simplicity brings perfection!

this guy is making to confusion...

even i get confused with my own feelings..when i tend to smile to him,he seems so cool to me...when im forcing myself to be calm down and not to bother so much...he tends to arise my feeling again...seriously i have no idea bout wut is playing around in guys mind!i got tired of it..i jus wanna have simplicity in life...i dun wanna think too much ...complixite things...making it to get worsen..i jus wan something pure...but sometimes itz hard to get in reality...oni in movie!i hope i'l get wut i wan ...something less than complication...something more than perfection,something simple!

sometimes,i really wanna confess to him...are u feeling the same as how i feel?i really wanna noe the answer,perhaps there isnt any answer,jus tat i've been thinking too much ...rich imagination on wutz happening around me...maybe im too free and have nothing to do...tatz why my mind has been non stop thinking of the rubbish!

i feel so boring staying at home...i've got wut i wan finally though,i tot i would be happie and satisfied,but this is not the fact!the fact is i wanna have my space and freedom...whether is with my gang or not..i think i need to travel...either with someone or jus by myself!i wanna see the world...wutz act happening outside there..something tat is wating for me to discover..i really envy wut my other frens have...i really hope to have my freedom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i wanna have myself...i dun have anything nice to be kept in my memory...nothing much to write in the listed diary!i really hope to get to experience the fun and joys of wut i wan!i really desire it...and i think i deserve it!cos itz human rights!

during freetime,i even tot of how shud i be an ideal parent if provided i have kids in future..i'l nv treat them like how im eexperiencing now...make frens with children instead of parenting them....im sure i might be good parent if i do have the chance in future!hope this day wil come!!

the first time ever to feel "close" from him..

act it wasnt really close in the sense,but we jus talked bout the bands,singers,artists...and i think he really has the skill to hold the clients back huh...but i hope this wasnt his objective..i hope he really wanna teach me as a student..but i really enjoyed the lesson today!it was dam fun !!!i like it so much!!cos itz my style...back to my style...i love tat kind of music...i love tat kind of oomph!i jus love it~and itz so nice to have lessons...oni today..hahahha!i mean previously was found to be kinda boring...cos hez a boring person...but we really talked today...as in really have some kinda discussion...but i found something funny...where i like those tat he dislike...kakakkakaka!sorry la..i really like their songs...nice ma!different taste lo...we listen to different accompaniment..so different preference lo!kakaka!and i finally realised the fun of playing drums...the joy of jaming...itz dam high man!!!!nokidding!!!

no turning back...no regrets!

no one else but you
to be the one that has been stunning shimmering in front of me
and never gonna get you out of mind

no one else only you
to be the one i've thinking of
everyday and every night
and any second anytime
in my life

written and composed by cheong shiaw lee..;p

this is oni the chorus part..can u imagine i act wrote him a song?wow,even the same thing happened...but the inspiration wasnt strong enough for me to jus turn on the recorder,had the guitar on the hand,and jus strummed out...somehow, it might sounds a little imperfect as compared to a recorded song by the singer...but itz my masterpiece k!!!this song expresses my feelings,my obssession towards him!!!!and i've thinking of the silly stuffs all the time...im so worry that i might be seeing him one day holding someonez hand,probably his gf..but i couldnt picture if he holds a guyz hand,which possibly a bf!or maybe he already married with another woman,and have kids...im so worry this day wil come...i jus think that i couldnt stand it!and this is the first person that makes me feeling in this way...where i have much worries,imaginations,stupid thoughts...etc.he makes me melt off onto him..as in i think i have fallen deeply into this guy...no turning back...no regrets!somtimes i jus feel myself so sick in mind..even i knew itz gonna be likely impossible to happen..but i jus like him!!!and i keep thinking of him...even a bunch of keys has cause me to think for tonnes of possible reasons!!!i jus couldnt control myself from thinking of him!itz so crazy man!!so scary....i couldnt believe tat my feeling is getting stronger from day to day!!!OH NO!!!

5 months time...

this is why i feel so comfortable to blog out here...since none of my frens is reading it..blah!

i may like to announce here that i let go gavin lai jor!!!!!kakakak!a feeling got to me ytd..that asking me to dislike him,perhaps someting that annoyed me..i really dun und wut was i so adore to him...perhaps his outlooking is charming..but there are others who are much better than he is out there..perhaps he plays guitar..but i dun think hez the best..even my bro can play better than him...perhaps he has his personality shines,but there are even ppl who behaves much better like kai...etc!kaka...i got all his bad things after i've listed im in the recycle bin!yeah!seriously i felt real good..itz something like u release something from ya hand,or u release a anchor from a ship,flying up the sky in an aeroplane,having a nice scuba dive,having a nice taste of red wine...somhow i jus cherish this moment!the feeling cam to me in a sudden...n it was kinda increadible..i tried so hard to let go previously,but jus one second,it did!and everything was like wut it was supposed to be in the past. someone new wil come to my life...this is wut i hope for...kaka!!furthermore, i was pretty surprised that the person that i miss to leave here is wilson!hez lect from my coll who teaches computing classes..hez not old,come on!and im so adore to him...in which imnot gonna see him anymore after shifting to the new campus!im sooo upset with it...surprisingly im kinda happie for not seeing gavin!kakak!i dun think he treats me even as a fren,i jus think that itz so sucks!why shud i stil keep admiring someone who treats me so suck up?no point of being in that way..perhaps a normal fren wil be better!i dun care whether he likes me or not..but the fact is i dun like him...n i dun have the heart for him anymore!kekek!i dun bother anymore wut he has done to me,wut hez goin to do to me,wut heztrying to do to me..wut he'l do to me!it'l nv influence me...my reply wil be ''oo,,ok''!tatz all for him!

bad v good

really feel like bloggin last night but my modem got prob!!sob sob !

stayed wit no msn,no blogging,no surfing the internet...n finally i realised how important pc n internet in life!anyway...something sad n something good happened ytd...

letz begin with the sad thing...somehow,i jus felt not good when seeing them chatting n laughin there..but weirdly i jus couldnt get along with it...i jus feel that there a gal between me n them!i jus dun feel like forcing myself to laugh or looks happie but feel stupid in heart!perhaps i dun even give it a try to get along wit them...perhaps this is my fault!but the intention is not there anymore....n i think my attitude wil nv force me to do that!!lack out!!!!!i jus dun hope the day wil come to have no conversation...no topic...jus silence!!but i would say im starting to dislike his attitudes...hmmm,i dun agree with the ways he is,but this wouldnt be my business rite?somehow i jus feel disappointed towards him....n kept asking myself how could have i fallen into him even it was oni for 3 days long?stupid me!i felt ashame!!hez totally out of my world!!

another good news is...i saw him!at first i tot it would be a tough task for me to get along with him!it happened though where i really felt harsh to see his facial expression replied to my HI!but i kept telling myself not to expect much from him...cos itz surely impossible.....try to control my feelings n emotions!not to fall sooooo deeply into him til i hurt myself!somehow,i jus felt tat it was the happiest part for the day to chil with them!i hope everything will be fine from day to day!

itz early in the momrning..and im feeling somewhat...kinda weird...itz likedunno wutz happening in life....i jus feel like dun talking at all...as in i have no mood to talk to him...anyhow,i dun wana this situation to getting serious til we have no topic to talk bout...but sometimes it seems like i dun the intentionto even say hi to him!!i dun like this feeling...itz soooo cold!!

anyway,i got kinda confused when chatting with my frens ytd night...hmm...she jus asked me who is my current target?huh??i dun even noe whoz my target....perhaps im clear with myself...jus tat i dun wanna admiteit,...perhaps im kinda interested into him...buit then i sholud have fall in love with such a person....but wut to do....i dun wanna like him anymore..but whenever i close my eyes...he tends to appear in fonr tof him!im sooooo geram wiht his attitudes...how could he treat ppl in this way????DAM IT!!!!but at the asme time, i kept asking myslf why shud i bother so much bout him?somehow,,,itz jus a pain kille rfor me to mention tt all this time.

''sum tham''!!!!

it simply means frustrating or disappointing in canto..i would say that what am i to him?perhaps not even a fren..but i felt really pissed off when i saw him sitting and having fun in the room..i mean not being jealous or what..but i tot he was supposed to be bz with his coursework since he has gotto submit it this week...he even decided to cancel the lessons...or even no more guitar club or lessons at all.....but why has he to do in this way...without inviting us?perhaps he jus wanna have his own gang with him...but isit it irresponsible?i mean he was the one who started off in inviting us to join the club..and hez the one who asked to stop the class...wut shud i express to him?

furthermore, i even feel embarrasing and frustrating to have pumped into such a guy!!!i dun even bother to ask him since he has treated us in this way!somehow,i jus felt that he has nv treated us as his frens ever!no point of asking a question where the answer is predictable...i jus think that everything has gone meaningless at tat point!furthermore, i jus feel that he has made my to feel annoyin towards wut he has done!i dun hope this will happen cos i dun wanna let myself to love in hatre or anger...i really hope to treat him as fres..but i think it maybe a tough task to me!

confused!!

sometimes,i'l inquire myself whether or not i have good feelings towards this guy?or whether or not i have pumped into this guy?somehow,i jus think that situation wil be lessly complicated if the person is a gal!i mean i wouldnt have thought that i got fall in love the person when im missing a gal fren..in fact, i would ask myself do i act fall in love with this person if hez a guy!therefore,i do think itz the gender problem that cause me think sophisicatedly....perhaps i do have the same feeling towards gals..but jus that i'l think in detail if the same thing happen on guys!however, there may be situation where im sure that i really love this guy!the feeling is jus unique whereby nothing will come before him!ya mind appears nothing except him!but there may be no return though u have sacrifice much!but isnt it love to where i sacrifice for nothing but to love him!?wel, i do consider it as my perception...somehow,it may sounds foolish!

anyway,i found myslef kinda dumb or numb to feel wut happening around!perhaps im trying to not to feel?or im not good in getting the sense or signals!even someone may consists to have confessed to me..but i couldnt get anything!i personally think itz a big prob!i really dunno how to sense it!but hopefully itz not the bad thing!!

btw,i think i have seen him almost everyday...though itz not too long..perhaps jus a hi or bye...but the intention to seek for him..to just have a view of his face is alwis there!it happens to be funny that i miss him when hez not around..but i tend not to appreciate him when hez in front of me!i try not to display wutz in my mind on the facial expression..i wouldnt wan him to noe that i got good feelings towards him either...somehow,i jus feel that he noes something...n trying to prevent it from happenin..which i think itz a good thing!cos i dun wan all this to happen...sometimes,these makes me feel scare or afraid to approach him!perhaps i jus wan to remain as good fren or even bro n sis with him so tat i stil have him!!

wutz happening into me????

i had been crazy over this weekends..kept thinking on wutz he to me.why shud i concern bout wut he has done to me...how he has treated me??why shud i bother bout all this????the more i concern, the more often i think bout him...n this is sooo gonna drive me crazy!

the feeling is somewhat,in fear to see him or even meet him up..before i got out of the door heading to my college in the noon,i kept praying for not to see him...cos i'l feel somehow stress up whenever seeing him or dealing somethings that related to him!but i was soooo shocked that the first person i saw when i pulled the glass door was him!i tried to head down n jus passed by by walking straight to the cw department...when i found no one was there, i turned back n intended to walk to the pc lab...and i saw him again,he asked me to attend the guitar lesson tmr n saying that nadicson will be there too...shit wei!i was kinda pissed when i got the news!!after a long,i jus went out of the class when during break time,saw him..the same feeling arouse..i jus walked over there since kwung was there..then jus chitchatted for a while...it started off nicely..but ended up quarrelling...though itz nothing much serious..but why we tend to quarrel everytime over some small matters?the feeling is soooooo not nice!somehow itz kinda hurtful...even feel like sayin sorry to him..but i wont!

why is he to be so influencial in my life?

i love my frens...they are appreciable to me!they'd done something tat really surprised me,made me laughed,happie,excited,even wanna cry out!i really wanna hug each of u guys!!i'l rmb u guys in my life....promise!

anyway,i gotta noe something bout this guy..i jus felt frustrated towards him..i mean wut can a fren do for ya birthday...jus a wishing will make it jus nice to me!i think he knew bout it..perhaps he was jus too exhausted with his assignments..perhaps he was jus too tired for the day..or negatively maybe he might have jus dislike me...but i was pretty upset..he saw me..i appeared to be standing in front of him..i even walked there n talked to him..but why had he to treat me like that?he seemed to have treated me as no one was there...cant u jus picture the situation how harshly it was?i told myself not to feel tat anymore..not anymore..i even cried during the class.i jus felt how stupid i was to have cried for such a person..who nv cares...itz pain!

im 20 today!!!!wut i hope huh?

world peace..
happie family...
happie edu..life...
of cos not to be forgotten....my prince charming!!kaka

anyway,i saw him ytd..he looks exhausted...seems like he has been stress up with his assignments...and he said the submit date for the cw has changed to be earlier...i was pretty 'sum thong' when seeing him like that...but kinda geram cos he rather went to GENTING than finish up his cw...so kinda padan muka!but i see him like that...really feel soo pityful to him..really hope to be at his side...give him support!hope everythinh will be fine in ya life...dude!

hmmmm....

hihi!!itz been ages for me not blog here...

apparently i've been blogging at friendster, furthermore jus felt lazy to log in here..somehow i tot of deleting this,but this blog has kept all the memories with tt..so im not gonna do tat!many things had happened in this few months...itz year 2007 now...wow!!

met many ppl...get to noe them better..the better one wil be closer now..perhaps the closer ones may becoming further now...

kai-i knew him since 2005, we studied LCCI togather,but i nv get to noe him better tat time cos i had my gang!but we are really best frens now..noe wut?i found myself to have pumped into him..hmmm,jus for some moment..perhaps the feeling has gone..kaka!hez a nice guy,responsible,i admire the way he treats others,he'l nv promise u if he noes that he cant do it!i appreciate him as my fen...but sometimes i jus find myself to be jealous when hez treating other better than me!isnt it weird?i dun consider it as pumping into someone...jus sometime confuse bout it..somehow i may also feel the same thing if hez a gal...rite?

simon-this guy is awesome,in the sense hez charming in his way!he has his personality clear..im adore to his style!i love his personality!noe wut?i saw him in 2005,where i was studying LCCI n hez doing multimedia.my first impression towards him was-such a gurlish boy!but i gotta noe him last year,or even better this year!we act came from the same primary schoool...OH NO!itz all fated!kakak!i was kind adored to him at first cos he tends to be soo tempting!but sooner or later,when i get closer to him,i jus wan everything to remain at the current position,perhaps itz pleased to have such a fren!u'l melt off with his eye contact..hez absolutely a killer to girls!with his nice deep vocal and his eyes...wow!gorgeous!

gavin-hahah..i was kinda crazy bout him when the time he sang at the dinner n dance..perhaps thing tat happen seldomly will seems to be appreciable n precious..but when u get to approach to it frequently,then it'l be something ordinary!i was kinda excited when there were any opportunity for me to approach him..but it'l be different story when it happened to be true!im currently attending his guitar classes...sometimes feel kinda enjoying,but sometimes are jus so-so!why?i dunno....sometimes may really melt on his singing n playing..but mostly end up with an 'out-of-tune' bang!somehow,this makes me to be awake!!kakak!

evert-knew him last year...everyone thinks that i got pumped into him cos of his physical appearance...kakka!somehow i gotta communicate with him cos we were in a group for the performance..furthermore itz nice to have someone who is on the side of u!same interest perhaps!we like playing guitar..the classical?or electric?the jaming?wow!!!tatz y i have topic with him!itz nice to talk to him cos u'l see him with a smile everytime!wow...u'l feel happie n please to see such a person!it warms ya heart even u have tonnes of stressful workloads with u!i stil feel tat moment was sweet...when u were alone sitting with nothing to do,and decided to sms him...but wit no reply..somehow he just appeared in front of u surprisingly!though itz someting simply..isnt it simple the best?i like this..
..thomas tan??nothing to talk on him cos he'l alwis have a position in my heart!but just full of inquiries...love

happie birthday to Ms Vicky!

lotz to blog...gotta take my time..

my parents brought to have breakfast,and i told my dad that my class starts at 10 before that.who noes when i was jus finished my breakfast n jus to get into the car,my msg tone beeped...fengyun asked me didnt i noe there is a class now!OH NO!seriously i dinnolo!i was kinda nervous but wutz the point rite..cos i was at sri petaling,it takes me bout 30 mins to get back to coll!anyway,i was stil considered early since i reached coll at 9.45,if my class starts at 10la..kakka!anyway,costing...i thought i could cope up with it easily...and the fact is true!kakak..sounds arrogant!?i discovered that yuen likes to play a fool with me or joke with me now!hmmm..he alwis saying n doing the opposite of me!itz soooo obvious!sometimes, i dun even noe that im being angry with him...but stil laughing like hell..kakka!hez funnyla...but he got sick..poor dude!my mind wasnt in the classroom cos i found myself dreaming..kakk!not with tt...but a korean actor..kakka!i've got crazy bout him!
anyway,after that we had lunch togather..and revised later!lok n that gang was praticing a scatch for a wedding night specially dedicated to their lect-Mr Eddie!the story is bout the couple!!n i think this is so sweet cos the groom is preparing this surprise for the bride!OH NO!such a sweet guy!i dreamed for a moment when seeing them practised!i wonder how would i wan my ideal wedding night to be huh!?playing a song written by him n singing it with a guitar!?i hope he'l be a romantic personlol!!wait,i dun even have a bf now...kakak!evert was dancing so smoothly where he was demostrating the female part to a gal...so gentle!kkakak!n lok sounds funny when they were trying to be the aid to sem!after fengyun went off,we went for dinner.hmmm...had a short conversation with them before goin home to have a bath!

i was late to the church...everyone was sitting on the floor,n this is the first time for me to join their REAL events!eugene jus got me a place...n this part was act to share ya thoughts,feelings,activities that are happening recently in life.well,im stil not willing to share..then i jus told them im stressful from my preparation for the exams.after then they prayed for us,for the preparations of X'mas,the exams,health...n we received blessings from them!then there was a scatch prepared by some members as an opening and oso for us to laugh after a whole day of tiring and stressful work!then began to sing some workship songs!i was truely shocked here!cos wan theng,fengyun ,chunlee, and me are not christians, but we til enjoyed the songs since there was a live band there..so we jus sang!but wut i saw was different.....i looked around..lok,nadicson and some of them were so 'near' to GOD!they seemed to have closely connected to GOD!i was speechless when i turned my head to look at simon!!he seemed to have give himself to GOD!i was taken aback wit him!however,my concerntration was on bryan!hez the elect guitarist here,jus reminds me of tt!anyway,he plays well!bible time!perhaps i was new,so therez much thing which i dunno!but we jus sat togather,i din really listen to wut he said in front...so when he pray for us...or giving blessings to us..i felt kinda guilty!cos i din do anything for them...yet they stil pray for us!somehow,i jus asked GOD to forgive me for not being as a follower to HIM,i jus asked for forgiveness for everything that i've done...at the same while they were praying!u must have inquiring why did i go since i nv join REAL all the while...wel,the main point here was Ms Vicky!!i go there for the celebration of her birthday!and oso not forgotten to eat the cake!kakkak!everything seemed to be nice...n she likes our present too!itz act a photo frame where she can put 10 pics at the same time!i did insert all our photos taken togather with her!
chat n laugh....play!tatz all for the day!

perhaps im not used to attending events or activities like this...perhaps im not a socialable person...perhaps i not religious enough..perhaps im not respectful enough...perhaps im not open minded enough...i believe therez a GOD with us all the time...

another thing was...i discovered that bro fall into LT!i was kinda geram at first..not that jealousy has arose...itz jus that sem is putting much effort onto her...n now hez doin something...wel,u noe i have no rights in talking bout it..perhaps they'l jus compete..but i'l stand at semz side for this time!cos when i saw the way he talked to her,hmmm,sounds a little kinda fake!i dun mean hez fake or pretending..but jus not the ordinary one!whereas sem is jus being shy...

my ring!

yea!!!finally i got it back here...

tell u wut?tat day i was so frustrated wit the prob to log in here...i needed so much to blog out..but then i couldnt log in..so i intended to blog at friendster..however, blogger.com is more preferable...cos i hardly pour out everything there....especially secrets..kaka!so letz continue here...

recently im watching two korean series..im so crazy with them!'My Girl' and 'Wedding'..wel,i watched My girl before but since my sis bought it for me...then i jus watch in the car....while channel 18 is broadcasting 'wedding'...hmmm!!im so so so into both actors in both series!OH NO!there are awesome!!!my type!!kakkaka!though not super duper handsome..but i really love them!
yaya...i went to Ikeano power centre today...and something happened makes me feel sad!i lost a ring!!!!!!!!OH NO!my frens gave it to me when my birthday...itz act two rings and can be combine into one....i spilted into two n wore them on different fingers!who noes!!sad!they bought it since based on my starscope!im soooo sad!!!!how could it be!?i searched for a while..but really have no idea where did i lost it!!i realised when i was queing up at the cashier!OH NO!how could i be sooo slow!??haih!!can i have it back!!!????sad!itz not bout the price,....itz meaningful in the sense!shitla!i wonder where can i get the same thing!!!!!!but itz meanigless!!!!!!

wouldnt it be surprising to continue after a long time?supposingly i would be excited to share with u guys bout my experience bout the D&D..anyway, somethings and someone makes me dun feel like bloggin out, or even thought of collapsing this blog as well!anyhow,i wont cos this blog is meaningful to me!i really hope to remain this..
anyway,many things happening continuously,firstly i got my D&D,unexpectably that we stil get together and have fun though the performance had over...but the friendship is stil there...somehow, i jus dun feel like joining YA,perhaps im not their kind!as in im not as socialable as them..i do enjoy goin out or yum cha with them..but not those events!letz talk bout last week,someone called me up n intended to say nothing!who could it be?the first person i thought was him-kah hou!nonetheless, i jus couldnt give it a dare to make the second call!itz pointless if he jus answer me reluctantly!i dun wanna him to talk to me like how he used to be previously!itz pain!i cried almost half of the day..serious!i couldnt control myself!i was trying my best to stop crying,but the tears jus dripped off so naturally...my mind was filled with the memories we used to be together,we used to have fun...wel,everything has over!
this monday,i went to red box to celebrate semz birthday!i tot it would be dam dam dam boring at first cos we dinno each other well!i was so not in the mood in the morning cos cws not done yet...stil gotta have fun with them!but i was kinda shocked when feng yun had got into fire...she was soo angry since the guys were not punctual...but how could she angry the birthday boy?i jus think that itz not rite to spoilt everyonez mood...though she thinks that the guys are to be blamed!shouldnt celebration be happie!?anyway,thanks lokie cos he was trying to let me to sing with evart!kakak!my face gone red like a tomato k!anyway,he has a nice vocal!hez jus awesome..talented,brilliant,.....such a nice guy!wutz less than blowing off 19 candles and giving the gifts during celebration...i got sooo fed up with this...since the same thing happened last monday at red box but that was sunway pyramid...n this was the curve!i felt sooo dam sien!why cant the celebration be kinda outstanding!?perhaps this is the culture of celebrating birthday among the coll students!and some kinda birthday celebration is gonna take place the day after tomoro!wut can i do?how can i reject!?can i jus go there n sit...can i jus talk nothing cos i have nothing to say excluding happy birthday!i miss the harmony,i miss sitting down chatting with my dears,i miss jaming,i miss chattin in the blues,under the stars and moon,with a glass of wine in the hand...laying on the huge n soft pillow,talking heart to heart,with laughters and tears,i jus missing it!somehow, i jus dun like to have a big gang cos there would have no chance to share the inner feelings!or u may jus say..couple!but sometimes not necessary to be that stage,perhaps a fren is enough!suddenly i jus feel that those celebrations would jus blow my mind off!i cant be celebrating like them..isnt it important to see the numbers of ppl coming to celebrate with u!?isnt it the greater the better!?buying cake?having a birthday song?isnt it the normal thing that we usually do?can it be something extraordinary!?gift....the valuable one will alwis be the best!?i think a hug n greeting would jus simply melt off!something which is meaningful...a poem on a card?a song written by yourself?why do ppl alwis evaluate the price of the gift!?isnt it priceless?!

before.....

finally the night has spotted out our hard work...

the annual dinner and dance had jus over ytd night...finally got some time to have a good rest!we were really tired since rushing here and there through out the whole day long..morning class till break, fengyun and me went off the class n joined them to prepare our hairstyle..though itz not as nice as the loreal one..at least we dun have to crack our mind for the hairstyle!after that eugene fetched me back to coll and i did accompanied my gang to have lunch but i couldnt since i passed my wallet to fengyun!later, i went to the library to search for the law reference books...and went home to bring the keyboard to eastin hotel!by 2.30,we were there for the practice and everything till the night!i was feeling kinda bored in the morning where i act sms my dear!how could it be cos itz the day where we're gonna show our master piece...our smiles...and everything!i tried to relax my emotions n things seemed going fine!after getting the rooms, we went up n had a rest...played poker cards..nice!after that,we did went down and had a short practice section again...but this time i felt really really pissed n bored cos the Djs had jus reached the hotel n doing the settings...we couldnt do anything...but edwart was busy with the slides...kakka!sounds funny man!but we did find something to do..playing with the flowers,candles,singing,dancing,laughin around...but Ms vicky seemed nervous but we were jus fooling around!itz almost 5.30 and we act had an hour time for us to bath and set up everything for the D&D!!back to the room,everyone was rushing...bathing,make ups,dress...kakakka!anyway, it was real fun!putting on mascara,eyeliner,eyeshadows,lips,glitters,perfume,etc!but the gals were kinda late...n the guys din wait for us!we went down by 7.30..but the dinner began at 8.05..so it didnt matter to be late!the guys were normal,but necdecson was kinda 'cool'..i think he must had invested a large sum of money into that!btw,simon n edwart were jus simple and nice!

to be continued....i hope to upload some pics here!

wutz life!?

somehow,i feel nothing but strange to him...

wel,we seem to be closed to one and another..he tells me bout his family,feelings,relationship..i tot i would have met someone really nice n true at first..tatz why we are like bro n sis...but sooner or later, i realised something,therez a one-way-frenship where i will forever be the listener..i noe itz good n excellent to lend a ear to ya fren when they need me...but i jus feel relunctant to pour out my thoughts, my feelings,instead i jus keep inside n goes on with his prediction...sometimes,im not feeling as wut he has say,but i dun intend to explain or even tell him the truth cos i think this is my personal things where im given a choice to share with whoever i wan!i feel bad cos this is gonna be so lame n mean to treat a fren like this...cos this might hurts him as in i dun hope he'l noe my this blog!kakakk!anyway,i'l jus keep listening to him...whenever he tells me staff!cos i do think he treats me as fren so im not gonna take the bad way towards him!

basically i would crack my mind of getting wut kinda gift for m frenz birthday..or thinking wut kinda surprises for them...surprisingly i thought of getting my courseworks done instead of thinking where to celebrate with him...i dun feel like doing that cos itz not truely from my heart...i mean i dun intend to send him even a msg..but i did wished him last night!i thought of getting him a card n send it to his letterbox...but i dun feel like walking all the way from coll to his house!i thought that itz a wasted of time..i went to library n searched for some facts!i felt myself sooo weird as in im thinking that hez soo different from the ppl i met all the while!i mean my frens are sooo differnt from him..or u may say them!i dun really like to mix with such a gang...though i noe they are nice ppl ..but jus not style..i dun like ppl to cheat during exams!i dun like ppl to behave in this way!i shudnt be complaining cos no one is perfect..but they are jus sooo different from my gang!i really cant compare them with my gang cos they are soo ''root''!though barry comes from hk,but wutz da point even he doesnt noe how to respect others!?ivy is a nice gal..but we hardly have topics cos somehow i think we have age gap...perhaps im not at their stagelol!!he doesnt seem to be a student..wutz da point of buying all the certificates!?wutz da point of cheating in the exams!?wutz da point of studying in class?!wutz da point of doing all this in life!?why cant he jus rely on himself!?therez not point in paying other ppl to get the courseworks done!i dun like it!itz useless to get such a degree!

one more thing i would like to mention here...i dislike netherson!i really feel annoyed with himla!wutz da purpose of brining his tux here!?i mean why has he to bring it up!?i really dun und!to show off to his frens!?perhaps im not really familiar with him...but i do found him pretty weird some ways!i dun really like his behaviours in treating others...i dun care whether hez from a wealthy family or not...the oni thing i feel irritated is his attitude!i jus dun like it!hez sooooo perculiar!i really dun wanna talk to him sometimes..as in i dun even wanna have a look at his face!i dun wanna choi him!i dun wan!!!!!!!!!!!stupid fella!

wherez my shoe?wherez my phone?

i decided to go for the practice today...

reached there by 9.45am...well,really felt tiring cos i really couldn't slept yesterday night!!seriously this was the first time i'd been through these...i felt really sleepy but my brain was stil ''working''..i felt sooooo suffering...i tot of getting to bed early so that i would have stamina for the next day...who noes....i couldnt get into sleep...til in the middle of the night!i was so scare that i felt myslef mentally depressed...therefore,i decided to got up of the bed and grabbed the MP3 player...i tot i would do it this time...who noes it nv helped!and i jus tried my very best...

anyway,me n crystal decided to practice earlier for the song...but we were both late..hahaha!while waiting for the rest to come...we had jaming for a short while!now i finally realised why my dad refuses to buy a bag to put my keyboard...hahha!i wont be studying now if i have that...cos i'l go jaming all the time til i cant rmb my home!kakakak!anyway,itz nice to listen to a bossanova song but haih...practice n listen to bossanovala!practice began..edward din come...anyway,he came so at least something...kakaka!sounds funny but kinda boring lo...cos we couldnt practice in a syncronised way since not everyone was here!later,we decided to go a break!!CC time!kakakka....we went there to play Counter Strike..well,i used to play this with my gang..but i had forgotten the procedures...kakak!nice man!i really like it now..cos itz so dam nice to play it online with frens...kkaka!they are really pro in playing this gamelo!!chun man!kakak!then bro came to pick up crystal...n we went for a lunch!''shall we meet''....itz a name of the restaurant that we went...i like the atmosphere here...all white...looks comfortable n clean...anyway,i was kinda guilty when they said the food sold here is costly..i nv thought of that at first...i thought they were be no prob since bro told me they often chill out there after cg...haih!sorry guys...i wont give any suggestion next time!sorry dudes!this gang of ppl sounds funny as in they really can speak heart-to-heart...which i think!they seem like willing to share their probs with one and another..anyway,im not too closed with them...perhaps i alwis deal with my dear dear..so our thinkings are kinda similar!get wut i mean dear dear!?

he looks cute

he sounds funny when he sang tat song...

hmm..today was the first day of coll after 5 days of hols due to celebration of hari raya...i felt refreshed in the morning...but the class somehow was a little bit boring...i did enjoyed cos with my gang there..kakka..n oso my The Sims 2!!!i love that game much ...i wanna play it again tmr.i dun care!yuen must lent me his hp!kakakak!he sounds different today..hez so funny recently..as in his attitudes, his actions,his emotions...kakak!!funy la!anyway, after class we went for lunch...hmmm...i was so surprised that kai act has the same taste as me...i mean we have topics on searching the best n right food for our choice!kakakka..finally i realised!anyway,i went for my drum lesson...i was kinda pissed cos o couldnt play out tat particular variation...i was so dam frustrating tat he even demostrated to me..haih!when i walked out the studio..i heard his voice from outside the studio..where there was this boy which is his student...n his dad was waiting down there..i would surely feel pressure with such situation..he did raised up his voice..n i felt kinda scary!later i went to cc ith fengyun!surpringly we spent our time there..where she surfed the net..n as usual i would play my games..andrew called me in a sudden saying asking whether im coming to his house or not...sooner or later,he came to have a drink together!i soooo dam surprisd when he told me that he has a new gf!wow!amazing man!i m glad to hear that !after having a drink with him...we went for our practice..while waited for others to come...i jus tot of seeing simon cos he might be coming for wed n thurs practice..who noes...hez not coming...fortunately someone was here,edward!kakakka...he looks silent n shy...but when i played out that song...Lok n Sem seemed like singing it..n he was by the side trying to sing together...anyway,he forgotten the lyrics...he looks so cute!!!kakakka!

the reason.....chicken hunter vs taurus

i will alwis rmb ,n i noe,let it goes with me..i'l nv leave this part of u...with u gone it plays on itz so hard to move on i wan to but i wanted u now u stay in mny head..im not over u yet,.i tried to but i wanted u...

sounds familiar?i used to put this thing as my display name for some period of time..somehow,i jus miss him...or u may say that im trying to remind myself bout him!anyway,i had pratice in the noon...i was kinda worried cos when things started to be nicely n excited in the beginning,it will end up witha sad conclusion!i was really scare that i might not click with them anymore!i told myself not to think bout it cos as long as he nv then itz fine!this sounds bad to think of a guy who has a gf where i knew both of them!i cant be doing this to myself!im shouldnt have pumped into him!itz a mistake!im so gonna hate myself from moving the wrong step!how could it be!?cheong shiaw lee is not gonna like this guy k!no more!i dun hope things to go wrong n serious n ends up without frenship!''the reason'' by hoobastank..i love this song!itz meaningful!i stil rmb he asked me bout the score last time...i played this song today with the some one playing the drum accompaniment..well,im so glad to have found someone who act have chemistry in music!im pleased to get a person who can have jaming or maybe to compose song togather!tatz real great!yayya...we wore the same colour of t-shirt n jeans as well!!kakkaak!
though it means but gals would think of some creation about it!kakakakak!

i talked to a new fren today...he was act a fren of sharon...dear dear..this is gonna be so fun!!kakak...cos u are trying to get my opinion by introducing him to me..kakak!so dam funnyla...like im gonna make the deision...kakka!anyway,itz nice to talk to him...his name is chau..sounds a nice guy!later,i talked to yiko..wel,he remind me somehting where i ought to put 100 concertration on my edu!thanks bro...i noe it!i'l keep ya word in my mind alwis!i'l try not to get near him!i 'l try to get rid of getting involved into relationship!