she just left this morning at 3am!
3 weeks had just passed,after the exam,i was kinda sad cos my hols were gonna begin,how am i to see my frens everyday!?how bout my taiko n yiko!?sad case!at that time,some one was gonna leave to UK!this issue was a big torture to me!i thought i would be crying during this 3 weeks!fortunately,this concert has bring me the solution but not entirely did!at least i have got something to as my pass time!at first,i was supposed to have a group performance,n i thought of inviting tt n sharpur,who knows they are leaving so i was really disappointed n lost my motivation in any performance!but itz a compulsory to me..so i teacher has found a teamate which is a gal for me!the first day we met each other,hahah...shez act my senior where we were from the same primary school!itz nice to talk...cos we do have the chemisrty!n another teamate is my fren!by the way,my senior is jean n my fren is shireen!this has begin the frenship among us!alan is a reall chun guy!he did the song for us..which i was jus helping him to add more parts n teaching them for their parts!u might say nothing special,however,the process of teaching n learning,the practices,the shopping hours have brought laughters n joys to us!and not forgotten our hard work has brought the best resukt of all!!where we got all the recognisitions and appreciation from them!!furthermore,being at the spotlight n receiving applause from the audiences would bring u satisfaction!
to be continued.....
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Friday, August 18, 2006
with u gone....
i've been crying all night long...
i was chatting with andrew,i intended to tell him my feelings,bout how i felt at that moment...something that i put much effort on it!!i felt tremendously gloomy...hez leave in this month..n therez nothing i can do rite?wel,if im not goin to mirado today,then last wednesday might be the last time i saw him in my life!perhaps we would never meet up again in future!im in fear...that someone is here with u in the morning and found to have gone at night...i cant stand the feelings of seeing someone leaving....i felt really down n cried!i really hope that someone was here with me...somehow,andrew said something right bout my life where my situation is much more better than other ppl n i shouldnt have take it so seriously..but i wish to control my feelings too,jus that i cant!after today..i wont be seeing tt in my life anymore...hahahhaa!therez no remedy for me at this moment...nothing could really cure me!most of frens were telling me to look for another guy...well,i tried but...hahahahahha!things are not happening in my way....i found myself escaping from the prob!!i dun wanna hear though i got the idea of it...or lynden might be telling me "tt has gone!"...seriously i cant stand though i knew it from the beginning of the year!i guess he'l be staying there for the rest of his life!haizzzzzzzz....wut shud i say bout it?anyhow,i hope time would decide everything n get me out of this!
i was chatting with andrew,i intended to tell him my feelings,bout how i felt at that moment...something that i put much effort on it!!i felt tremendously gloomy...hez leave in this month..n therez nothing i can do rite?wel,if im not goin to mirado today,then last wednesday might be the last time i saw him in my life!perhaps we would never meet up again in future!im in fear...that someone is here with u in the morning and found to have gone at night...i cant stand the feelings of seeing someone leaving....i felt really down n cried!i really hope that someone was here with me...somehow,andrew said something right bout my life where my situation is much more better than other ppl n i shouldnt have take it so seriously..but i wish to control my feelings too,jus that i cant!after today..i wont be seeing tt in my life anymore...hahahhaa!therez no remedy for me at this moment...nothing could really cure me!most of frens were telling me to look for another guy...well,i tried but...hahahahahha!things are not happening in my way....i found myself escaping from the prob!!i dun wanna hear though i got the idea of it...or lynden might be telling me "tt has gone!"...seriously i cant stand though i knew it from the beginning of the year!i guess he'l be staying there for the rest of his life!haizzzzzzzz....wut shud i say bout it?anyhow,i hope time would decide everything n get me out of this!
Thursday, August 17, 2006
R&B
this blog is act regarding to ytdz routine...
i din intended to on the pc n blog out my feelings cos i was pretty confused with my feelings...i was pretty fine in the morning n we practiced(shireen n me) in the noon at mirado...everything was going smoothly n i was really fine before i saw someone!well,shireen was asking eddy to play with us for our song 'breaking free'..he did played for us..i mean during the practice section..n it was pretty cool!!he'z got the skill man!after shireen has gone home,i was there to help up my teacher n oso to listen to their probs!well,she seems to be over stress up n oso being frustrated with her current working condition,n we even discussed bout having drum lesson togather...kaka!i was kinda happie cos that shud be really fun to have lesson with my teacher!i was having a guitar on my hand,the feelings were just to play some classical pieces at that moment..suddenly came back after 'recharged'..well,i was strumming a song n he dinno tat i was the one sitting in the room n playing all this stuffs...kakaka!suddenly,he suggested me to ask tt to play the guitar part for our song!well,i was kinda annoyed when he said that,but then he jus walked off n said 'i go ask tt...' wel,i dinno he was there,i din intend to go out n have a look...n teacher did said..'tt is there..' wut came to mind was stop playing a foollol!n i tended to walk out from the studio n i did see him in a white shirt!i got killed!i became really down then n had no concerntration for my teacher..i got confused with my feelings!i mean i dun intend to see him when hez here cos i might feel destress;but i would be even desperate n miserable if hez gone!this issue has been appearing in my mind all night long n i couldnt get rid of it!andrew called me up when i was playing my keyboard.....well,i told him everything n he suggested to sleep early...well,therez nothing i can control lol!i couldnt stop thinking of this!n intended to take some wine instead of looking at the ceiling...but this couldnt have help me off!suddenly i received a msg from a fren of andrew-ivy!well,i talked to her on the phone before,shez friendly n kinda mature for me..anyway,i really appreciate when she send me a caring msg,but this wouldnt help me perhaps!the tears jus dripped off naturally when i was playing the pieces,i jus felt like composing something at that moment..but everything sounds groomy n sorrowful!
i din intended to on the pc n blog out my feelings cos i was pretty confused with my feelings...i was pretty fine in the morning n we practiced(shireen n me) in the noon at mirado...everything was going smoothly n i was really fine before i saw someone!well,shireen was asking eddy to play with us for our song 'breaking free'..he did played for us..i mean during the practice section..n it was pretty cool!!he'z got the skill man!after shireen has gone home,i was there to help up my teacher n oso to listen to their probs!well,she seems to be over stress up n oso being frustrated with her current working condition,n we even discussed bout having drum lesson togather...kaka!i was kinda happie cos that shud be really fun to have lesson with my teacher!i was having a guitar on my hand,the feelings were just to play some classical pieces at that moment..suddenly came back after 'recharged'..well,i was strumming a song n he dinno tat i was the one sitting in the room n playing all this stuffs...kakaka!suddenly,he suggested me to ask tt to play the guitar part for our song!well,i was kinda annoyed when he said that,but then he jus walked off n said 'i go ask tt...' wel,i dinno he was there,i din intend to go out n have a look...n teacher did said..'tt is there..' wut came to mind was stop playing a foollol!n i tended to walk out from the studio n i did see him in a white shirt!i got killed!i became really down then n had no concerntration for my teacher..i got confused with my feelings!i mean i dun intend to see him when hez here cos i might feel destress;but i would be even desperate n miserable if hez gone!this issue has been appearing in my mind all night long n i couldnt get rid of it!andrew called me up when i was playing my keyboard.....well,i told him everything n he suggested to sleep early...well,therez nothing i can control lol!i couldnt stop thinking of this!n intended to take some wine instead of looking at the ceiling...but this couldnt have help me off!suddenly i received a msg from a fren of andrew-ivy!well,i talked to her on the phone before,shez friendly n kinda mature for me..anyway,i really appreciate when she send me a caring msg,but this wouldnt help me perhaps!the tears jus dripped off naturally when i was playing the pieces,i jus felt like composing something at that moment..but everything sounds groomy n sorrowful!
Saturday, August 12, 2006
i've changed,im changing...
hey guys....im back!!!
finally,i got the chance to pour out some of my feelings and thoughts here,recently i've been buzy with my sem2 exams n oso some stuffs..hmmm...act many things happened during this period of time...n i was kinda ignorance to write them out here..but i'd thought of sometimes n intended to tell u guys...why did i have such an idea?hmmm...act i was afraid that u guys might have some bad ideas bout me since me myself have realised that u've changed a lot...perhaps physically but for sure my attitudes and mentally has changed a lot!frankly i was kinda worried that i might change to a person that u guys would nv accept me as ya fren,or as ya sis bro!!after reading wut had happened to me,,,n u would surely say that i've changed!
where shud i begin then..hmmm....but i noe im feeling pretty desperate n lost a this moment...the feelings are kinda perculiar...as in i dunno whether wut im doing now is correct or a mistake in life..perhaps everyone has to fall once in their life...but i do think that itz kinda over since i found myself has got many things hidden behind my family...i dun wanna be like this...feel kinda guilty...
have u heard of em-pay.com?yea...i've invested a small sum of money into it...but wut im feeling really frustrated is when can i get the profits?i know i shudnt have complaint so much but then im an impatient person....i wan something fast recovery though it might be high risky!but at least i could see the rebates in a short term!i think i might prefer that!for me,i really dun have the passion in investing in such thing...itz so dam boring!i dun wan d...30% tat im kinda worry bout the money,60% tat im kinda boring with it cos itz slow recovering,10% tat im not interested anymore!wel,dear,dun get misunderstood if u read this...cos i dun meant to hurt u or blame u,,,jus that i really need a medium for me to express my desperation!the main thing that makes me really frustrated is how could barry earn so much i cant!??????BARRY!!!!!!he told me that u r not gonna search for ppl and wait for them to arrange for u...cheh!!!purposedly wanna show off to me!!!!geram betul!
next,i would like to say that tt is leaving to further his studies...well,at first this would be dam killing for me...but the most killing part is the result of avoiding it..i mean im trying to aviod myself for not seeing him...so that i wont be feeling so sad or even better,why has he to appear in front of me!?i know itz all my fault of loving such a person that who even not treating me as a fren...or etc...YES!i stil admire him much cos there is no reason for me to hate him!though he seems to be really annoying..but....haih!but then i really have no other alternative to make myself clear!wut shud i do?andrew,u'l nv help me out man cos we have da same prob...noe wut?i tried to concern all my feelings towards u...sometimes i do admire ya styled in doing some stuffs...but then the prob is the feelings...i mean i have no heart beating whenever with u,itz like really comfortable to be with a true fren..or really good bro,for sure i'l care bout u much ...jus that we are too closed with one and another....anyway,i really love u much !!tatz for sure!and one more bad thing is ...BARRY!!!!he reminds me of tt whenever i see him...they look alike!sobs sobs!
finally,i got the chance to pour out some of my feelings and thoughts here,recently i've been buzy with my sem2 exams n oso some stuffs..hmmm...act many things happened during this period of time...n i was kinda ignorance to write them out here..but i'd thought of sometimes n intended to tell u guys...why did i have such an idea?hmmm...act i was afraid that u guys might have some bad ideas bout me since me myself have realised that u've changed a lot...perhaps physically but for sure my attitudes and mentally has changed a lot!frankly i was kinda worried that i might change to a person that u guys would nv accept me as ya fren,or as ya sis bro!!after reading wut had happened to me,,,n u would surely say that i've changed!
where shud i begin then..hmmm....but i noe im feeling pretty desperate n lost a this moment...the feelings are kinda perculiar...as in i dunno whether wut im doing now is correct or a mistake in life..perhaps everyone has to fall once in their life...but i do think that itz kinda over since i found myself has got many things hidden behind my family...i dun wanna be like this...feel kinda guilty...
have u heard of em-pay.com?yea...i've invested a small sum of money into it...but wut im feeling really frustrated is when can i get the profits?i know i shudnt have complaint so much but then im an impatient person....i wan something fast recovery though it might be high risky!but at least i could see the rebates in a short term!i think i might prefer that!for me,i really dun have the passion in investing in such thing...itz so dam boring!i dun wan d...30% tat im kinda worry bout the money,60% tat im kinda boring with it cos itz slow recovering,10% tat im not interested anymore!wel,dear,dun get misunderstood if u read this...cos i dun meant to hurt u or blame u,,,jus that i really need a medium for me to express my desperation!the main thing that makes me really frustrated is how could barry earn so much i cant!??????BARRY!!!!!!he told me that u r not gonna search for ppl and wait for them to arrange for u...cheh!!!purposedly wanna show off to me!!!!geram betul!
next,i would like to say that tt is leaving to further his studies...well,at first this would be dam killing for me...but the most killing part is the result of avoiding it..i mean im trying to aviod myself for not seeing him...so that i wont be feeling so sad or even better,why has he to appear in front of me!?i know itz all my fault of loving such a person that who even not treating me as a fren...or etc...YES!i stil admire him much cos there is no reason for me to hate him!though he seems to be really annoying..but....haih!but then i really have no other alternative to make myself clear!wut shud i do?andrew,u'l nv help me out man cos we have da same prob...noe wut?i tried to concern all my feelings towards u...sometimes i do admire ya styled in doing some stuffs...but then the prob is the feelings...i mean i have no heart beating whenever with u,itz like really comfortable to be with a true fren..or really good bro,for sure i'l care bout u much ...jus that we are too closed with one and another....anyway,i really love u much !!tatz for sure!and one more bad thing is ...BARRY!!!!he reminds me of tt whenever i see him...they look alike!sobs sobs!
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