i've won since i have u guys~

it began with a good day,ended up with a bad day..

but one thing i noe i've won..which is friendship which gives me a strong feeling of supports from my gang..i really love u guys...those ppl,i so glad and blessful of knowing u guys..i love u guys and i appreciate the friendship..which i hope wil never fade...and not going to fade..

even my lovly dear dear would give me kisses and hugs although we are miles away..although we are being apart from each other..but i could feel how much she cares for me..wut a great fren that GOD has brought to me..and not to be forgotten...my gang,they are such nice persons to give me supports and advice..and even listen to me as i have no where to pour out my feelings...they allow me to turn to them...im glad to hav them!


noe wut?sometimes i really have 2 sided behaviour...i really have no idea wut to do..whether i shud carry on and fight for it...or jus choose to give up everything...perhaps ppl might say that im being irresponsible if i do this...but wutz more can i do then?it'l be more worth it if there are ppl to fight the battle along with me..im keep asking myself wutz the point of continuing all this shit??for my own fame?for the club?but i dun seems like enjoying music,but more on management or human politics..wutz the point?is this the main reason that i'd join the club?no~~wut i wan is jus to play music..to produce music with a gang of ppl...to enjoy music!but wut it has turn to be is so much different from my expectation..i realised how stressful i've been after being part of the BOD..perhaps u might say that im behaving as how a loser behaves..escaping or giving in whenever there is hardships or probs...somehow,i alwis make my mind up in thinking in different perspective which may make me feel better..''this is jus some kinda hardships to train myself up...im jus leveling in my life...learning to be tougher and stronger from day to day..itz a good time for me to learn the other side of the society at coll time so tat i'l get more used to the egoism of the real society...it may help me and teach me many things through the experiences.....''

however, it questions me on why shud i to been through all this at my edu time since isnt it the time for me to enjoy my study life?jus let it be when comes to career stage..im really struggling in wut shud i do now..