bad v good

really feel like bloggin last night but my modem got prob!!sob sob !

stayed wit no msn,no blogging,no surfing the internet...n finally i realised how important pc n internet in life!anyway...something sad n something good happened ytd...

letz begin with the sad thing...somehow,i jus felt not good when seeing them chatting n laughin there..but weirdly i jus couldnt get along with it...i jus feel that there a gal between me n them!i jus dun feel like forcing myself to laugh or looks happie but feel stupid in heart!perhaps i dun even give it a try to get along wit them...perhaps this is my fault!but the intention is not there anymore....n i think my attitude wil nv force me to do that!!lack out!!!!!i jus dun hope the day wil come to have no conversation...no topic...jus silence!!but i would say im starting to dislike his attitudes...hmmm,i dun agree with the ways he is,but this wouldnt be my business rite?somehow i jus feel disappointed towards him....n kept asking myself how could have i fallen into him even it was oni for 3 days long?stupid me!i felt ashame!!hez totally out of my world!!

another good news is...i saw him!at first i tot it would be a tough task for me to get along with him!it happened though where i really felt harsh to see his facial expression replied to my HI!but i kept telling myself not to expect much from him...cos itz surely impossible.....try to control my feelings n emotions!not to fall sooooo deeply into him til i hurt myself!somehow,i jus felt tat it was the happiest part for the day to chil with them!i hope everything will be fine from day to day!

itz early in the momrning..and im feeling somewhat...kinda weird...itz likedunno wutz happening in life....i jus feel like dun talking at all...as in i have no mood to talk to him...anyhow,i dun wana this situation to getting serious til we have no topic to talk bout...but sometimes it seems like i dun the intentionto even say hi to him!!i dun like this feeling...itz soooo cold!!

anyway,i got kinda confused when chatting with my frens ytd night...hmm...she jus asked me who is my current target?huh??i dun even noe whoz my target....perhaps im clear with myself...jus tat i dun wanna admiteit,...perhaps im kinda interested into him...buit then i sholud have fall in love with such a person....but wut to do....i dun wanna like him anymore..but whenever i close my eyes...he tends to appear in fonr tof him!im sooooo geram wiht his attitudes...how could he treat ppl in this way????DAM IT!!!!but at the asme time, i kept asking myslf why shud i bother so much bout him?somehow,,,itz jus a pain kille rfor me to mention tt all this time.

''sum tham''!!!!

it simply means frustrating or disappointing in canto..i would say that what am i to him?perhaps not even a fren..but i felt really pissed off when i saw him sitting and having fun in the room..i mean not being jealous or what..but i tot he was supposed to be bz with his coursework since he has gotto submit it this week...he even decided to cancel the lessons...or even no more guitar club or lessons at all.....but why has he to do in this way...without inviting us?perhaps he jus wanna have his own gang with him...but isit it irresponsible?i mean he was the one who started off in inviting us to join the club..and hez the one who asked to stop the class...wut shud i express to him?

furthermore, i even feel embarrasing and frustrating to have pumped into such a guy!!!i dun even bother to ask him since he has treated us in this way!somehow,i jus felt that he has nv treated us as his frens ever!no point of asking a question where the answer is predictable...i jus think that everything has gone meaningless at tat point!furthermore, i jus feel that he has made my to feel annoyin towards wut he has done!i dun hope this will happen cos i dun wanna let myself to love in hatre or anger...i really hope to treat him as fres..but i think it maybe a tough task to me!

confused!!

sometimes,i'l inquire myself whether or not i have good feelings towards this guy?or whether or not i have pumped into this guy?somehow,i jus think that situation wil be lessly complicated if the person is a gal!i mean i wouldnt have thought that i got fall in love the person when im missing a gal fren..in fact, i would ask myself do i act fall in love with this person if hez a guy!therefore,i do think itz the gender problem that cause me think sophisicatedly....perhaps i do have the same feeling towards gals..but jus that i'l think in detail if the same thing happen on guys!however, there may be situation where im sure that i really love this guy!the feeling is jus unique whereby nothing will come before him!ya mind appears nothing except him!but there may be no return though u have sacrifice much!but isnt it love to where i sacrifice for nothing but to love him!?wel, i do consider it as my perception...somehow,it may sounds foolish!

anyway,i found myslef kinda dumb or numb to feel wut happening around!perhaps im trying to not to feel?or im not good in getting the sense or signals!even someone may consists to have confessed to me..but i couldnt get anything!i personally think itz a big prob!i really dunno how to sense it!but hopefully itz not the bad thing!!

btw,i think i have seen him almost everyday...though itz not too long..perhaps jus a hi or bye...but the intention to seek for him..to just have a view of his face is alwis there!it happens to be funny that i miss him when hez not around..but i tend not to appreciate him when hez in front of me!i try not to display wutz in my mind on the facial expression..i wouldnt wan him to noe that i got good feelings towards him either...somehow,i jus feel that he noes something...n trying to prevent it from happenin..which i think itz a good thing!cos i dun wan all this to happen...sometimes,these makes me feel scare or afraid to approach him!perhaps i jus wan to remain as good fren or even bro n sis with him so tat i stil have him!!

wutz happening into me????

i had been crazy over this weekends..kept thinking on wutz he to me.why shud i concern bout wut he has done to me...how he has treated me??why shud i bother bout all this????the more i concern, the more often i think bout him...n this is sooo gonna drive me crazy!

the feeling is somewhat,in fear to see him or even meet him up..before i got out of the door heading to my college in the noon,i kept praying for not to see him...cos i'l feel somehow stress up whenever seeing him or dealing somethings that related to him!but i was soooo shocked that the first person i saw when i pulled the glass door was him!i tried to head down n jus passed by by walking straight to the cw department...when i found no one was there, i turned back n intended to walk to the pc lab...and i saw him again,he asked me to attend the guitar lesson tmr n saying that nadicson will be there too...shit wei!i was kinda pissed when i got the news!!after a long,i jus went out of the class when during break time,saw him..the same feeling arouse..i jus walked over there since kwung was there..then jus chitchatted for a while...it started off nicely..but ended up quarrelling...though itz nothing much serious..but why we tend to quarrel everytime over some small matters?the feeling is soooooo not nice!somehow itz kinda hurtful...even feel like sayin sorry to him..but i wont!

why is he to be so influencial in my life?

i love my frens...they are appreciable to me!they'd done something tat really surprised me,made me laughed,happie,excited,even wanna cry out!i really wanna hug each of u guys!!i'l rmb u guys in my life....promise!

anyway,i gotta noe something bout this guy..i jus felt frustrated towards him..i mean wut can a fren do for ya birthday...jus a wishing will make it jus nice to me!i think he knew bout it..perhaps he was jus too exhausted with his assignments..perhaps he was jus too tired for the day..or negatively maybe he might have jus dislike me...but i was pretty upset..he saw me..i appeared to be standing in front of him..i even walked there n talked to him..but why had he to treat me like that?he seemed to have treated me as no one was there...cant u jus picture the situation how harshly it was?i told myself not to feel tat anymore..not anymore..i even cried during the class.i jus felt how stupid i was to have cried for such a person..who nv cares...itz pain!

im 20 today!!!!wut i hope huh?

world peace..
happie family...
happie edu..life...
of cos not to be forgotten....my prince charming!!kaka

anyway,i saw him ytd..he looks exhausted...seems like he has been stress up with his assignments...and he said the submit date for the cw has changed to be earlier...i was pretty 'sum thong' when seeing him like that...but kinda geram cos he rather went to GENTING than finish up his cw...so kinda padan muka!but i see him like that...really feel soo pityful to him..really hope to be at his side...give him support!hope everythinh will be fine in ya life...dude!

hmmmm....

hihi!!itz been ages for me not blog here...

apparently i've been blogging at friendster, furthermore jus felt lazy to log in here..somehow i tot of deleting this,but this blog has kept all the memories with tt..so im not gonna do tat!many things had happened in this few months...itz year 2007 now...wow!!

met many ppl...get to noe them better..the better one wil be closer now..perhaps the closer ones may becoming further now...

kai-i knew him since 2005, we studied LCCI togather,but i nv get to noe him better tat time cos i had my gang!but we are really best frens now..noe wut?i found myself to have pumped into him..hmmm,jus for some moment..perhaps the feeling has gone..kaka!hez a nice guy,responsible,i admire the way he treats others,he'l nv promise u if he noes that he cant do it!i appreciate him as my fen...but sometimes i jus find myself to be jealous when hez treating other better than me!isnt it weird?i dun consider it as pumping into someone...jus sometime confuse bout it..somehow i may also feel the same thing if hez a gal...rite?

simon-this guy is awesome,in the sense hez charming in his way!he has his personality clear..im adore to his style!i love his personality!noe wut?i saw him in 2005,where i was studying LCCI n hez doing multimedia.my first impression towards him was-such a gurlish boy!but i gotta noe him last year,or even better this year!we act came from the same primary schoool...OH NO!itz all fated!kakak!i was kind adored to him at first cos he tends to be soo tempting!but sooner or later,when i get closer to him,i jus wan everything to remain at the current position,perhaps itz pleased to have such a fren!u'l melt off with his eye contact..hez absolutely a killer to girls!with his nice deep vocal and his eyes...wow!gorgeous!

gavin-hahah..i was kinda crazy bout him when the time he sang at the dinner n dance..perhaps thing tat happen seldomly will seems to be appreciable n precious..but when u get to approach to it frequently,then it'l be something ordinary!i was kinda excited when there were any opportunity for me to approach him..but it'l be different story when it happened to be true!im currently attending his guitar classes...sometimes feel kinda enjoying,but sometimes are jus so-so!why?i dunno....sometimes may really melt on his singing n playing..but mostly end up with an 'out-of-tune' bang!somehow,this makes me to be awake!!kakak!

evert-knew him last year...everyone thinks that i got pumped into him cos of his physical appearance...kakka!somehow i gotta communicate with him cos we were in a group for the performance..furthermore itz nice to have someone who is on the side of u!same interest perhaps!we like playing guitar..the classical?or electric?the jaming?wow!!!tatz y i have topic with him!itz nice to talk to him cos u'l see him with a smile everytime!wow...u'l feel happie n please to see such a person!it warms ya heart even u have tonnes of stressful workloads with u!i stil feel tat moment was sweet...when u were alone sitting with nothing to do,and decided to sms him...but wit no reply..somehow he just appeared in front of u surprisingly!though itz someting simply..isnt it simple the best?i like this..
..thomas tan??nothing to talk on him cos he'l alwis have a position in my heart!but just full of inquiries...love

happie birthday to Ms Vicky!

lotz to blog...gotta take my time..

my parents brought to have breakfast,and i told my dad that my class starts at 10 before that.who noes when i was jus finished my breakfast n jus to get into the car,my msg tone beeped...fengyun asked me didnt i noe there is a class now!OH NO!seriously i dinnolo!i was kinda nervous but wutz the point rite..cos i was at sri petaling,it takes me bout 30 mins to get back to coll!anyway,i was stil considered early since i reached coll at 9.45,if my class starts at 10la..kakka!anyway,costing...i thought i could cope up with it easily...and the fact is true!kakak..sounds arrogant!?i discovered that yuen likes to play a fool with me or joke with me now!hmmm..he alwis saying n doing the opposite of me!itz soooo obvious!sometimes, i dun even noe that im being angry with him...but stil laughing like hell..kakka!hez funnyla...but he got sick..poor dude!my mind wasnt in the classroom cos i found myself dreaming..kakk!not with tt...but a korean actor..kakka!i've got crazy bout him!
anyway,after that we had lunch togather..and revised later!lok n that gang was praticing a scatch for a wedding night specially dedicated to their lect-Mr Eddie!the story is bout the couple!!n i think this is so sweet cos the groom is preparing this surprise for the bride!OH NO!such a sweet guy!i dreamed for a moment when seeing them practised!i wonder how would i wan my ideal wedding night to be huh!?playing a song written by him n singing it with a guitar!?i hope he'l be a romantic personlol!!wait,i dun even have a bf now...kakak!evert was dancing so smoothly where he was demostrating the female part to a gal...so gentle!kkakak!n lok sounds funny when they were trying to be the aid to sem!after fengyun went off,we went for dinner.hmmm...had a short conversation with them before goin home to have a bath!

i was late to the church...everyone was sitting on the floor,n this is the first time for me to join their REAL events!eugene jus got me a place...n this part was act to share ya thoughts,feelings,activities that are happening recently in life.well,im stil not willing to share..then i jus told them im stressful from my preparation for the exams.after then they prayed for us,for the preparations of X'mas,the exams,health...n we received blessings from them!then there was a scatch prepared by some members as an opening and oso for us to laugh after a whole day of tiring and stressful work!then began to sing some workship songs!i was truely shocked here!cos wan theng,fengyun ,chunlee, and me are not christians, but we til enjoyed the songs since there was a live band there..so we jus sang!but wut i saw was different.....i looked around..lok,nadicson and some of them were so 'near' to GOD!they seemed to have closely connected to GOD!i was speechless when i turned my head to look at simon!!he seemed to have give himself to GOD!i was taken aback wit him!however,my concerntration was on bryan!hez the elect guitarist here,jus reminds me of tt!anyway,he plays well!bible time!perhaps i was new,so therez much thing which i dunno!but we jus sat togather,i din really listen to wut he said in front...so when he pray for us...or giving blessings to us..i felt kinda guilty!cos i din do anything for them...yet they stil pray for us!somehow,i jus asked GOD to forgive me for not being as a follower to HIM,i jus asked for forgiveness for everything that i've done...at the same while they were praying!u must have inquiring why did i go since i nv join REAL all the while...wel,the main point here was Ms Vicky!!i go there for the celebration of her birthday!and oso not forgotten to eat the cake!kakkak!everything seemed to be nice...n she likes our present too!itz act a photo frame where she can put 10 pics at the same time!i did insert all our photos taken togather with her!
chat n laugh....play!tatz all for the day!

perhaps im not used to attending events or activities like this...perhaps im not a socialable person...perhaps i not religious enough..perhaps im not respectful enough...perhaps im not open minded enough...i believe therez a GOD with us all the time...

another thing was...i discovered that bro fall into LT!i was kinda geram at first..not that jealousy has arose...itz jus that sem is putting much effort onto her...n now hez doin something...wel,u noe i have no rights in talking bout it..perhaps they'l jus compete..but i'l stand at semz side for this time!cos when i saw the way he talked to her,hmmm,sounds a little kinda fake!i dun mean hez fake or pretending..but jus not the ordinary one!whereas sem is jus being shy...

my ring!

yea!!!finally i got it back here...

tell u wut?tat day i was so frustrated wit the prob to log in here...i needed so much to blog out..but then i couldnt log in..so i intended to blog at friendster..however, blogger.com is more preferable...cos i hardly pour out everything there....especially secrets..kaka!so letz continue here...

recently im watching two korean series..im so crazy with them!'My Girl' and 'Wedding'..wel,i watched My girl before but since my sis bought it for me...then i jus watch in the car....while channel 18 is broadcasting 'wedding'...hmmm!!im so so so into both actors in both series!OH NO!there are awesome!!!my type!!kakkaka!though not super duper handsome..but i really love them!
yaya...i went to Ikeano power centre today...and something happened makes me feel sad!i lost a ring!!!!!!!!OH NO!my frens gave it to me when my birthday...itz act two rings and can be combine into one....i spilted into two n wore them on different fingers!who noes!!sad!they bought it since based on my starscope!im soooo sad!!!!how could it be!?i searched for a while..but really have no idea where did i lost it!!i realised when i was queing up at the cashier!OH NO!how could i be sooo slow!??haih!!can i have it back!!!????sad!itz not bout the price,....itz meaningful in the sense!shitla!i wonder where can i get the same thing!!!!!!but itz meanigless!!!!!!

wouldnt it be surprising to continue after a long time?supposingly i would be excited to share with u guys bout my experience bout the D&D..anyway, somethings and someone makes me dun feel like bloggin out, or even thought of collapsing this blog as well!anyhow,i wont cos this blog is meaningful to me!i really hope to remain this..
anyway,many things happening continuously,firstly i got my D&D,unexpectably that we stil get together and have fun though the performance had over...but the friendship is stil there...somehow, i jus dun feel like joining YA,perhaps im not their kind!as in im not as socialable as them..i do enjoy goin out or yum cha with them..but not those events!letz talk bout last week,someone called me up n intended to say nothing!who could it be?the first person i thought was him-kah hou!nonetheless, i jus couldnt give it a dare to make the second call!itz pointless if he jus answer me reluctantly!i dun wanna him to talk to me like how he used to be previously!itz pain!i cried almost half of the day..serious!i couldnt control myself!i was trying my best to stop crying,but the tears jus dripped off so naturally...my mind was filled with the memories we used to be together,we used to have fun...wel,everything has over!
this monday,i went to red box to celebrate semz birthday!i tot it would be dam dam dam boring at first cos we dinno each other well!i was so not in the mood in the morning cos cws not done yet...stil gotta have fun with them!but i was kinda shocked when feng yun had got into fire...she was soo angry since the guys were not punctual...but how could she angry the birthday boy?i jus think that itz not rite to spoilt everyonez mood...though she thinks that the guys are to be blamed!shouldnt celebration be happie!?anyway,thanks lokie cos he was trying to let me to sing with evart!kakak!my face gone red like a tomato k!anyway,he has a nice vocal!hez jus awesome..talented,brilliant,.....such a nice guy!wutz less than blowing off 19 candles and giving the gifts during celebration...i got sooo fed up with this...since the same thing happened last monday at red box but that was sunway pyramid...n this was the curve!i felt sooo dam sien!why cant the celebration be kinda outstanding!?perhaps this is the culture of celebrating birthday among the coll students!and some kinda birthday celebration is gonna take place the day after tomoro!wut can i do?how can i reject!?can i jus go there n sit...can i jus talk nothing cos i have nothing to say excluding happy birthday!i miss the harmony,i miss sitting down chatting with my dears,i miss jaming,i miss chattin in the blues,under the stars and moon,with a glass of wine in the hand...laying on the huge n soft pillow,talking heart to heart,with laughters and tears,i jus missing it!somehow, i jus dun like to have a big gang cos there would have no chance to share the inner feelings!or u may jus say..couple!but sometimes not necessary to be that stage,perhaps a fren is enough!suddenly i jus feel that those celebrations would jus blow my mind off!i cant be celebrating like them..isnt it important to see the numbers of ppl coming to celebrate with u!?isnt it the greater the better!?buying cake?having a birthday song?isnt it the normal thing that we usually do?can it be something extraordinary!?gift....the valuable one will alwis be the best!?i think a hug n greeting would jus simply melt off!something which is meaningful...a poem on a card?a song written by yourself?why do ppl alwis evaluate the price of the gift!?isnt it priceless?!

before.....

finally the night has spotted out our hard work...

the annual dinner and dance had jus over ytd night...finally got some time to have a good rest!we were really tired since rushing here and there through out the whole day long..morning class till break, fengyun and me went off the class n joined them to prepare our hairstyle..though itz not as nice as the loreal one..at least we dun have to crack our mind for the hairstyle!after that eugene fetched me back to coll and i did accompanied my gang to have lunch but i couldnt since i passed my wallet to fengyun!later, i went to the library to search for the law reference books...and went home to bring the keyboard to eastin hotel!by 2.30,we were there for the practice and everything till the night!i was feeling kinda bored in the morning where i act sms my dear!how could it be cos itz the day where we're gonna show our master piece...our smiles...and everything!i tried to relax my emotions n things seemed going fine!after getting the rooms, we went up n had a rest...played poker cards..nice!after that,we did went down and had a short practice section again...but this time i felt really really pissed n bored cos the Djs had jus reached the hotel n doing the settings...we couldnt do anything...but edwart was busy with the slides...kakka!sounds funny man!but we did find something to do..playing with the flowers,candles,singing,dancing,laughin around...but Ms vicky seemed nervous but we were jus fooling around!itz almost 5.30 and we act had an hour time for us to bath and set up everything for the D&D!!back to the room,everyone was rushing...bathing,make ups,dress...kakakka!anyway, it was real fun!putting on mascara,eyeliner,eyeshadows,lips,glitters,perfume,etc!but the gals were kinda late...n the guys din wait for us!we went down by 7.30..but the dinner began at 8.05..so it didnt matter to be late!the guys were normal,but necdecson was kinda 'cool'..i think he must had invested a large sum of money into that!btw,simon n edwart were jus simple and nice!

to be continued....i hope to upload some pics here!

wutz life!?

somehow,i feel nothing but strange to him...

wel,we seem to be closed to one and another..he tells me bout his family,feelings,relationship..i tot i would have met someone really nice n true at first..tatz why we are like bro n sis...but sooner or later, i realised something,therez a one-way-frenship where i will forever be the listener..i noe itz good n excellent to lend a ear to ya fren when they need me...but i jus feel relunctant to pour out my thoughts, my feelings,instead i jus keep inside n goes on with his prediction...sometimes,im not feeling as wut he has say,but i dun intend to explain or even tell him the truth cos i think this is my personal things where im given a choice to share with whoever i wan!i feel bad cos this is gonna be so lame n mean to treat a fren like this...cos this might hurts him as in i dun hope he'l noe my this blog!kakakk!anyway,i'l jus keep listening to him...whenever he tells me staff!cos i do think he treats me as fren so im not gonna take the bad way towards him!

basically i would crack my mind of getting wut kinda gift for m frenz birthday..or thinking wut kinda surprises for them...surprisingly i thought of getting my courseworks done instead of thinking where to celebrate with him...i dun feel like doing that cos itz not truely from my heart...i mean i dun intend to send him even a msg..but i did wished him last night!i thought of getting him a card n send it to his letterbox...but i dun feel like walking all the way from coll to his house!i thought that itz a wasted of time..i went to library n searched for some facts!i felt myself sooo weird as in im thinking that hez soo different from the ppl i met all the while!i mean my frens are sooo differnt from him..or u may say them!i dun really like to mix with such a gang...though i noe they are nice ppl ..but jus not style..i dun like ppl to cheat during exams!i dun like ppl to behave in this way!i shudnt be complaining cos no one is perfect..but they are jus sooo different from my gang!i really cant compare them with my gang cos they are soo ''root''!though barry comes from hk,but wutz da point even he doesnt noe how to respect others!?ivy is a nice gal..but we hardly have topics cos somehow i think we have age gap...perhaps im not at their stagelol!!he doesnt seem to be a student..wutz da point of buying all the certificates!?wutz da point of cheating in the exams!?wutz da point of studying in class?!wutz da point of doing all this in life!?why cant he jus rely on himself!?therez not point in paying other ppl to get the courseworks done!i dun like it!itz useless to get such a degree!

one more thing i would like to mention here...i dislike netherson!i really feel annoyed with himla!wutz da purpose of brining his tux here!?i mean why has he to bring it up!?i really dun und!to show off to his frens!?perhaps im not really familiar with him...but i do found him pretty weird some ways!i dun really like his behaviours in treating others...i dun care whether hez from a wealthy family or not...the oni thing i feel irritated is his attitude!i jus dun like it!hez sooooo perculiar!i really dun wanna talk to him sometimes..as in i dun even wanna have a look at his face!i dun wanna choi him!i dun wan!!!!!!!!!!!stupid fella!

wherez my shoe?wherez my phone?

i decided to go for the practice today...

reached there by 9.45am...well,really felt tiring cos i really couldn't slept yesterday night!!seriously this was the first time i'd been through these...i felt really sleepy but my brain was stil ''working''..i felt sooooo suffering...i tot of getting to bed early so that i would have stamina for the next day...who noes....i couldnt get into sleep...til in the middle of the night!i was so scare that i felt myslef mentally depressed...therefore,i decided to got up of the bed and grabbed the MP3 player...i tot i would do it this time...who noes it nv helped!and i jus tried my very best...

anyway,me n crystal decided to practice earlier for the song...but we were both late..hahaha!while waiting for the rest to come...we had jaming for a short while!now i finally realised why my dad refuses to buy a bag to put my keyboard...hahha!i wont be studying now if i have that...cos i'l go jaming all the time til i cant rmb my home!kakakak!anyway,itz nice to listen to a bossanova song but haih...practice n listen to bossanovala!practice began..edward din come...anyway,he came so at least something...kakaka!sounds funny but kinda boring lo...cos we couldnt practice in a syncronised way since not everyone was here!later,we decided to go a break!!CC time!kakakka....we went there to play Counter Strike..well,i used to play this with my gang..but i had forgotten the procedures...kakak!nice man!i really like it now..cos itz so dam nice to play it online with frens...kkaka!they are really pro in playing this gamelo!!chun man!kakak!then bro came to pick up crystal...n we went for a lunch!''shall we meet''....itz a name of the restaurant that we went...i like the atmosphere here...all white...looks comfortable n clean...anyway,i was kinda guilty when they said the food sold here is costly..i nv thought of that at first...i thought they were be no prob since bro told me they often chill out there after cg...haih!sorry guys...i wont give any suggestion next time!sorry dudes!this gang of ppl sounds funny as in they really can speak heart-to-heart...which i think!they seem like willing to share their probs with one and another..anyway,im not too closed with them...perhaps i alwis deal with my dear dear..so our thinkings are kinda similar!get wut i mean dear dear!?

he looks cute

he sounds funny when he sang tat song...

hmm..today was the first day of coll after 5 days of hols due to celebration of hari raya...i felt refreshed in the morning...but the class somehow was a little bit boring...i did enjoyed cos with my gang there..kakka..n oso my The Sims 2!!!i love that game much ...i wanna play it again tmr.i dun care!yuen must lent me his hp!kakakak!he sounds different today..hez so funny recently..as in his attitudes, his actions,his emotions...kakak!!funy la!anyway, after class we went for lunch...hmmm...i was so surprised that kai act has the same taste as me...i mean we have topics on searching the best n right food for our choice!kakakka..finally i realised!anyway,i went for my drum lesson...i was kinda pissed cos o couldnt play out tat particular variation...i was so dam frustrating tat he even demostrated to me..haih!when i walked out the studio..i heard his voice from outside the studio..where there was this boy which is his student...n his dad was waiting down there..i would surely feel pressure with such situation..he did raised up his voice..n i felt kinda scary!later i went to cc ith fengyun!surpringly we spent our time there..where she surfed the net..n as usual i would play my games..andrew called me in a sudden saying asking whether im coming to his house or not...sooner or later,he came to have a drink together!i soooo dam surprisd when he told me that he has a new gf!wow!amazing man!i m glad to hear that !after having a drink with him...we went for our practice..while waited for others to come...i jus tot of seeing simon cos he might be coming for wed n thurs practice..who noes...hez not coming...fortunately someone was here,edward!kakakka...he looks silent n shy...but when i played out that song...Lok n Sem seemed like singing it..n he was by the side trying to sing together...anyway,he forgotten the lyrics...he looks so cute!!!kakakka!

the reason.....chicken hunter vs taurus

i will alwis rmb ,n i noe,let it goes with me..i'l nv leave this part of u...with u gone it plays on itz so hard to move on i wan to but i wanted u now u stay in mny head..im not over u yet,.i tried to but i wanted u...

sounds familiar?i used to put this thing as my display name for some period of time..somehow,i jus miss him...or u may say that im trying to remind myself bout him!anyway,i had pratice in the noon...i was kinda worried cos when things started to be nicely n excited in the beginning,it will end up witha sad conclusion!i was really scare that i might not click with them anymore!i told myself not to think bout it cos as long as he nv then itz fine!this sounds bad to think of a guy who has a gf where i knew both of them!i cant be doing this to myself!im shouldnt have pumped into him!itz a mistake!im so gonna hate myself from moving the wrong step!how could it be!?cheong shiaw lee is not gonna like this guy k!no more!i dun hope things to go wrong n serious n ends up without frenship!''the reason'' by hoobastank..i love this song!itz meaningful!i stil rmb he asked me bout the score last time...i played this song today with the some one playing the drum accompaniment..well,im so glad to have found someone who act have chemistry in music!im pleased to get a person who can have jaming or maybe to compose song togather!tatz real great!yayya...we wore the same colour of t-shirt n jeans as well!!kakkaak!
though it means but gals would think of some creation about it!kakakakak!

i talked to a new fren today...he was act a fren of sharon...dear dear..this is gonna be so fun!!kakak...cos u are trying to get my opinion by introducing him to me..kakak!so dam funnyla...like im gonna make the deision...kakka!anyway,itz nice to talk to him...his name is chau..sounds a nice guy!later,i talked to yiko..wel,he remind me somehting where i ought to put 100 concertration on my edu!thanks bro...i noe it!i'l keep ya word in my mind alwis!i'l try not to get near him!i 'l try to get rid of getting involved into relationship!

taurus vs sagittarius

i did mentioned that i pumped into this guy in my previous post..

his name is simon..hez a nice...this is wut i can say bout him...i would make u feel happie n laugh though u are in a bad mood!i feel kinda regret why didnt i meet him up last year...dear dear!i shud have join youth ablaze last year!haih...everything should have started earlier!
anyway,itz pretty good to have known him too!i realised someone who is act not as ''teruk'' as i tot last time...his name is netherson...well,i found him kinda irritating at first..but when knowing him better...everything seemed to be differ from the fact...kakak!when the first time he took up the roach n threw it to the dustbin...the first time we talked bout music...the first time he listened to my playing..the first time i played his Art & Lutherie acoustic guitar costs RM 1300...the first time we act had the most topics to talked bout....anyway,is til find simon is the best of all...cos of the way he looks at other..the way he treats other...he so lovely...perhaps hez the one i like...so,wutever he does seems to be the best for me!we have topics...the feeling is unique...he would bring comfort to u...

the coll sounds silent for the first ever..

all the lecturers have gone for a seminar...therefore all the classes have cancelled!but we had practice in the morning...so i jus went to coll as usual...practice starts at 10 am but i reached there at 9..i did some work at the library...around 9.45 i called up fengyun n we tended to walk there togather...while i was waiting for her..i met up with ms vicky...then we had a short talk...she said i look enjoying with the dance!kakakka...memang cos hez there!alalalala!
at first i tot the practice shud be boring cos hez not here...since hez working whole day...but then everything seemed to be the opposite of wut i thought!i din expect things to be like this!there were a drum set,bass guitar.acoustic guitar n a keyboard!as usual...cheong shiaw lee would play all that...kakak...though im not prob in everything!but i jus wanna try out mer!is there any prob in trying out those?shud be no rite?but i think she might be feeling bad cos da guys were like so one kind with me cos we found to be kinda 'click' with each other...sorryla....jaming is my fav!so for sure guys would be my frens..act jus that we have the same topics!Lok ask me to teach him..n he was jus complaning cystal...hmmm..i felt bad when he did this to herlo...n even netherson came to me cos he'z learning guitar...kakka!oni had the first lesson...kakak!but hez passionate in music...gogogo!moreover sam was asking me to teach him this n that...lok was asking me to teach him piano n guitar...netherson was listening to my playing of my fav song''more than words''...i felt imrpessed in a sudden cos i dislike this guy all this time..even ytd i was so mean to him where i said hi to simon but showed him a bad face!n everything seemed to change after 24 hours...perhaps we have the same interest...anyway,sam is a nice guy...hez so cute!he looks like a shy guy..and Lok is a very funny guy!they are nice ppl....i really hope can chill out wit them or maybe have jaming section with them!

later,i met up with my dearie!but sadly there were some ppl here so made me not to pour out everything....cos there'l stil have something to be kept between us dearie!

u are so true...cos i dunno that i would pumped into simon this year!kakak...me myself feel surprised too!cos i'd been saying that this guy is sooo dam kem last year...but i got pumped into him this year!shitla!

i must not!

wut a nice day...

i went to coll in the morning..wel,as usual i'l be late to the class..n u saw the guys were sitting at the same roll...4 of them togather...but she seems to sit at the different side n roll..so where wut shud be my decision?i intended to marched towards my guys!!kakakk!cos i dun wanna be sitting there without 'aids'!we did enjoyed our law lesson...after class,we went for a lunch,hmmm...i had thought of goin somewhere to have lunch at first..i told kai that i dun feel like eating at medan selera!but she wanted to have some rice...but i wanted to have a air-conditioned place..but finally we decided to go to McD!somehow i felt kinda guilty cos she nv odered anything..i felt that im the one cosing her to have no lunch!i kept telling her that i'l be accompanying her to have rice but she refused..so i din bother bout that anymore!later we had FA2 lesson,we sat in a roll..i was feeling so dam boring during the class cos i din see my LCs for both classes!suddenly i took kaiz wallet n have a look of wutz inside..i saw a platinum credit card!he old me there might be around RM15k for the card...then i jus took it n placed in my wallet immediately!!kakak!am i mean enough?anak kampungmer..nv see credit card b4,kakakk!class finished,i saw simon at the doorway,i was kinda glad when he said hez gonna practice with us!wut did i feel like this!?then andrew had asked me to accompany him to eat his meal..so i jus went with him since i was free at that moment...but i wanted him to have a look at simon!!!aaaaaaa!yikoh said this guy is gorgeous though hez not those handsome n muscular type!!but his sis jus pump into this guy...kakka!but i noe i must not since i knew whoz the gal,i even knew her!so yiko asked me jus to keep an eye n not to do anything...hahah!this is something playing in my mind all the time whenever i like a guy!!kkka!sounds so loser rite?anyway,we practice at a classroom..with the gals n some guys there..simon,netherson,sam...sadly edward wasnt there!haih!when the guys were practising for their part,i saw a dead roach at the corner of the floor..i got entire scared off...netherson then took a small piece of paper n i tot he was trying to pick it up to scare me...which i alwiz got bullied from my frens!so i jus ran out of the classroom...when i got back to the classroom,i was keeping an eye outside the classroom through the side window,simon jus locked the door!to bad,Ms vicky jus needed me n he had to let me in...kakak!he said the roach was no longer thereliao...he even told me that they wont scare me wth thay!kakak..i suddenly i felt so sweet with this 2 guys!but sorry...cos before that i saw Mr Wilson...OMG!did he take his pills for the day?i has totally changed his style today!i wore a red buitton up shirt...with a black denim long pant!wut an awesome he is huh!he simply shines!im so adore to him!after the practice,i went to search for yiko but couldnt got him..then i saw taikoz car..n we went for a meal..but i was time to go so i din eat anything...we had a short chat...bout his work now..bout his studies now...bout his financial condition now..wel,i asked him to show me a guy ...but the guy name kit was later today...he came with a motorbike...not scooter...the huge one!seems cool huh!but taiko took dmy spect so i couldnt see him in a clearer view!there surely have another chace!

such a sweet guy~

i feeling so uncomfortable at after the practice...

well,back to last saturday,i had piano lessons with teacher suziez students since 9.30 in the morning...wel,it sounds fun but i nearly slept off when they played me their pieces!!akaka...i noe i sounds so bad cos i shud respect them rite?but wut to do..the air-con was dam cold...n i had no break time,furthermore i forgotten to bring my money as well!!kakak!but i did discovered something..while i was looking at the results slips...i saw sharpurz name!!he got merit for his P5 guitar exam...n i saw his IC no...kakka!am i bad enough?0813...kaka...hez a leo!well..the best suits aries!!!hahahaha!but then i wan another guy!mirado really reminds me of him so much...reminds me everything...i wonder how is he now?i miss him much...im wondering howz he doin now?i hope everything is fine in his life...then i'l be so blessed wit it!i wan him to live a happien n healthy life!no matter wut...i'l love him much!

something happened today...which is nothing happened during the whole long day..we had extra lesson today for FA2...n half of the classmates nv attend the lesson..well,i have to get the attendance signed!anyway,the main thing was we had practice after lunch...n i thought shud be fun cos..yaya...jus let me to mention here...this guy name simon..saw him since last year..but knew him this year...cos tat time he asked whether interested in CG or not..anyway,i found this guy so secure...as in gals would probably melt off with him!though it might not be melting to u..but i really like it when he touched my head with his hand...n sounded like a big bro...n asking u ''have u got ya lunch?''...wow...i think with his voice softly spoken out that sentence...seriously would melt u off man though hez not those musculine-well-looking-trendy-dude!he simply shinesla!jus put him aside..i would say i dislike this guy name netherson,who is a teamate with me in performing the play for the D&D!i hate this guy...for no reason ..perhaps u might say im pretty crictical..but i really dislike him!wut the hell!