau intro by babe ^^

untellable dilemma

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~

i was quite determined in the morning once i woke up ..i was so eager to read some news, articles, perhaps the newsletter, somehow when i started to read some news and some doc,it gave me a feeling that i have sooo much to cope up with since im so shallow in sense of my knowledge,my skills, my techniques, understandings...etc. i've started to worry bout my CIMA study dy, but i noe i must and should do well no matter wut, i must be optimistic !!

felt bore with the readings, started with FB again ...haha!!i realized that i could have hardly survive without facebook and perhaps the internet...haha!i was starving but tried to wait until noon time so that i could have lunch with babe if hez coming over..somehow,my feeling of hunger had started my gastric pain,thereby i went to get myself some linguine n bologneise sauce ^^..babe jus gave me a call in a sudden and said that he missed me and wan me..hehe!definitely i felt sweet..^^ i did hope to see him too,and was really happie when he decided to come over!!i missed the time to cook lunch for him, to wash his face and bath with him,and have 'facial session' wit him...hohohoo!!!

anyway, i was very happie when he said the pasta was good!!perhaps i feel happie when others claim it to be nice, but his compliment and recognition will be a significant support to me ^^...i slowly discover that my babe is a very cute and funny person.. he could make me laugh very easily..i love to have such a funny bf to make me laugh..CHICKEN NEHH!!hahaha!!at tat moment, i really hope that this guy could belong with me for the rest of my life ^^ i was really fearful that i might lose him..i dunno why when babe hugged me and kissed my forehead and said that he loves me..i jus teared off..i was very fearful of any bad changes that might happen between us...im very fearful and ignorance to changes,this is CSL..haha!!

after all, i jus sms him..haha!!somehow i feel myself very funny, when hez trying to promise me wutever that im asking for, i hardly take his words for it, but when he nv promise me and jus try to do it at his very best, it causes me an appalling insecurity..hahahaha!!i stil remembering wut my teacher had spoken to me last time,he told me that a good man would not simply promise the person that he loves becos he wouldnt wanna see her with tears if he fails to fulfil the promise..this is wut a real man is!however, he oso said that a real man would keep small promises becos promises keep man of bearing responsibility toward the person that he loves. i totally agree with this. babe seems to have been doing a job as part of a real man, he tot i would angry if he fails to hold on the promise..hahah!it aint the truth,disappointment instead of anger perhaps. somehow, having him to hold on the promise would give him certain level of pressure, but this is wut responsibility is..haha!

sigh..im so eager to have an acoustic guitar...whenever my frens ask me to tel my bf bout it.. my response would be..wut..hahah!wut i could do is jus smiling ^^ there are something that i dare not to say becos i dun hope to pressure him, i have fear now to tell out everything cos he might not forgive me if he angry me, sooner and later i dare not telling him wut i wan, i feel that im so alone to rely on myself for everything,i would feel guilty or having pressures to him even i've told him wut i wan and consequently having a bad time if i've overly demand..aiks..T.T.. i dunno how to say out sometimes..but i really dun hope wut i demand for would ruin our relationship...T_T..i hope to see babe's smile all the time.. i feel really happie and sweet whenever seeing babe to laugh and smile..im really happie when seeing babe happie and with his funny face..he alwis melts my heart when he laughs and smiles so naturally..when he was in anger wit his parents and the college,i really hope that i could be there for him, i hope that im the person that make him smile again, not his frens or wut...>.<...but when i saw him busy replying his frens and smiling on the webcam and i failed to make him smile even i've tried to..tat moment i was mad at myself to have failed..>.<

finally found someone to have und my feeling,hehe..SOOK YEE!!!we are really having the similar probs... i nv expected the similar things happened on her too.. but her case has gone so much further than mine..hehe!!finally i und her tiredness in her relationship.. i finally got the point that she decided to break up with jeremy and gone for joe..^^ however, i wouldnt wan this to happen to me and babe.. and i'l nv give up so easily ..

i wan an acoustic guitar !!

wake up early in morning..felt my soul got inspired somehow,feeling anticipating for my first ever CIMA class...AW!!

felt quite bore in the morning, so jus cleaned the house..as usual would online and search for some videos.the interest was there to search for some videos at youtube on acoustic covers, these ppl are talented and excellent, i believe they could do or done even much better than the existing stars. perhaps they were jus lack of opportunities in their lives that cause no fame til now, but i believe their improvement would bring success into their lives then. AZA AZA FIGHTING! suddenly felt interested in learning some make up skills, found some tutorial videos and i just followed wut they taught there...i felt quite happie that i was trying to improve myself ^^ the eye part was quite fine to me, as a normal person..haha!i hope i could do even better than ever !

after all, went for a house viewing session, the house is jus nice for a small family like us..but i felt somehow smaller as the one im staying now..however,it'l be good as long as itz comfy ^^ but the agent was a bit funny, why would he request for my permission to call my name, i prefer to be called as Ms Cheong..hahah!!

later, took LRT to attend my class.. was really excited!!!i hav 3 ex coursemates to study with me currently ..happie happie !!!


shout out of the day: I WAN AN ACOUSTIC GUITAR !!

i cried in the morning..

i sms babe cos today was his college day reopen..felt like giving him some supports and love ^^..but ended up felt sad when playing text with him..i dunno why, i jus tear when the moment i read his reply to me stated that he might not forgive me if i were to make him angry for another time.my mind was jus thinking that if i were to make him angry and not to be forgiven by him, then he might jus break up wit me..tat moment i jus cried out ..haha~~silly me, i was hugging my pillow while stil sleeping on my bed, do u think i could cont wit my dream and sleep?for sure not, then jus woke up and did some households, cleaned the floor, the bathroom and toilet..went to bath and even cried in the bathroom..not until we cont to text each other after my bath..somehow felt better, perhaps i had figured out something ..haha ~~wut a flexible person i am ..kaka!!

i am very happie that hez coming to my place since we've been not seeing each other for like almost 4 days..hehe!!i decided to make him french toast...HK style french toast..this would be my very first time of making it and i noe my babe likes french toast ^^..this makes me even desperate to learn and hope could make a nice one for babe ^^...i hope it could be a very nice and sweet one, though it looks somewhat a bit fail..haha!!but i've tried my best...and i'l nv give up to improve cos babe likes french toast ^^muackz!



salmon spread with cheese and butter ^^ peanut choco butter with honey and condensed milk