back n red

im sitting in da pc lab..feeling so dam boring!!!i feel like crying...for wut??i think itz meaningless to mention it out!

somehow,i jus feel like i've being so lost in my life..bad things are happening every moment in life n i do nothing to it!wut i can do is jus pray hard...listen to them....everything sounds like drama...n i think it only happens in the scripts...n espress in form of movies,series,plays...etc. who knows the 'drama' is happening in real life!recently i jus heard many sad cases happening n i jus cant give them a hand!i feel so sad!!i believe in fate...n everything has been arranged by GOD!i believe in that...i really feel like giving him a punch(i mean my cousin in law)!!!!im so disappoited towards him!!i hate him..i thought hez the right one for my cousin!!i put him a trust though he sounds naive at that time...he has convinced me by the way he treats my cousin...i was so happie cos my cousin has finally found her right one!who knows things are even worse than the 'drama'!my cousin couldn't have been hurt so deeply if we refused to agree the marriage at that time!perhaps.we have destroyed her life!i love my cousin so much,i've been hoping things to be fine in her life all this while..i might be impossible for them to last forever,but at least please dont hurt her in such a way!hez being too inhuman...how could he being so cruel n brutal to my cousin???don't they have love each other though divorving is making them being aprt???he has no moral at all!he has lost his mind!!!i couldn't picture that!!perhaps this is the other of him!!n the true colour of him is black n red!