100!

hey everyone out there...i just got the result!!!i mean itz some kinda test that given by the business stat. teacher...wel,eventhough itz not the exact1...but im still feeling happy coz my frens n i got Ds in that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!the main point is e both got 100!!!!!!!!!!!!!im so dam happy k!thatz even excited than getting 100 alone!and laikun oso got 91!!!high marks k!three of us got Ds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i was really high at that moment!!!!!!!!!!!i know that i shouldnt be showing off here...but juts to share that we got Ds...haha!how i wish we can have 15 Ds in our final exam huh!that should be sooo nice k!i just like the feeling that everyone succeeds....not only yaself coz they might not feel the happiness as how u feel..
this would be my motivator.....i'l study hard and aim for the golden award!i must get it!!!and oso my fren must get it!!!!!!!!!i dun care!we must get it!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

oh my god!rossi is really driving me crazy!i really luv him so much!and i act found out something that...hez a left hander!!!!!!!!!!!this is enough for me!!!!i luv guys who is left hander!!!!u should know why rite!?they are 'coming in'!!!!sharon should know it!he just won the second place...well,i was kinda disappointed coz it was out of my expectation...he should be at the the top k!however,hez the world champion.....just give some chances to the others..haha!
to all of u out there...my luv1...the unknown1..i just wannna tell u guys that i want that bottle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!white colour...printed 'the doctor'...rossi is using that bottle!!!!i want that!!!!!!!!where can i get that!?

haih....

im so disappointed that he just cant recognise me at all!!!!!!!mehdi cant recognise me anymore!he just smiled to me..and im looking untidy at that time....aaaaaaaaahhhh!dun look at me!!!!!!!!!!'it's raining'...i really like this song...sung by jung ji hoon or rain bi..u'l know him if only u watch 'full house'..well,this thing happened at that time...my sis and i were running back to college..i was in a long denim jeans..just imagine that my clothes had gone wet..with my bag and my spect..my hair!!!!!itz sooooo messy and mehdi was just in front of me!!!!!!wut should i do then?go in to the shop?just walk pass him?saying hi to him?

i want him!

i saw mehdi!!!!i saw him yesterday!!hez always fantastic to me...no matter wut condition..haha!i just want him!!!!wut cologne is he using?is it my fav perfume?how i wish hez matt...hahah!im sorry to say that dude!
u wont understand how i feel now...but one person knows it...sis!!!!i know u should know how im feeling rite?we feel the same!!!!u want him...and i want him too!luckily our 'hims' are so different!different catagory,colour,stage,age....but yet we feel the same!
i think u should just go 'ahem ahem' one day!perhaps we can do it everyday after few years later!remember those things that we discussed at coffee bean??

ooosh!

ooooh gosh!i got my results out!i just couldn't believe that..i got D!hahaha!i mean my piano exam!eventhough itz just grade 5..well,considered low grade...but im happy coz this is my first piano exam!!!im so dam high now!i was act kinda sad this morning coz i did something bad last nite!but not that..so every1 just dun have to be afraid of wut i said!i wont give it a dare not until to my hubby!
wut should i do with this!?i was really happy and sharon just gave me a big bear hug...feel nice and warm!thanx sis!i finally did that kah hou!u always say that i wont get into piano...not even playing or sitting for the exam...but i managed to get through the exam and now im gonna sit for the next exam ..hahha!how i wish u r here with me!champaign!!!!NO!should be chateau!!!when are u coming back!?i mis u so much!!!im so glad that u act read my blog!remember to read every single blog k!i hope to read yours too!

so so day!

last nite was a so so day to me!i mean i just did something really ridiculous!something that i would not do in my life anymore!anyway,it was really fun..haha!i really like bangsar...i think as a malaysian u should know where is this place rite?but to the foreigners...i would say that itz a nice place to 'free' yaself!the street was entirely full of foreigners..and there were really well looking in my point of view!
drinking my teq..hugging and screaming were the best part of the nite!itz fun to have mixture by yaself!red wine + white wine + teq + beer =drunk!!luckily i din do something regretful!!

wut i want!!

i have always been asking for so many things...which i dun think so..im just hoping to have them in my life...so wutz the pro?perhaps some people might say that im kinda demanding..wuteverla...
those are the things that i hope to have at this moment:
1. korg pa or pro station
2. sonyericsson S900
3. land rover
4. rossi...haha i mean the gp tickets!
5. electric guitar
6. perfumes...i mean my fav...u should know rite?
7. scratch kit
8. rain's albums
9. saxophone
10.corona...hahaha,im 18 k!

where are u?

www.blackcurrantberries.blogspot.com would always be the first add for me to type in..any comments?i've always been wondering that..maybe some1 just read my blog and not willing to write their comments..well,itz fine...i dun really mind bout that...but of course i do hope my closer1 would just give me something...at least something please!thank you so much..i appreciate=*

.......

well,i just found out that there some people that i dunnno...perhaps i might know them who are act reading my blog!i feel weird when they drop their comments...haha!but happy too coz they act help me up by giving me those websites...helping me to expose to the world...widen my 'eyeside'..haha!
i was really happy when i saw mehdi yesterday!!!hez back with his brother...hemid!they were walking together..
feel kinda tiring coz i slept quite late yesterday nite...bangsar is always a nice place for me...and many people like to 'lepak' there,which i think so...so many well looking guys!!

hehe

kinda disappointed...i act got my guitar last friday...well,i thought that supposed to blue...but it came to me surprisingly when they showed me...from the box!itz brownish-orange....im happy coz itz foc...but i purposedly wore everything in blue...n my cutex too!!!!i shouldnt be complaining so much!!!anyway,thanx people..i really appreciate that...
anither thing that made me felt disappointed again....thomas tan n eddie were not there!!!!!i was dam boring k!luckily teacher yunice was there with me..haha!why every1 hopes to work at the very young age?i just feel that working is like a battle everyday...insults,competitions,jealousy,hesitations.....n lotz more!i just dun hope that all this things would happen in my future!if yes..how m i supposed to handle it then?im scare!!!!i dunno wut to do with all this things!!!im trying to arrange songs settings,compose songs for my musci school...trying to earn some extra income for myself...this makes me slowly expose to the outside world...and i have to try to protect myself!!!!i dun agree how they judge people...i dun agree wut they say...i dun like the way they treat each other...i just dun like it...but i have to take it!!!i know wut i want....and i'l try not to be influence by them...life is miserable when everything is not under ya control!

satisfaction

wutz the point of being at the stage..playing songs in front of the poeple that u dunno...or u might know?keyboards?guitars?drums?piano?violin?organ......etc.i think those are the commond1 in our country.do u like being at the stage....playing the song that u like instead of the audiences' fav?which would be ya choice?ya favz or others' favz?or just standing at the back of the stage..listening to ya own songs that performed by other people?which would ya choice again?i would choice the second1!and my frenz would say that im stupid....spending days n hours in doing settings and perform nothing at the stage....my parents even claimed that 'itz not worth it'!wel,of course my point of view to it would be something opposite to it...thatz why im asking u!
i enjoy being at the stage...accepting the applause from thw unknown people..that should be an enjoyment...or u may say a sense of satisfaction in life!but when u come the stage where other people are act performing ya master piece...and people are clapping their hands for ya master piece...i think thatz really the sense of satisfaction!

'hi'

whoz that?i saw some1 from far...bout a few shops distance...some1 was in red..not to say red...maroon..i think!thatz not the main point...i knew that some well looking men were walking in front of us...thatz wut came to mind at that moment!nearer....it came nearer....hez walking nearer....guess whoz it?itz my fav man-mehdi!hahahahahahahah!hez so chun in that top k!but i dun give a dare to say 'hi'...haha!so shy..hahah!

my guitar

yow!!!everyone out there...my frenz..my closed1...or people that i might not know...just wanna share with u guys that im gonna get guitar in bout 11 hours more!!!!im so dam high now k!
i hope mehdi is around today..haha!should i mention his name in my blog?wut if he just finds out some day?

surprise!

so dam angry now!i just typed out my blog n suddenly deleted the entire thing!!stupid rite..haha!
todayz title:surprise.wut do think bout this word?any ideas bout it?excitment?enlightment?sadness?
how do u feel if some1 tells u something that is unexspected?wut would be ya reaction?anyway,my fren act have her very own idea bout this word!she was saying 'Ms Poh gives me lots of surprises..' that should be grateful rite?this was wut i thought at first..but we were really got surprised when she defined her 'surprises'!her 'surprises' comes from those cost accounting questions..haha!surprises are excitements...i just like it..but of course not the sad1!if yes then it would be considered as experience that colour my life!however,it all depends on ya point of view!seeing mehdi would be a surprise for me...having distinctions in my exams would be a surprise for me...meeting rain in reality would be my wish...hahah!out of topic d!back to this k...i din see mehdi today=(...i feel boring when he always appears in front of me..but then i miss him when his not around the college!isn't that funny!?i just dun seems to appreciate when he is here n being so desperate when hez not in my life!is he gonna continue his study here?wut would be his major then?so is he gonna study as a full time student?

aaaaaaaa!!!

guess wut?!i felt scary when i found out that some1 is act reading my blog n leaving his comment..why do i blog?u might be asking that rite?i really hope to share my life with others...but some1 i know..perhaps i dunno...just knew everything!!!he knows everything!he knows bout matt,ming yow...but not mehdi..hahah!
i then read his comments...whoz this fellow?how he knows everything!?who did see me cry?itz 3 in the morning...people should be sleeping...having their own sweet dream rite?
when i keep on reading..i slowly find out this guy!itz oyster!!!!!!!my luvly oyster bro!itz kah hou with me!!!!!how could this thing happen???hez in u.s.....and he act read bout my blog!i wanna hav ya big bear hug!!!!!!why dun u email me...then we can hav our secrets on!!!!do u mis me!?u din mention that k!i wanna call u but the cost is so dam expensive!!!!howz every1 there!?is steve stil adorable like how he used to be?
im so dam glad!i wanna have u now!i dun care!

confused???

typing out the words...and keep on backspacing...cracking my mind...really running out of ideas..i feel my life so boring...eventhough i already hav my weekend planned..but i stil feel something is missing in my life!why am i revising...wasting my time...cracking my mind???i know my goal very well..but thatz not my dream!!!where goes my dream then?how am i supposed to achieve it?i know i shouldnt be asking too much..but thatz not wut i wanna hav in my life!people around me keep saying.." u r tooooo simple-minded".."the world is not as simple as u think."..."u cant survive with ya mind n those attitudes"...blahblahblah!!!!
i bet u guys should know my dream rite?i really wanna be an engineer!!!i wanna study automotive designing...i wanna work with my interest!!!! well,im studyin lcci..some accounting course...and i've tried so hard to score Ds in my exams...but i just hardly hav the 'chemistry' with the subjects...u know!

hez just gorgeous!sitting in front of me...i mean at another table with his gang..hah!how i wish justin was there with me at that moment..."u hav the skills,bro!"supposingly i should be revising my c.a..but i just couldn't make it!can some1 just calm me down???!!!im so dam high k!even thought of screaming in front of him!!!!but i knew i wont do that!

yow!

yow every1 out there...im gonna get my guitar on this friday!!!!!!itz an acoustic guitar...eventhough i would always hope to hav an electric guitar...but then im happy with that coz itz free..hahah!some1 is giving me a guitar.....im so dam excited bout that....finally...i can do it!should i attend lessons?who should i learn from?but i hva not enough money to pay him!!!!!i know!kah hou should be my teacher!!!!!!!i want something foc instead of a handsome teacher!

ice-cream!!!!

why should i buy that ice-cream?!icy grape?????stupid ice cream that made missed something precious!!!!!!he passed by the shop!!!!!!!!!and i was paying for that 2 stupid sticks!!!!!i wanna see him!!!!everybody just saw him....sharon,justin,joon saw him n i was standing in front of the cashier!!!!waiting for him to give me back the change!!!i thought of running out of the shop..."just keep the change!"..isn't that crazy?not worth it rite?

melted...

oh my god!!!!hez so dam chun k!i dun even need a breakfast anymore..haha!i should hav came on friday!!!!!!!!!!!i missed it!i should hav gone to the sports thingy!!!!why am i so lazy?!why am i so stupid?!wanna cry....aaaaaaaaaa!i want him!!!!!!!i mean i just wanna see him..maybe just talk to him..not more than that..haha!thatz already enough to drive me crazy!
white coloured t-shirt,really has shown his chest..hahah...he looks clean from the side view...simple n nice...i think hez the greatest in his gang!!!!this is just something in my point of view..my bro just told me that there r 6 of them in that gang...wowow!!!!!!nose bleedingliao...haha!

haih...

i really wanna see that!!!thanx bro!!!i could not imagine that my bro act recorded that for me..haha!he saw mehdi=(..the sad thing is i was at home..doing my revision..itz not fair!i should be given the chance to see him..im the1 who admire him k!can u just bluetooth to me??isn't that a stupid question?

happy happy day!!!!

oh gosh!!!!i saw him!!!i saw mehdi!!!!!!!!!!hez finally back to malaysia!!!!!!im so glad k!i was replying to my fren n my bro called to the lobby...wow!!!!!!!!!hez amazing k!the one that i wish to see,the one that i admire,my ideal man is just in front of me!!!!how do i feel?!melting there..haha!i really wanna scream at that moment!!!!im so dam happy coz i could shared my feelings with my two bros..haha!every1 is back..m&m..haha!u know who r they rite?!

rossi is coming!!!!!!23rd,24th n 25th sept....itz motogp!!!!!i really cant wait for it!!!!the tickets are soooooo cheap k!itz unexpectable...how could it be huh?!itz an international event k!i must watch it no matter wut happen...hahahahah!
hey every1 out there,im going to mirado this afternoon...n really hope to see eddie there..haha!

huh??

i was chit chatting with my sis in the lab...n i really saw him k!my sis did see him...it was him!!!im sure bout that k!how could they not saw him????itz mehdi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hez finally back to malaysia,back to pj,back to systematic college!i could recognised him eventhough with all his unshifted sideburns...act he has a kinda-dirty-look!but i just like it..hahah!it has been too much of surprises happened in this few days...i hardly stand it!some1 just came back last saturday..n the other1 is back now!i really got heart attacked!!!this people really killing me softly...but lee hom's forever luv would always calm me down..haha!

oh my GOD!

how could he be here!?i thought he should be busy with his business out there!wutz happening?!itz impossible!!but this thing really happened in my life..hahah!i miss him but i dun wanna see him!!!hez so 'hamsum'!!!he really makes me feel uncomfortablela!!!i was so dam glad coz im planning to shop with auntie in the afternoon..but he had destroyed my day n my mood!hez standing at my way!!please go away but i just hardly pour out those words!i dun need a guy to pay for me..i want to pay for myself!!!i can affort them k!i can affort my perfumes,my stationaries,my clothes.....i just dun need it!i hav my dignity k!i dun want that!!please dunn pay everything for me!!!!!!!!!!!i'l hate u n oso myself if u dun that!!!!stop touching my hands k!!!!i just dun like it!!kah hou...please help me!!!i want ya ears!!!i need u to guide me!!!

great day!

finally..im so dam glad!!now i could understand why eric cant leave without his laptop!i finally knew it dude!i saw them..n oso some kinda 'extra surprises' for me!i saw that guy...dressed smart,well looking mat salleh,but something really destroy his image...i saw a cigratte in between his second n third fingers!this is really sucks k!anyway,thatz not the main point for today...i saw eddie!!hez a guitarist..having his partime job there,which i think so.hez always in white..that makes him looks clean but somethingz bad behind???he smokes!!!!why guys like to smoke?cool?!relaxing?i just dun understand this!but hez really adorable when he plays guitar!!!
here comes the peak of the day...somebody dressed in white t shirt was coming in...with a white cap on....whoz that????of course i hoped itz him coz my clas wss going to start!!!standing at the doorway..talking to his teacher..'sorry,im late'...wow!wut a nice n polite guy he is!!!can i go up????i think i can bring the keyboard up rite?please!!!

confused???

nice day for me...im going to see eddie n thomas tan in bout an hour later!!!hopefully wut i wan will come true..haha!im listening to lee hom's 'xing jong de ri yue'..a very nice song sung by a talented singer..this song reminds me of the topics that we dicussed this morning...b4 clas started.my bro just confessed to his love1...touching but yet scary in my point of view!'would u like to marry me?be my soulmate?...blahblahblah!!!'this is something serious at my stage...how can their just get married at the very young stage huh?!i mean why there has to be marriage between some1 that u luv!?marriage has no freedom...which i thought at this moment...but sometimes i feel that forming a family is kinda fun... my hubby would giv everthing...with my next generations.....perhaps this is a stage that every1 has go through in their lives..haha!hav u ever asked by a 35 year-old man to get married with him??i think this is something ridiculous rite?i desired so much when i was in high school...but as long as my maturity has improved..i just feel confused bout marriage..marriage=responsibility + luv...

some1 just called me in the midnite...bout 3???i think something around that...i had thought of just rejecting the call not until i saw his name was shown at my hp screen...matt!well,i was kinda glad coz it has been a long long time i never talk to him..not knowing wutz act happening in his life now...i waited for a while b4 i picked up my hp coz my ringtone is toooo nice..haha!sharon must hav experienced that rite?his voice sounds like hez feeling down...hez tired with his battle there!i knew that..i knew itz tough for him!but i trust him..i know he can handle it!!!but i feel so 'sum thong' when he talked bout his life there..no1 can act 'help' him as if pouring out his inner feelings..no where can act allows him to do that!he has to protect hiself at all time...no1 is there to cook for him..listen to him..hez being lonely but not independent!i was felt bad when he said that=(as a fren i hope im there for him...to support him..at least i can prepare his daily meals..haha!that must a torture for him!i wanna take care of my bro!!!!!!!!i wanna be there for him!!!but i knew this would be mistake!a wrong move in my life if i really do that...no matter wut...i'l support him 4ever!i'l be there for him whenever he needs me...of course not that stage!

im 18 k!

my pc down d!!!so dam geram!!!i never on9 for a few days d!!!well,thatz not the main point that makes me wanna blog...something stupid happened last friday..i went to mv with my gang..sharon,jenn n me act wanna 'discover' something which is related to science...we act had stepped in the shop...suddenly a guy approached to us n asked for our ic!!!!stupid rite?im d 18 for bout half a year!!!!!!!!!!n my frenz even look mature...i mean they really look like adults k!i wannna go in!!!!that was my first chance to go in n hav a view of those little cutties..haha!i had this kinda experience b4 when i was f3.my cousin bros just gone in with their icz checked n left me alone outside!!!isn't that cruel?!they were really bad!!!!how could they do this to me!i waited for almost 2 years to go in n just ended up with this stupid thing!im so stupid!!!!!i never brought my ic on that day!!!!!!!how could it be!?why am i so careless
!????!!?!?!?!?!i wanna go in!im 18 k!