sorry!

i was so dam pissed off with themla..i mean should be himlo!t.t..chicken hunter..should be chicken runner!!he has the idea..i knew it but why cant he just say it out?!i would totally support his idea rather than adrianz one.i was really angry with thatlo..we just had compromised last friday bout the song and i thought that he was supposed to be the organiser of tat song..who knows everything is just not under his control.why is shap not here?!?im sure he would have told adrian bout the idea!!but i was kinda over too coz i said hez a chicken!!am i bad!?i hope he dun understand but i could it from his face!!i think he should be dam angry with it...so question is:should i apologise to him?this is my first choice..i cant stand with it..i just feel like saying sorry to him but wut if he just dun understand??i dun feel like explaining every word in front of him!"thomas...sorry" would be tough enough to pour out from my mouth!my sis just ask me stand tough and dun bother bout it..well,i just feel that my heart kinda bitter n sour if i dun apologise to him!wut if he dun accept it?wut should i do then?i hope we can build up some chemistry between us and oso among the team members so that it wont be so suffering!i hope to enjoy the jaming session with them but it seems so tough!wut should i do??im feeling bad!i hope he can read my blog..or maybe accidentally read it so to let him knows that im not bad to him..itz just becoz of adrian!im so XXX him!!!i hope he knows it!sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!