craps!

im sitting in da pc lab...my mind was blank for a moment....im kinda lost in my daily routine...

i havve been always thinking bout is this life??i mean goin to coll n study...goin home after this..play my guitar....play my keyboard...perhaps i might skip classes to chill out with my frens...so would it be thatz all??i mean how am i supposed to make my life more colourful in this way??i noe i shouldn't be so demanding with my life...but can i have some excitement in my life???of just something unusual everyday....or every week....im kinda bored with it...furthermore im having a study week....haih...

out of my craps...im kinda sad recently....n oso have been kinda worried all this while....first of all, tt is leaving soon...my frens told me that i would have forget bout this guy very soon...perhaps i might not be able to forget him for the rest of my life...this may be prob for me...as for myself,i dun hope to forget this guy..cos he has appeared to be so awesome in my point of view...he has everything i wan...but somehow,there are no perfection in life....im being so worried that i might get him out of my mind in future..wouldn't it be a good news for me??i totally have no idea bout it!!

next,someone that i like is leaving so soon.....i think u should have some idea bout this person rite???ya....thatz the one...da1 tat makes me feel warm n secure...da one that makes me feel comfortable to talk to..i noe that hez goin back to his home soon...but i dun dare to ask him...but this question has in my mind for some days...is he coming back for his degree??would he be going to another cuntries for his degree???i dun have the guts to listen to his answer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!perhaps the answer might be something favourable to me..perhaps he might says "nope,im not coming back..."......how would i feel then?what should i be my response to it!?i dun hope to get hurt....

KORG.OASYS

hey guys!!!dont u think this is really gorgeous????
i love this so much!!!!!!that shud be my ideal working tool uh!im showing u guys that wut i like n wut i interested in my life....i really wanna share with all of u out there...thanks for looking at it!!!!i hope i'l get it one day!!!!haih.......

my dear bro!!!!!can u see this!!???i love this so much!!!!just to tell u that itz a product from KORG!!!my fav brand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!this is so dam coool rite????

my ideal elect g!!

im listening to leehom's songs...simply inspired me of wut i supposed to post in my future posts..

wutz my blog title?no music no life rite?i wanna share with u guys out there bout my thoughts,favs,...etc in music here...so i think im gonna post pics or some tabs here..haha!

firstly,i would like to show u my ideal elect g!!!!i think bro u should know why do i like bout this elect g!
i really hope to have this...but itz expensinve for me!!!i love this so much!!!!!

b.o.ring...

im sitting in da pc lab...pretty boring cos i have to rush for my coursework,which i have to hand up tomoro...

im so dam boring cos all this time i've been doing courseworks for all the subjects...so dam boring..nothing seems to excite me!truely a study life...no more funs and joys in life!i wan something exciting!!!!but recently i've lost my mood due to da disappearence of someone in my life...perhaps hez not here..perhaps he has fall sick..perhaps he has fly home....there are many inquiries in my mind now....i really wanna see him....im act kinda missing him...hahahahaha!but i told o one...except u..the one that reading now...sadly i dun have a chance to ask eric bout wutz happening with him now...i dun intend to ask andrew or berry!!!but i really wanna noe...at least bout his location now.........im being so dam down this few days but i have to pretend as in like im fine all the time...itz so dam suffering to do this..frankly i have no motivation to do things cos everything seems to be so boring in life!i miss those days with them...i think ppl out there shud und wut i mean...i miss my sisz... miss my bro....i miss chatting with u guys....i love crapping with u guys...we had so much funs...but everything has became past tense...im so da boring now...i mean at this moment...

somehow,i just think that we shud do something really exciting in our lives rite...life is like a candle as always seen in books...and i personally think that itz true..my business lect used to ask us a question during class..something related bout our life...and she told us there is a hieracy in our life....n not many ppl could achieve the peak of the pyramid...usually we are borned n been fufilled with the basic needs in lives..later we've have education if possible and starts off the carrier lives...we'l try the best to fulfill our desires..then we'l have social lives and this is the time to thinki bout the future time...when money n family is not a prob in live...then we might wanna have something unusual n we'l do something out of the expectation....

i personally think that we shud enjoy our lives all the time rite?we have no idea of wutz gonna happe in da next second....regrets are considered a sad case in life...but it might be experience gained and teaches us to be more aggresive rite?

anywayz,thanks for reading all this craps...i appreciate!

happie marriage is happening now......

i've planned to save some money cos im in a pk situation!!!anyway,i stil spent..haha!

we met up!!!finally...we met up...3 of us!!!!it has been a long time that we never seeing each other..since ever after the examz...after LCCI!frankly,im really happie to see her again..though things had happened..happie1..sad1...but all this wont be a matter to me cos everything has became a past tent or a memory to be kept in my mind!back to this,i was so pleased to see her since ever she told me that shez gonna be a housewife next year!!!if u r reading this..i really wanna talk bout ula..haha~dun worry...itz all complements..haha!

shez a dynamic n energetic gal in my point of view...she does things without consideration of the results...n this is the best thing of her...shez so straight n pour out every of her opinions...n i think this is good to maintain an ever-lasting friendship..i loves the way she makes her decision...shez such abrave person...she'l say out who she likes n dislike...she'l take actions towards the person that she loves...BUT...i discovered something..she has act changed now...perhaps u grown..haha!

shez becoming more feminine...in another word u ay say lady-like...which is a good news to u..dun think that im saying u old!but u has become mature now...u care bout him...u care bout the family...im really happie when u told me that hez ya mr right!u never say that for the previous guys...which i was kinda impressed!!when would be my turn?!?!?!hahahah.....sounds extremely desperate rite?anyhow,i really hope that u'l be happie cos as like u said...itz like a fairy tale in the story book...i think every gal hopes that in their lives rite?so to me!!!!i hope to be like u..but my time has not reach yet..i trying to consolt myself!u r the lucky1..i hope u guys will be an ever-lasting couple....please dun think of those bull shit anymore..think of doing something chun for the relationship instead of divorcing...hahaha!!!i love u guys so much n i wan to see u guys happie all the time!GOD blessed n keep it up for the ahem ahem..hahaha


wel,im in the pc lab now...i din see him today n this makes me feel so down for the day..perhaps,losing tt makes me lost my drives in my life....losing leo makes me lost my mood!!!so who do u think is the most important person in my life?me myself dun even have the answer in my mind!!i really hope to see leo!!!im kinda miss himla...haha!tt is just being too far......and the possibility is equals to zero!wut can i do to get him out of my mind?the answer is none!!he has appear to be so perfect everytime i see him...that reminds me of everything...that makes me feel like crying....that hurts me so deeply...

so hungry!!!

things were just happening in its ways...itz totally out of my control...

recently i've discovered something which is out of my expectation...i used to mention bout this guy previously n his name is zeng hui...someone just suggested me to start off as a fren...wel,i did n everything is going pretty fine...but da feelings just seems to be so weird...i like him...and i like him!i mean i just like him...can u get it?i like being as his fren..i like talking to him...but just so simple..i care bout him...just like this...me myself dun even know how do i feel bout him....anyway,i love this feelings cos itz so simple and comfortable...not thinking bout too implicit..not being too sensitive...just simple n lovely frens!

back to todayz case...i was paying my 100% fully concerntration in the class..listening to my lovely mr phang explaining bout the coursework...he gave us some guidelines bout which books to be referered...what shud we write bout....etc..suddenly i heard a msg tone...i thought would be some msg sent by 32888..i seemed not to bother bout it...but some1 just need my help...itz my bro eric!!i dinno wut to do since da lect was explaining something really important..but my fren just needed help for his coursework...thatz why i asked him to hang on a moment...but he intended to ask me to go down now!i got fire up at that moment...but wut to do...hez my fren n he ask no1 since my gang seems to dislike him(without mentioning to him..haha)wut are frens for?i think everyone would have their personal answer to this question...so do i!ijust went down and see wut has happened....though it was really troublesome cos we had tried several pc to open up his file..and i gotta rushed back to my classroom so to get my payment to enter the pc lab...to get everything settled..haih....i felt so hunry after this cos i din have my breakfast...im happie cos i act helped my fren!!!but my gang think of me one kind when i help him....i would do the same thing to them...i always help them in their courseworks..but they have thought something bad bout me..

SS2

i sitting in da pc lab...waiting for my lovely mummy to pick me up afer class...kinda boring here..but wut to do..i have to wait for them rite?

i enjoy my day!!!seriously!!not bcos tat sharon is reading or others are reading it..i really enjoy my day!!!i met up with my sis n bro today...and a new fren which i would like to introduce here-patricia!shez such a nice gal...but tremendously quiet compared to me..hah!we are same age but shez soo dam polite!perhaps this is the example of being as a pj gal..haha!meanwhile,i would like to say that i was really surprised when i received a call from my bro!!i din expected it cos i was bathing n heard my mobile phone ringing...i thought that shud be sharon at first...who knows...then,i got to my coll and waited for bout 30 minutes...wel,i was kinda pleased cos i could get my part of my coursework question done during that period...GOD blessed!finally they were here...sitting in a really red car(looks like a tomato)i was really pleased to see them!!!!!!!!!long time no see huh!i really miss them so much n i was so worried that we might not have as much topics as we used to be...and i know this wont happen cos i got all da feelings back!!!!!i just love to talk to my bro....and please dun jealous k!!!!sharon!!!!!!itz truely from my heart cos we have da topics...music,jaming,guitars,cars....n all da craps!!!i act like it cos ijus cant find anyone currently to have this topics with me especially music!!my current gang loves pc games...online games...which is out of my zone..haha!noe wut?i thought i would get myself use to their topics but i just simply have no intereset in that particular area!i hardly und the fun of being in front of the screen n playing the game for hours!!perhaps,they just cant und the joy of jaming with the band rite?

back to my day,we went to sri hartamas for lunch..do u go to secret recipe if u have da chance to have lunch there while there are so many choices in front of u?my answer is NO!!u may ask me wutz da prob here...but i would just prefer to have something differ where i can act get it at SS2!this was the first time i've been to souled out!my first impression was:nice and clean...'white-color-places',too many 'securities' around...for my opinion,i just think tat this place is a nice place for businessmen,but not to seek freedom.i do mean that this place is to commercial..which i cant find anything fun there...excludin the cocktails n other alchoholic drinks!anyway,i stil enjoy myself cos my gang is there with me!!

one more thing tat act makes me feel happie today...feel like flying..haha!some1 just gave a a compliment bout my mandarin speaking!!he said that i have improved my mandarin!!!yea!!!!!i was really impressed cos no1 ever says that to me before....ppl will only criticise on my mandarin...i really appreciate that...cos this gives me confidence to speak to him..haha!

do u know wutz da meaning of SS2??S=sri hartamas, S=souled out, 2=we went there by with gen 2!haha!

feelings.love has no reason

as time passes on,i found myself has really fall in love with this guy!

u may think this guy is tt right?but this time u have mistaken..itz another person which i actually mentioned in my previous post...his name is leonard!wel,i do prefer his chinese name,zeng hui!i knew him through my fren,eric,which is also a fren of him,they are kinda close to one and another..i like him when i first saw him,not that he has an appealing outlooking or six packs or cool or tall...etc. in fact,eric n berry are even more handsome...but hez so unique to me!i mean hez a nice good to talk with,hez such a sweet guy in my point of view,comfortable...and i told eric bout this since ever i treat him as my 'bro'...and he seems to 'blackmail' me with this...haha!he told me he din tell zeng hui bout what i thought bout him though,somehow i could feel that must have something in the other side..i think he might have told hui bout it!!im so worry of seeing him face to face cos i think he might have known something which he shouldnt have known bout it...this makes me refuse to have conversations with him and he actually realised too!!haha...he told eric that i rather talked to andrew than talking to him...i was kinda impressedcos he realised it!!!eric sounds like a middle person cos i would sms him whenever i see hui..and surprisingly he tells eric that he sees me too!!!!eric keeps supporting me to know him better..therefore i intended to talk to him more,ask for his opinions,i really wanna know how he thinks..but this didn't work out actually!we had lunch today togather,eric,berry,andrew, and him were there...frankly i was trying to have a sit beside him but andrew was sitting beside him...haih!then,i tried to talk to him...i tried to ask him things,i tried to have topics...and i got the answers from andrew!!!!!!!!!!i mean he grabbed the questions and i was actually asking hui!thatz fine anywayz,and i could see that he seemed to be not feeling happy with his life!i really wanna ask him bout it,but he may think that im annoying right?i hope i can help him or share his probs!i feel bad when i see him without his smile on his face!

the main prob is i seems not really understand what he says cos he speaks perfect mandarin and my mandarin is really poor..sometimes he cant even catch my words!!im so upset with it...this cos us no conversations...i have no confidence to speak my mandarin in front of him!furthermore,he seems to be a shy n keep-everything-in-heart person..itz tough for me and i got so fade up..hez kinda differ from the guys that i usually like..i like guys who are energetic,dynamic,mischievous,independent...etc...something like tt...and i can assure u that zeng hui is opposite of tt!i dunno why do i like him?i used to answer eric the same question that itz all bout feelings!!!do u think itz true?wutz ya opinions?

chicken hunter V.S. little worm

i really have much things to talk bout here...i wanna express everything here but i just cant...

frankly,i wanted to cry when eric told me a new which he thought that i should be happy with it..i thought so and ended up with some drops at my face...i kept asking myself..'shouldnt i feel happie?'..i thought the answer should be yes but why was i crying???why must i felt sad and guilty bout this!?

i have been interested into tt for almost three years...since i was 16 year-old..i may considered it as a love-at-first-sight situation...when i first saw him,i was kinda impressed by the way he dressed,he rushed for his lesson,was wet at the back of his shirt cos he sweated,was paying his fees and i was just beside him...i like his style..i could remembered he always waited for his mom to pick him up after lessons..and he would showed off his talent out there,i just easily melted off by him!!i love him!!!!!!!!this was those days...i love bout his style,his appealing appearence,his talent..however,things has been changing as time passing on...i found myself got seriously crazy over him when we could have a chance to perform in a group last year...it was such a sweet time tat i would not get it out of my memory!!!i din expected this thing to actually happened..they are really talented players....of cos i would give the priority to him!but i couldnt do much thing after the performance cos he seems to be so strange to me!i have nothing to say then,he has drives me so crazy towards him n now hez gonna further his studies in UK!!!but da feelings are stil here...and this is wut i think so....until i met this guy named li zeng hui!when i first saw him,i felt kinda impressed by him..i mean he gave me some kinda feelings which are so unique...i feel so warm n secure to see him...but i have been trying to control my feelings towards him cos i feel bad whenever i think of tt!