birthday on thursday at friday!

hey everyone out there...im turning 19 year-old today!!

i feel myself getting so old n so differ from the previous year,whether itz physically or mentally!but i think my attitudes might not change..stil in old ways!

i have lotz to pour out...i wanna share my meaningful day with all of u out there..im really happie n pleased to have them for my day!i appreciate everything tat they had done for me..even the lies..even i was asked for singing with a ketchup bottle holding in my hand n standing on the chair...i dun mind cos i have my best ever frens with me all da time!i love them so much!!!itz not to be explained in only few words...u noe!!

i reached there early n waited for them with the ice-blended chocolate..looking around..seeking for the handsome1..haha!yk was here wit me n we chat..itz really nice to hang out wit old fren!!km then came n joined the conversation...she told me tat ks couldnt come cos she has extra class!!i was really sad cos i expected her to come over n celebrate with me!!!!i wanted to call her n ask her..but she might be studying in da class n unable to anwer my phone call..or perhaps they were just fooling me!!after an hour..i tried to accept the fact that ks n kim would not come over..n qw has prob to come here...i was kinda sad but at least i stil have km n yk with me!!
i was soooo hungry n really wanted to have something for my stomach...suddenly some one appeared in my view...n i was taken aback cos i din expect her to be here!!!itz qw!!!!i was sooo pleased n wanted to cry cos shez now here with us!!!however,therez stil something missing....someone wasnt here..wut a sad case rite?i just talked to them n no1 seemed listening to me...who were they looking at???hahaha...stupid me!!i got punk'd!!
they cheated on me!!!!ks walked towards me...i nearly cried out when we hugged each other!!i was really happie n glad that shez here!!!all my best ever frens were here for me !!!tatz wut i wan for my birthday..i never hope to get prez from them...i never hope them to treat me luxury dishes...i never hope to have high-class places..the most important point is the ppl tat celeb with me...wut i wan just to celebrate my day in a simple way..they made my day meaningful n memorable!i love u guys!!!thanks for everything....thanks for the prez...n oso thanks to friday..haha!!

berry+leonard+eric=tt****

have u came across wit forming equation which involve human names n comparision??
i've done an equation to represents a guy that i like so much in my life!

u shud be familiar wit this guy whose name berry..i admired him since last year..hez considered to be the most appealing guy among his gang..where he would reminds me of tt whenever i see him!i was so desrerate to make frens with him last year,n this really happened without my expectation!!of cos i would felt kinda nervous at first,n oso being shy when talking to him...but it din last long..however,i felt myself to get interested into a fren of him!!!he comes from china...simple looking guy!!but i just lile him!!he gives me a very special feelings when i talk to him or meet him up!i feel warm n secure when i approach to him..hez such a nice person to talk to...he has a deep vocal tat makes him sounds steady..he has a normal guy's height,not too tall,not too tough,but just nice(of cos it might not be as good as tt..haah)which makes me feel secure!!!!i like this guy!!!!!i told my frens n they seem not to agree wit my point of view!!!i really like him!!he loves singing..which i really hope to get a birthday song from him!!unfortunately,eric has broke the promise!!i like him so much!!!

back to berry,hez a nice guy was wut i thought at first...the fact is hez soooo talkactive,crapping all days,but i was really impressed when he said he plays keyboard n elect. guitar!!!tat really drives me crazy when he said that!!furthermore,he loves F1..which is one of my favs too!!we seem to have similar interests but i like another guy...hah!does it sound ridiculous!?maybe itz just happening now...perhaps my next post might be saying tat i love berry..haha!life is like a rollercoaster!!

recently i found out that this guy does have the similar characteristics as my cousin-kah hou!!hez just like him!!i mean the way he behaves..the way he speaks...the way he does thing!!!this guy is tall n tough..u would feel secure wit him!!!seriously!!

loves him?loves him not?

wut shud i talk bout here...i have much to pour out here...but jus have no ideas to express...

it has been a long time tat my blog has not mention bout the one tat i really concerned...the one that drives me crazy...the one that act made me cried like helll..the one that motivated me to have such a dream to u.k....u shud have known bout this guy if u read bout da previous posts!
perhaps i've get him out of my life..perhaps he's not listed up there...somehow,i would always compare him with those that i like....somehow,hez too perfect in my point of view!!!hez such a great guy where no one can act replace him!!!but he really makes me feel soooo freaking frustrated...which i dun hope this will happen in my life...u might claim that im a loser..but i really dun wan all this to happen...disappointment,frustration,sad case man!

however,i think im trying to recover as ideal guys are appearing into my life!!!i like them so much..but not as perfect as tt...seriously!!!perhaps he got the majority of my mind!!!i mean those new guys are really chun...they are really nice to be with...somehow,they remind me of tt whenever,which itz hardly for me to get a 'new' life!!!

it has been a decade tat i've never blog out my daily life here...n im blogging now!

wut has act make me feel like going all da way back to coll..walking under da hot sun...however,da room temperature is really nice now,where im sitting at a corner...looking at a guy..hahah..hez really cute...n how i wish to see his fren-berry..haha!
back to this,something essential happened tat makes me wanna share wit u guys...my feelings...my very persoanl1...he has drove me crazy!!!i love him so much even he got married..haha!please dun be misunderstood wit this...i love lynden too...haha!!i think u shud have got the hint rite??itz all bout music!!!

how m i supposed to begin??i have much to say...but have no idea to begin my story!!!

after my lunch,i went to mahogany wit my fren,patrick..he wants to buy a guitar..acoustic n have guitar lessons...n hez considered kinda lost since he has not been to any music classes before...therefore,as a fren n oso classmate,i would like to bring him to my fav guitar store...which i would see my fav bob there..haha!however,a different person approached us this time n hez such a great guy!!!hez married n this is not a sad case cos hez wife would be sooooo dam contented where her hubby is soooo talented!!!!
tell u wut??i love guitarist...i mean i wanna have a partner who able to play guitar very well so tat he cuold melt me off!!!!i love guitarist...classical,acoustic.....and da most is electric guitarist!!i just love it!!!they are fantastic!!!

wait...this guy..his name is andre chiang..hez a really nice guy..and i saw bob at da same time...blue is da best suit colour for him!!!and hez really fantastic...i thought he was gonna intro to us at da first since he seemed to be so free there...well,it doesn't matter me cos andre is my type-electric guitarist!!!haha...he got married!!he tried out some songs for us...n i was like...'cool huh'...he said his students would have learned tat song after a month...which i d learned during my first lesson wit lynden..haha!i was kinda proud cos lynden has taught me tat..hahaha!!i could ac say it out loudly..hahahaha!!!can u imagine tat!!???

wait..he asked me whether i do have music lessons or not...and my answer would be sure....im a pianist...n he asked me whether im a lefthander or right hander...well,my answer would be right...n he wanted to see my left hand...'good'...haha!

hez such a cool teacher until he shown us his skills on elect guitar..omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i was speechless...n he was trying to play with our interest..wut bands do i like????of cos i would say my fav....haha...linkin park...n he demostrated some parts...omg!!!it was really nice!!!!wut would i say is just awesome!!!he has made my day alive!!!he makes me feel soooooo sad cos i have no money to act buy an elect guitar,which i have desire so much!!!!i wanna have elect guitar lessons wit him!!!!i wan it so much....n i have no financial supportment from my parents!!!im saving my pocket money so tat i would have a chance to have guitar lessons wit lynden!!!i appreciate everything!!!and andre told me tat lynden is a very nice teacher where hez act a replacement of lynden..wow!!!and he knows adrian personally,which he knows tat hez a really skillful player...n i noe this...wel,hez kinda serious...

i hope to have this as my birthday present...

true love for no reason!

somehow,i just feel so lost in my life!

i feel like crying at da moment where i told my fren tat i shud have get rid of it!i shouldn't have any feelings towards him!!itz stil fresh in my mind tat i used to dislike him or prejudiced him at da very first day we met up!!i thought i wont like him but who knows im so mad bout this guy!

i feel so embarassing to face him!!people around jus claim tat i like him..im trying to approach him by having guitar lessons wit his teacher!!though they din speak it out...somehow,i jus feel itz happening...n im trying to do something really silly !!
"eddie is so dam cool!!!hez so dam chunla!"i told lynden...i told t.sylvia..i told t. suzie....i told t.joanne...n lotz more...
im trying to let others noe tat i think eddie is chun!!!they might think tat i like eddie...so did they..hah!somehow,they just think of getting chances for me to approach eddie!!!wuta joke man!!!however,i dun mind...frankly hez chun cos hez a guitarist...n i would love to have a fren or bro like him!!!

well,lynden n me had a conversation..where he really makes me think of something which i thought i was in da right path all this while...
"u'l noe when ya right has appeare....u r stil young...youngsters now only treasure glamour..GOD wil send da right one to us...."lynden was telling me all this which makes me thinks for a minute..."true love for no reason"which i always think itz correct n happens in my life..but i think i shouldn't have take things so seriously in life...