im laughing when im crying...hahah!

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first of all,i would like to tell mun that they is invigilator but then she has to take care of too many ppl,thatz why they cant bother too much...thatz why they have chance to come n asked me questons cos i was sitting outside at the stairs n waited for my frens...sharon,do u think im daring??i dun noe wut shud i do...but i just thought of helping my frens...but of cos i wont make myself to get into trouble...

anyhow,im kinda in a trouble now!!!!i need u guys to help me out of my prob!!!i need ya opinions!!!tatz really important to me...i've keep reminding myself...just trust myself!!!but sometimes the enviroment will just influence me...wut they say will always influence my point of view definitely!tat makes me feel worry bout it!wel,i think i may start my story now...

i just finished my exam..my very first sub of the course,i was really happie cos it was fine to me...i was supposed to be very happie for the day cos everything seems to be perfect for the day!i've got all my frens here,i've got the one that i like to send me a msg,i thought i would be really excited for the whole day!!but this didnt last long!i knew something unpleasant might going to happen this week since i was really happie last friday...this really came to be a truth.i saw my fren,D n we talked..i asked him,since he has turned to be so differ recently,as a fren,i would always concern bout their conditions,he told me his prob..which i was really happie to it since hez willing to share with me:
"he met this gal few months ago..shez from hong kong...they have good feelings towards each other n turned to be a couple lately....but shez kinda moody in treating him....that makes him feel like dying!he hardly concerntrate on his study...n his examz on during the week...many of his frens have been trying to consult him since they are worried bout him!i noe hez a very serious person in dealing with relationship....he was really unhappie n tend to walked around...he went to mid valley at last...after that,he wanted to see this gal,we therefore called n asked her whether shez around at home or not...n she said yes,but when he saw her with another guy in the house watching some kinda drama!!"

i was really pity him n tend to give him a hug as a fren..he just warned me not to do so cos H was there,i thought he knew tat i fancy him........but the fact is not!HE is the SHE!!!!!my mind was blanked at that moment!i was confused!!"will u prejudice me?" D asked me.hez a gay n the partner is H!!!!!!how could it be???i feel like crying even im just typing out here!of cos i've nv treat them differently cos i dun really mind bout it..but why is this happening to me?D told me H was the one who started everything..he was the one that asking him to have a relationship...of cos i wont believe rite?we then went up n eh showed me some 'evidence'!both inboxes are fulled with the msgs sent by H to D!n the there is one word keep appearing in every msgs..'honey'...yucks!!!!!!!!!!i really couldnt stand it n my tears just dripped off!"i just wake up,i'l call u later!honey!"..."where are u?honey!im feeling hungry..how bout u?"..i cant even type it out!!how could he?my heart just broke off....n D just knew that i like H too!!but some one just told them that i like D..n tatz why he dun bother bout me when i talk to him!n the worst thing was that we even had lunch togather!they have no idea that i knew this....i was trying to act as normal...just talked to eric as usual..n i was so dam angry with eric!H n him are good frens,but he has being so supportive to me to approach H!!wut has he trying to do huh?"i treat u as my best fren, n see how u have treat me!"i hinted to him..i didnt dare to say out since H was there,until when we finished the lunch n both of us talked bout this.."why are u doing this to me?cant u see them being togather?why are u keep supporting me to do so?"i questioned him."u think they are gay?i can guarantee u...for sure not!i dun treat my fren so nicely if hez a gay!"he told me confidently.how am i not supposed to believe it?the evidence just persuading me to believe it!i hardly put a trust on them since then,not even eric!i found them to be too tricky!

i went to library n revised with my gang..i just hardly concerntrate..itz like a drama n the day havent end yet...my fren noticed me n we went to have a talk...she listened to me n i cried out when telling her...i was trying to get rid of it..later on we went to have an ice cream,someone wave to me n asked to have a talk..itz D!he told me that H din reply his msg,H din go back to his own house,he has suspected him to be gather with eric..hahaha!!tat shud be something funny man!hez so suspicious!i then called eric n asked where is he now...hez at home,he thought that i dwas crying n consulted me..n Ddun dare to call H!they asked me wut had i talked to eric...i just told them..i din noe that this has brought a bigger trouble to A!they thought that eric would have told H bout this...which makes Hrefused to bother bout D!i felt even guilty bout that,n msg eric.."will u promise me,if not i'l hate u forever,i'l never forgive u for that,im serious k!"it took me a long time to type out cos i was writting it in chinese..haha!"i dun know why?can u tell me?wut did i do to make u so?"...i was feeling so guilty bout it!!i intended to give him a call.."wut we have said just to be kept between us k!tatz all i wan it to be...i dun hope other parties will know bout it..i dun wan other ppl to be involved..."i was really rude to him on the phone.my gang was so surprised by me!i was really angry with him though he might not have told H bout it!i felt that he cant be trusted!i then went home..Dcalled me n we talked for a long time,they apologised to me where they felt they have being rude to me..i dun mind cos i really felt bad for it!throught the conversation with him,i discovered something,D is kinda suspicious with H,n the relationship sounds unsteady,or u may say that H is trying to get rid of him!